A LITTLE CINDERELLA STORY
confessions
days went by slowly after that interview..i did what i was here to do,work (it included: maikng sure the boys were awake and early on time for interviews etc,they got enough sleep,had water and snacks during the shows,had all the outfits on check etc)it was more than i expected. harry and i were neutral to eachother.and by that i mean sometimes we talked to eachother and made eachother laugh and sometimes we just ignored eachother...we could go without talking for 2-3 days,i dont know why..he just oppted to avoid me.i got to know zayn and liam a lot more and we ended up being close friends.louis and i.....well we were almost inseperable..we just always had a good time.niall and i became a couple a few days ago .everything seemed normal i guess.we where in a different city or county almost every two days..and i shared my rooms with niall. i had met perrie,eleanor and danielle a few times.i felt uncomfortable being around them though...they had known eachother for a while now and i was the newbie...i rarely knew what they were talking about especially when it was some old story about the boys because i had nothing to share.not forgeting the age difference..i know that the gap between me,perrie and eleanor is somwhere like only 2 or 3 years,which is not that huge but it just didnt feel right.and perrie was a singer..,dani a proffesional dancer and eleanor a smart political student and model...and i was just a poor kid with nothing good to tell about myself.i pretty much had no one to talk to..about personal issues.the boys and i are friends..but not on a level that i could open up and tell them anything..not even niall.i missed paige...what on earth did i do?she was all i had if i think about it,but i got so carried away with being with 1D.she was crazy..but maybe thats why we got along so well,opposites attract after all.i had also met taylor ,she was always all over harry and i hated it.every time she saw me she would be like "u look so familiar....have i seen u before?" i would say "nialls girlfriend" and give a fake smile.."oh the towel girl" she would say now remembering.her excuse for forgeting me was always i have a lot on my mind.
"lets go the mall" zayn suggested. everyone was coupled up,apart from harry..taylor,who by the way was his official girl was somewhere on earth working.
we got to the mall in dubai.it was kind of late so there were not so many younger people to crowd the boys but there were a few adults still coming forward for pictures and autographs.
"lets go to gucci" eleanor said. "i saw this really cool bag on the net." she added
"il pass,im hungry" harry and i said at the same time.it felt good to know that we were thinking the same thing.
"we can do that later" niall said kissing me.he was always so physical when harry was around it was annoying so i unkowingly pushed him away. "u go ahead and shop,il be fine with harry" i said moving towards harry who gave me a mocking smile.the others agreed and started walking away while niall stood there for a few seconds unsure of what to say untill he walked away too.
"i dont think your boyfriend is not too happy about that" harry siad smilling as niall walked away. "why do you say that?" i asked? "well niall is never comfortble having me around you if u havnt noticed but whatever.....lets go eat".
we decide to go with kfc i was in the mood for some fried chicken after all. "so what kind of girl chooses food over shopping?its not like the food would run away." harry said sitting by my side. "a girl who cant afford to go shopping with a bunch of well to do people" i said without thinking. "id rather sit in a cheap food place than watch people pick clothes that i like but would never have." i told him.
"am sure niall would have paid for everything though....i would if u were mine..."he said looking in my eyes.i couldnt help but smile.
"so what do think of the girls?u seem distant from them." he asked me. "well i dont know.i guess we just dont click." i said.
"how is taylor?"i asked him. he took a deep breath before he said. "she is fine i guess...we havnt talked in 5 days".
"why?" i aked.
"well you know.work and stuff...the relashionship isnt going as i had imagined it would...i thought we would be so in love and inseperable,but...i dont know.i knew that work would be a challenge..but i thought that i would one day fall for her.but..nop." he said looking at nothng in particular. i had nothing to say..i was lost between being happy that the relashionship wasnt going as great as i though it was and feeling sorry for him.
"u and niall huh?" he said..i simply shrugged. "u two seem very happy...u know i was shocked when i found out about u and him...i always got the vibe that u were more into me..i thought that was the reason why he wasnt at ease when i was with u..he thought u fancied me too." he said casually.
"maybe i did.....for a momment there i thought u liked me quite a bit too.but i was wrong" i said shaking my head. "but even if i liked u,it was just a crush...feelings change" i added.
