I stand up after three hours of sleeping and want to go to the kitchen as I overhear Sandra talking to Harry

'She left forever Harry ' Sandra cries as he tries to sooth her

'Why does she do that to me?We're supposed to be best friends.She could tell me everything.Why did she leave?She didn't need to save me.She didn't need to safe us.Since she left I can't look at JJ without crying.Do you know how awful I feel.Not being able to look at your own daughter because she has Jordan's eyes.I just can't handle this anymore' She cries into his chest and she strokes her back

' I know you can' He says and she looks up

'And how.Tell me how do you know that I am strong enough?How do you know I can handle this?'

'I know it because I love you' Harry answers and I feel a lump forming in my throat

That exactly what I said to Jordan for when she broke down because of Steve's call

Flashback

She looks at me with all emotions she feels mixed up in her eyes.Was it to early to say it? The L-word
That word I was,I am afraid of.And I said it.First.I said it to her.
Her face softens but she still says nothing.I can't believe that a young,beautiful girl has to go through so many things.I can't believe that she doesn't realize that she's pretty or that she's funny.
I usually don't believe in love at the first sight,although it's ironically that what we're singing about in the band,but when I saw her in London,running towards me,looking on the floor with her beautiful eyes,which looks like the water after a storm,I knew that I feel something for her
And now,this beautiful girl is sitting before me,her heart's broken into pieces because life's quite a bitch and I told her that I love her.

'I-I ' She stutters

'Jordan,listen.You don't have to say it if you don't.But I love you.I know it's really stereotyped and you have so much,better said too much to struggle and that you think you can't handle this anymore and that your dad and everyone else lied to you and that you are sad and depressed and I don't know what else but that doesn't change that I love you'

She smiles at me with her beautiful face and a tear,a lonely little tear,rolls over her left cheek

'I love you,too' She pauses 'Niall Horan,I love you'


Flashback ends

And now I'm standing here all alone because she loves me some much that she thinks I would be better without her.

'Hey mate are you okay? ' Liam asks and I nod my head not trusting my voice

'Call me if you need me' He says and I nod again.

I know that I'm about to cry and I hate that.

It's not in my intention to cry

'But it's okay if you do' I turn around and see Zayn looking at me,his eyes red

'Yes you said it out loud He chuckles and I look at the floor
So I'm not just broken-hearted but also crazy. GREAT!

He sits down next to me not saying a word.Why am I so mean to them?All they want is to make me feel better but I refuse to be happy without her.She makes me so happy and even when she cried she still had the intention to not make me be sad.It may sound strange but that who she is and that's what I love.You know what,I can't sit here all the time waiting for nothing.

I'm going to search her,no matter what

Notes

Hey guys,
I'm again on a secret mission

mission accomplished

anyways,i have to learn Spanish now because we are writing the exam tomorrow

I don't want to but

Eso si que es!


Ok,bye and sorry for boring you with a filler

xxjustteenagedirtbags