The Bad Boy I Didn't Expect *On Hold*

*Please read the notes at the end*

Song: Salted Wound

Chapter- 29 “Love me”

*Aubrey’s P.O.V*

Zayn parks his bike in front of the house, turning the ignition he hops off faster then I could pull my arms off from around him. Shoving the keys in his pocket he stands in front of me, holding his hand out for me to take. I oblige, lightly smiling at him, I grab ahold of my dress; careful not to get it dirty. Zayn still holds my hand as we begin to walk to the front door silently, I think we both know where tonight is going to end.

As we enter, the house is silent and the only light we see is the nightlight in the living room. My heart begins to race, What if I screw up? What do I do? I’m ready for him.. Standing in my thoughts I realize Zayn is in front of me, he looks at me with innocence in his eyes. I stare up at him, wanting to just fall into him. His hands are on my face and he begins to kiss me, passionately. I kiss him back and the core in my belly begins to ignite. My hands trail along his face until my hands are in his hair and we’re both out of breath. Pulling away he smiles innocently again, pulling me with his hand; he guides me to the bedroom.

He allows me to enter first, I walk towards the bed standing in front of the mirror. I hear him close the door quietly, his movements are almost silent before he’s standing behind me; wrapping his arms around me. I stare at us in the mirror, Oh how perfect we look together. I fit perfectly in his arms.. Zayn’s lips lightly graze the skin on my neck, leaving butterfly kisses there. My breathing starts to quicken, he knows what he does to me.. His fingers trail along my body until I feel his fingers undoing the corset to my dress.

I can’t help but allow him to finish what he’s doing. Until I remember the other night, and can’t help but let my stupid self say something “Zayn” I say quickly before turning around to look up at him. He looks a bit surprised but wipes it away with a light smile “Yes?” I go to say something until the breath is caught in my throat and I’m silent “What is it baby?” Zayn asks, furrowing his eyebrows “You..” I start before I stop myself. What if this ruins everything? What if that was just a dream? Aubrey! You know what you should do..

Zayn searches my eyes for an answer, I’m silent for a moment longer until I know I must say something “The other night you told me you loved me…” I bite my lip, unsure of what his reaction could be. He let’s out an uneasy breath before smiling “Well.. sadly I do not recall saying that..” he stops before speaking again “But… it is true and I would hope that you feel the same..” he looks down at me with puppy eyes. So it is true! After all this time I thought it was a mistake he had said that! I’m so overjoyed that I hug him tightly around his waist, he’s taken aback a bit until his arms rest firmly around me “Zayn I have always loved you…” I whisper, but I can tell he heard because his heart beat quickens and I feel him smiling.

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After our hug, I pull away looking up at him; getting lost in his eyes and loving the way his jaw looks when he smiles and I could get used to this.. I’m lost in his kiss now, feeling everything with him all at once; I want him to prove he loves me.. We pull apart but close enough where our foreheads are touching “Prove it..” I whisper under my breath. Zayn kisses my forehead before he pulls away “turn around” I oblige, turning away from him I look down, I feel his fingers unlacing the corset a bit quicker this time. Finished he turns me around, I feel the gown loose around me but not enough for it to fall. He looks down at me, his eyes looking oh so innocent. I cant help but trail my fingers along his body before I’m pushing his jacket off and undoing his top shirt. He watches me with a bit of lust, but let’s me continue. The shirt falls to the floor and I begin undoing his pants.

They pool off his legs as he kicks them off the rest of the way, he stands in boxers before his hands are on my face, kissing me intimately; making me want him even more. He pulls away before he starts to kneel in front of me, pulling my dress down slowly along with him. My breasts perk from the instant cold, Zayn kisses my stomach. I can’t help but want him, I want him all over me and.. in me.

He stands straight, piercing me with his hazel eyes “Sit” he says a bit sternly as he nudges his head towards the bed. I do as he says, sitting with my legs dangling off the side. He kneels himself in front of me, nudging his way in between my legs. I smile innocently down at him, his hands rub my thighs and he looks as if something is on his mind.. “Zayn?” I say barely audible. He stops and stares at me, I put my hands on his face, soaking in all of his beautiful features “What is it?” I ask a bit nervous now. He’s silent for a minute, placing his hand over mine that is still on his face. I feel his cheeks clench and I need him to tell me what is bothering him “Zayn, what’s wrong?” I ask with more concern in my voice. He clenches his jaw once more “I..” I search his eyes for an answer “I just don’t want to hurt you Aubrey, are you sure this is what you want? The last thing I want to do is hurt you, if we do make love then how will I know you’ll stay and not leave.” I’m unsure what to say for a moment, I can’t believe he actually feels this way.. “Zayn, I’m not going any where’s. Yes this is what I want, yes I know it’s going to hurt but it’s supposed to feel good afterwards right? Just be gentle with me Zayn..”

We’re both silent, our breathing quiet. I am ready for him, I think we’ve waited long enough and he surely cares about me if he has waited this long. I just want to feel him love me, intimately…
I close my eyes for a moment, taking in everything that has happened and is currently happening. I’m jumped from my thoughts when I feel Zayn’s lips upon mine. I instantly start to kiss him back, running my hands all through his hair. He’s hovering over me now and I can’t help but feel my core ignite for him. My hands continue running through his hair, his lips are on mine and his hands run along my body slowly. Zayn guides me to wrap my legs around him and I do, he moves us both up the bed together. He pulls apart and just.. stares at me. Stares down at me like I’m the most beautiful creature he’s ever seen, as if I was his whole world..