"maybe i fancied you too..maybe" he said looking at me. "haha very funny harry" i said. "i will never forget that interview you know?the one about model like blonde girls" i said questioning if he remembered.
"sarah trust me that was all bullshit.i had to say the exact opposite of u because i knew that niall really liked you,and i wanted to get u off my back" he said stroking my cheek.
"and why do u treat me like shit?" i asked him. "because i knew that if i spend to much time with u i would fall for u...." he said after about a minute.
"so u liked me then?" i said smilling,i know thats what he said but i wanted to hear it again.
"yes....i liked you...i mean i like u a lot..i really do,ur great" he said still stroking my cheeks. "its too bad that you dont feel the same for me though..." he said.
"harry..i feel the exact same way about you..i always have,i just-" he cut me "then why are u with niall?" he said seriously. "he likes u a lot" he added.
"i know he does..and i like him too its just im not sure anymore if i like him as boyfriend.or just a friend.....harry,what will we do?" i said almost crying.
"we do nothing sarah...il try and make it work with taylor and u go back to niall,try to make it work aswell and pretend this never happened." he said.
"but harry,no,no,no,no i want you,i wanna be with u..." i said crying.
"i know the feeling.but we have ourselves to blame..we should have been honest with eachother from the beginnig,now other people are involved..we cant hurt them..i mean forget about taylor she is used to heartbreak..niall is my my main concern.he is like my brother..i love him.the last thing i want is to hurt him.i just wanted you to know how i feel,it was weighing on me" he said rubbing his forehead. "this sucks" he said shaking his head.
*ring ring* my phone went off.. "hello" i said emotionally. "what! no no im not crying,of course..yes ahmm kfc,yeah...ok,yes see you." i said to niall on the phone.i dried my tears. "
they are coming" i said to harry. he nodded and tried to stand up so he could sit opposite from me so it wouldnt seem weird that we sat so close to eachother. "harry wait!" i said before he could move. "please kiss me,please..just this once and then never again" i begged.
he licked his lips and held my head in position. our lips met..he slipped his tongue in my mouth and we started to make out as our tongues wrestled.then he pulled away...he was composed but i was breathless... "than...thank you" i said trying regain composure.
just she he had moved to sit opposite me, the crew walked in. "that was close" harry whispered to me.... "i know" i said wide eyed.
"hey there love birds" louis joked. "for people that were so hungry i was expecting food all over the table" liam said.
shoot harry and i had been here for almost 35minutes and we hadnt ordered aything..niall looked at harry angrily but harry was always calm you could never tell when he was guilty or nervous. "we were just talking really" he said to liam but looking at niall "i wanted to order but she insisted that niall would call her any minute and obviously be hungry and she wanted to eat with him,and since im such a gentleman..i decided to wait with her." he said smiling at niall. "but that 'any minute' turned into 20minutes" he added and everyone laughed including me.. niall couldnt help but feel ashamed and laugh a liitle.
i tried to behave normal with niall and harry gave me a thumbs up.
"lets go the mall" zayn suggested. everyone was coupled up,apart from harry..taylor,who by the way was his official girl was somewhere on earth working.
we got to the mall in dubai.it was kind of late so there were not so many younger people to crowd the boys but there were a few adults still coming forward for pictures and autographs.
"lets go to gucci" eleanor said. "i saw this really cool bag on the net." she added
"il pass,im hungry" harry and i said at the same time.it felt good to know that we were thinking the same thing.
"we can do that later" niall said kissing me.he was always so physical when harry was around it was annoying so i unkowingly pushed him away. "u go ahead and shop,il be fine with harry" i said moving towards harry who gave me a mocking smile.the others agreed and started walking away while niall stood there for a few seconds unsure of what to say untill he walked away too.
"i dont think your boyfriend is not too happy about that" harry siad smilling as niall walked away. "why do you say that?" i asked? "well niall is never comfortble having me around you if u havnt noticed but whatever.....lets go eat".
we decide to go with kfc i was in the mood for some fried chicken after all. "so what kind of girl chooses food over shopping?its not like the food would run away." harry said sitting by my side. "a girl who cant afford to go shopping with a bunch of well to do people" i said without thinking. "id rather sit in a cheap food place than watch people pick clothes that i like but would never have." i told him.
