'I don't deserve you.I don't deserve life'

'Jordan where are you?'

'It's all my fault.I'm a dirty little slut and I don't deserve love especially not from you' I can hear her sobs and it breaks my heart

'Jordan stop saying that.I love you so much don't say that about yourself'

'Niall I'm responsible that everyone died.How could I just think about living a normal life with their souls still being restless because of me.Just because of me' She said crying harder

'Jordan stop saying that shit and tell me where you are' I practically yell at her.I hear her gulping.

'I'm broken beyond repair' She whispers,more to herself than to me.

'No' She whispers 'I won't say that' She says.Who's she talking to?

'Who are you talking to Jordan?' I ask her

'Say it' A female voice demands

'No!' Jordan exclaims

'Don't make me kill you and your child' The voice threatens.Child?Jordan's preganant?

'Niall I...don't..I don't..lo-'

'Jordan talk to me please' I beg as I can't hold the tears back anymore.I hear her beautiful voice for the first time after four moths and she's crying

'I LOVE YOU!' She screams and then the line goes off


Sandra's POV

'Where would you hide Jordan if you were-'

'A psychotic mad bitch?I don't know' I snap,getting frustrated

'Right.Let's think out of Scarlette point of view' Liam suggests

'Ewwww' Perrie whines and Sophia pinchs her in her arm

'Perrie stay serious this is important.Don't forget we are doing this for Jordan' Sophia says and Perrie nods her head in understandement.She's right now is not the time for joking.

'She probably hides her in a place which has a personal meaning for her' Harry says.I'm so thankful that he's still with me.Though I was crying almost everyday missing Jordan terribly.
It's so hard to look at JJ without crying.She looks so much like Jordan.Like Jordan not like Scarlette

'Scarlette makes Jordan responsibe for her dad's death' Zayn states

'Honestly I still don't understand that.How can Scarlette be Jordan's twin sister but can at the same time have another father?' Louis asks

'It's simple.Do you remember Stan?He tried to kill Jordan because he tought she was his daughter.' Niall explains

'And?'

'I mean,Jenna probably took Scarlette and showed her her father.She probably didn't mention her name and so Stan thought it was Jordan' He continues and Louis nods his head.
I'm just thinking about myself not really realizing how much hurt Niall has to feel at the moment.
The past 4 months he tried so hard to stay strong but we can see he's tired and broken.

'That explains why Stan tried to kill Jordan,but that still doesn't explain the fact that she's her twin with another father' Eleanor asks

'They are fraternal twins.The fact that they still look a like is probably because Jenna has the stronger genes.' I answer.I wrote my doctor about that topic.

'So you think that Jordan is in this psychotic guy's house?' Zayn asks and I nod my head

'And where is his house then?' Perrie asks impatiently as Zayn tries to calm her down

Noone answers and so we sit there in uncomfortable silence

'I know who could know it!' Niall suddendly exclaims and runs out of the house with his jacket and his car key.I run right after him not letting him go on his own.

'What are you doing here?' He asks as he notices me standing behind him

'I'm coming with you and yes I know that I have kids and that I'm a girl but she's my best friend.
She's more like a stupid little sister that I love with all my heart so yes I'll go with you' I snap and sits in his car aiting for him to do the same

After half an hour of silence I need to ask him something

'Where are we driving?'I ask not looking at him one single time

'We're driving to Mary and Jack.' He finally answers

'So we're driving to Bedford?'I ask again and as he nods his head I stop talking not wanting to talk any further

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After another 30 minutes we halt in front of the old little

'Don't tell them what happend to Jordan' I say to him strictly and all I receive is a confused look

'They know that she run away' He says

'Honestly,don't.Just make up some lie but don't tell them that Jordan's got kidnapt.They would not survive that.The fact that the only thing left from their daughter's got kidnapt.Don't tell them that the only thing they're living for is in danger' I say sternly,trying to contain my growing frustration and sadness

'Hey Niall,hey Sandra what are you kids doing here?' Mary asks as she greets us.
She looks so happy and her eyes shine as she hugs the both of us

'We wanted to talk to the both of you' Niall whispers softly

'Oh.Ok.Then just go inside.I'll quickly call Jack' She smiles and we all enter the house

'You know it may sound strange but we hoped that you could give us the adress of Stan McClaffland's house' He starts and Mary almost chokes her tea on him.

'Why?' Jack asks sternly as he helps Mary to calm down

'You know..I...I want to know how someone could become such a wicked person.How he could do so much hurt on the love of life.How he could become such a murderer and killed her mum..your daughter.I just..I just want to put it behind.' He almost whispers.He's looking at the floor fumbling with his fingers

'Niall you know all we want is that you kids are happy.And if it's your wish then we accept that.
Here's the adress'Jack says and hands him a piece of paper

'Thank you' Niall whispers and we say our good byes

'Niall wait!' Jack calls him back and turn around to go with him

'Sandra wait in the car I'll come quickly' He say and I do as I'm told

As I sit in the car I see the two talking and then Jack hugs Niall again.If the situation wasn't that hard and uncomfortable I'd ask him what they talked about

'1059 Midland Road' I say on our way back to London

The ride is in an agonizing silence the only voice we hear is Ed Sheeran singing Masters of war

'Hello'

'Jordan?!' He shouts and my eyes grow wide

'Jordan where are you?' He asks.I don't really hear her voice but I hear loud,infinite sobs.

'Jordan stop saying that.I love you so much don't say that about yourself' He whispers trying his hardest not to cry

'Jordan stop saying that shit and tell me where you are' He shouts and it break my heart seeing him so scattered and frustrated.His one of my best friends and it makes me cry seeing him like that

'Who are you talking to Jordan?' He asks containing is anger

'Jordan talk to me please' He begs her

'Fuck!' He shouts and throws the phone away

At this point the tears are flowing freely,and I don't even want them to stop.I don't care anymore.
This is officially my breaking point.

'Niall stop' I yell at him

'Stop this fucking car!' I shout and he does as he's told not thinking about fighting back

'I'll drive' I say and we change seats

'Do you think we can save her?' He suddendly asks looking at his phone with the now broken screen

'Yes.Not because I want to believe so but I have to' I admit

'She never stopped loving me' He whispers and I nod my head

'No'

Notes

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