we drove in silence for about 20 minutes, the only thing i could hear was harrys heavy breathing. what on earth did i do wrong....is he this angry just because i rubbed his crotch?he tried to get me naked and i wasnt this angry.

we got to the hotel, harry got out of the car and headed to our suite leaving me behind.i ran to catch up with him and i found him just entering.i ran after him and pushed him until he was on the floor in the living room area.i sat on top of him and placed my hands on his chest,he tried to get up without injuring me but he soon realised that the only way he would get of the floor is if he roughly pushed me off of him and since he was not willing to have me injured he gave up and placed his hands over his face and gave a frustrated groan.i decided to neither move nor say a word....let him relax then break the silence i told myself.it was kind of fun to be on top of him...not a bad place to be i mentally told myself.

after his breathing had become stable and his anger turned into irritation i figured it was safe to go.

"so.....harold edward styles.....whats with the sudden change in attitude. i thought you had stopped that chameleon like behaviour" i said removing his hands from his face so he could look at me.

"harry... i dont know about you but i am sick and tierd of this.today we are friends and tomorrow we dont want to see eachother.im tierd of pretending to be happy...im tierd of acting like i dont want to be with you, like i dont want to be the person who you stop your bad boy behaviour for..the one you fall in love with im tierd of acting like i dont want to be the one you lust for...im tierd!! sick and tierd" i said almost crying, but this was not the time for weakness.

harry was quiet for what seemed like forever.i felt embarrased... i poured out my heart thinking he had something to say but no....i cant even see any emotion in his face.just as i was about to get off him and go to sleep he pulled me back down and placed his hands firmly on my hips just incase i decided to run away.

"i am tierd too." he simply said.

"then why do you always act so mean to me?harry....just tell me this...i know you have said it befor but feelings change.do you like me?" i asked nervously.

he smiled " a whole fucking lot." he said without hesitation or time to think.

"then why dont you act like you do?" i questioned

"because i am a fucking asshole." he replied. "sarah...im sorry ok, im sorry for treating you like crap" he added.

i smiled. " what you said ...did you mean it?are you really going to be uhmmm busy?"

"everything i said was true...girls have been calling me up.but about you and making reservations......nah. i was just speaking out jelousy and depression." he said messing up his hair.

"jelous of what?and depressed?you?why?" i asked suprised.

"jelous that niall and you had a momment that is supposed to be one of the most special and memorable times of a girls life...other than giving birth and marriage of course....and i was depressed because that is something that no other man will be able to share with you...no one.....not even me.i meant it though when i said i would have made it more special and worth remembering than niall.....i mean did you like it?" he asked hoping for a no.

"well yes, i did like it...its the only time i have had sex so i dont know the difference between good sex and bad sex.but honestly...i think you would make much better lover...you look like the type....." i said bitting my lower lip. "im sorry that i caused that though....you didnt even express the least bit interest in me.you kept playing the ' we are just friends' cards and i didnt even thing for a sec that it would affect you..." i continued.

"well its done now...nothing can change" he said turning his head to the left.

"why did you get pissed off tonight?" i asked curiously.

"well because i find it hard to be in the same room with you and not get sexually excited,and then you did that thing with your foot which really pushed me over the edge and i got pissed because i wanted you badly and i cant have you." he said without the least bit of shame.

"hahaha that was sexual frustration?" i asked him.

"yep"

"harry edward...who said you cant have me?" i asked leaning down so i could say it closer to his ears and kissing his cheek.

"get up" he commanded and i did.

he got up shortly after me and crashed his lips on mine without warning.