"am sure niall would have paid for everything though....i would if u were mine..."he said looking in my eyes.i couldnt help but smile.
"so what do think of the girls?u seem distant from them." he asked me. "well i dont know.i guess we just dont click." i said.
"how is taylor?"i asked him. he took a deep breath before he said. "she is fine i guess...we havnt talked in 5 days".
"why?" i aked.
"well you know.work and stuff...the relashionship isnt going as i had imagined it would...i thought we would be so in love and inseperable,but...i dont know.i knew that work would be a challenge..but i thought that i would one day fall for her.but..nop." he said looking at nothng in particular. i had nothing to say..i was lost between being happy that the relashionship wasnt going as great as i though it was and feeling sorry for him.
"u and niall huh?" he said..i simply shrugged. "u two seem very happy...u know i was shocked when i found out about u and him...i always got the vibe that u were more into me..i thought that was the reason why he wasnt at ease when i was with u..he thought u fancied me too." he said casually.
"maybe i did.....for a momment there i thought u liked me quite a bit too.but i was wrong" i said shaking my head. "but even if i liked u,it was just a crush...feelings change" i added.
"maybe i fancied you too..maybe" he said looking at me. "haha very funny harry" i said. "i will never forget that interview you know?the one about model like blonde girls" i said questioning if he remembered.
"sarah trust me that was all bullshit.i had to say the exact opposite of u because i knew that niall really liked you,and i wanted to get u off my back" he said stroking my cheek.
"and why do u treat me like shit?" i asked him. "because i knew that if i spend to much time with u i would fall for u...." he said after about a minute.
"so u liked me then?" i said smilling,i know thats what he said but i wanted to hear it again.
"yes....i liked you...i mean i like u a lot..i really do,ur great" he said still stroking my cheeks. "its too bad that you dont feel the same for me though..." he said.
"harry..i feel the exact same way about you..i always have,i just-" he cut me "then why are u with niall?" he said seriously. "he likes u a lot" he added.
"i know he does..and i like him too its just im not sure anymore if i like him as boyfriend.or just a friend.....harry,what will we do?" i said almost crying.
"we do nothing sarah...il try and make it work with taylor and u go back to niall,try to make it work aswell and pretend this never happened." he said.
"but harry,no,no,no,no i want you,i wanna be with u..." i said crying.
"i know the feeling.but we have ourselves to blame..we should have been honest with eachother from the beginnig,now other people are involved..we cant hurt them..i mean forget about taylor she is used to heartbreak..niall is my my main concern.he is like my brother..i love him.the last thing i want is to hurt him.i just wanted you to know how i feel,it was weighing on me" he said rubbing his forehead. "this sucks" he said shaking his head.
*ring ring* my phone went off.. "hello" i said emotionally. "what! no no im not crying,of course..yes ahmm kfc,yeah...ok,yes see you." i said to niall on the phone.i dried my tears. "
they are coming" i said to harry. he nodded and tried to stand up so he could sit opposite from me so it wouldnt seem weird that we sat so close to eachother. "harry wait!" i said before he could move. "please kiss me,please..just this once and then never again" i begged.
he licked his lips and held my head in position. our lips met..he slipped his tongue in my mouth and we started to make out as our tongues wrestled.then he pulled away...he was composed but i was breathless... "than...thank you" i said trying regain composure.
just she he had moved to sit opposite me, the crew walked in. "that was close" harry whispered to me.... "i know" i said wide eyed.
"hey there love birds" louis joked. "for people that were so hungry i was expecting food all over the table" liam said.
shoot harry and i had been here for almost 35minutes and we hadnt ordered aything..niall looked at harry angrily but harry was always calm you could never tell when he was guilty or nervous. "we were just talking really" he said to liam but looking at niall "i wanted to order but she insisted that niall would call her any minute and obviously be hungry and she wanted to eat with him,and since im such a gentleman..i decided to wait with her." he said smiling at niall. "but that 'any minute' turned into 20minutes" he added and everyone laughed including me.. niall couldnt help but feel ashamed and laugh a liitle.
i tried to behave normal with niall and harry gave me a thumbs up.
8/8/13