His lips suckle gently on my neck and I let out a light moan, my hands grazing his back. His huge hands are placed on my hips before his fingers begin to rub me through my panties.. I moan once more, trying to suck in a breath. My nails dig deeper in him as he rubs gently, making me more wet from the contact. He’s kissing me and touching me and I just want him inside of me. As if he read my mind his fingers enlace my panties and starts pulling them down slowly. My breathing is heavy and I’m unsteady, nervous how my first time will feel “Are you sure?” Zayn looks down at me, the moonlight peeking through the window showing his beautiful hazel eyes. “yes” I say barely audible, biting my lip. I look down as he starts pulling his boxers down, my heart racing and my thoughts jumbling. He’s kissing me again, my body opens with pride and love and I just want him, I want to feel him around me and in me and feel our love become one…

He kisses my pubic bone, making me arch slightly. Trailing kisses up past my navel, my breasts and pecks my mouth “Are you positive?” he asks once more, his body fits perfectly in between mine; he’s positioning himself “Yes Zayn” I say quietly. He stares at me for a beat before he’s pushing himself inside of me. I flinch, grabbing his arms; he notices as he releases some pressure “Are you okay?” he asks worried, I let out a breath before nodding. He slowly rolls his hips into me "fuck" he hushes under his breath, I moan beginning to feel the slight pain turn into pleasure, my fingers continue to dig his skin, and i can't help but watch his face look so angelic as he feels me around him. He rocks his hips slowly, gently, careful not to hurt me too much. "God, you feel so... amazing" he's husky under his breath and i can't help but feel even more mesmerized by him. I smile to his statement, you feel pretty fucking incredible yourself. Pleaure runs all through my body and i can't help but lul my head back and enjoy him, how beautiful this is and how beautiful he is to me.. I could do this forever.

He begins to go a bit faster, light moans escape my mouth as i stare up at him, how pleasant he feels. He stares down at me, lips slightly apart, breathing heavy and i can't get over the fact that this feels wonderful. I place my hand on his cheek, he accepts my hand and breathes me in. His brows furrow "I'm going to come...” he breathes before pulling away, he pulls out and releases all over my belly. I feel weak instantly, and i begin to reminisce the whole experience.

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“How did it feel?” Zayn asks me, staring into my eyes. We’re both laying naked on the bed, facing eachother, his fingers in my hair and my hand trailing his body. I look away for a moment then back to him “it felt.. breathtaking” I smile, and he does too “Is that what I’ve been missing out on?” Zayn lightly smiles and shrugs “I just hope you’re okay..” I smile and nod “I have a question?” I ask simply “okay” he nods “How old were you when you first had sex?” the question takes him back a bit, he looks at me sheepishly. He clears his throat “I don’t think you’d like the answer..” he sits up, looking for his boxers. I sit up too “i don’t care i’m just curious..” I say nicely, grabbing his t-shirt off the floor and throwing it on. After a minute he doesn’t respond, he’s putting jeans on “Or don’t tell me it’s fine” i say with a bit of annoyance. I can feel him stiffen and then sigh with annoyance himself “Well I have a question?” he says bitterly, i furrow my eyebrows and stare at him with my lip pouted.

“When were you going to tell me you’re going to New York City for a fashion show?” He sounds upset and i stand stiff, i completely forgot about the fashion show...We’re both acting a bit childish and I can act more like one “I’ll tell you if you answer my question first” i cross my arms and look away, he sighs annoyed again. I hear his footsteps get closer to me, his hand is on my arm turning me around forcfully “Don’t grab me like that” I snap, pushing him away. He looks angry towering over me but i don’t care “I was 15, i was a young stupid kid who just cared about fucking girls and getting pussy.

Do you feel better now?” I snort walking away from him “That’s nice and I didn’t tell you because I actually fucking forgot, I wasn’t even sure about the whole thing but because of my mother i cannot disappoint her, guess what Zayn I’m going to a Victoria’s Secret Fashion show tomorrow in New York City. Do you feel better now?” I turn away from him, i feel him irritated but i don’t care. He starts to walk away from me “Whatever Aubrey, I hope you have fun”

I instantly spin around “What the fuck is your problem!? We fuck and then we end up fighting!? How does that make sense” He quickly turns around, anger in his face, he does a good job not screaming at me “First off, I didn’t fuck you. I made love to you, there’s a difference, it felt amazing and incredible and i was so afraid of hurting you because you’re too fucking fragile and innocent, but I know that I actually love you and maybe It would be nice to actually settle down with a woman but I can’t stand fighting with a female because I don’t want to say something I don’t mean and I hate that you’re leaving tomorrow and you didn’t even tell me and yes why are we fighting Aubrey?” I’m taken back quite a bit, i stand in silence, wandering my thoughts, unsure of what to say to him, sheesh i fucked up. Before I could even say anything he leaves the room, slamming the door behind him.

Notes

Hello everyone, lol i said a few months ago i would have a chapter out well here it is finally. I'm sorry it took so long I have so much stuff going on in my life it's crazy. I miss you all and I miss this story, sadly I have come to the conclusion that I think I want a co-writer if anyone is willing to want to help then please message me, I need someone who is a good writer, will listen to my ideas because this is still my story, i will gladly give you credit. Well I'm sorry if this chapter was shitty, they finally bonked holy shit. If you have any questions or concerns or tell me your fave part of the story so far let me know in the comments below :) also if you want to follow or contact me on tumblr my url is still malabamilou, I also have this story posted on wattpad if you wanted to check it out there. Thank you pancakes! I hope you're all doing okay :*

P.s if there are any mistakes I posted this before reading through it