I had hoped that with Jena being here these last few days Dawn would return to her normal self, and in a way she was a bit better, but she remained guarded with me and it was driving me insane. To say I was hurt she wasn’t sharing with me the reasons for her sudden introverted behavior would be an understatement.

I was on edge and ready to explode with all the frustration I was hiding and holding back at whatever Dawn was keeping from me.

I watched her constantly, the way her eyes would shift from side to side anytime we were out in the open, and every time I would lean in to kiss her or even hold her hand she would try to end it as soon as possible.

I was beginning to think it was me. That she was second guessing this whole relationship.

I knew we had to talk about it, I needed to know what was going on but I was honestly too scared to even bring it up because... what if it was me?

I wouldn’t know how to handle that.

I had already nearly lost her once, I’m not sure my heart could handle going through that again.

It was that fear that kept us in limbo. I hated it but I kept acting like nothing big was wrong when it really felt like we were losing touch with each other.

“Hey babe.” I said as I entered the room that Dawn and Jena had been hanging out in while we finished up our meet and greet.

Dawn tilted her head back to look up at me where I stood behind her. I smiled at Jena as I leaned over to place a kiss on my girlfriends lips.

Dawn allowed the kiss but she ended it quickly like she had done with countless other kisses since this tour had begun.

It stung a little that she pulled away, but she quickly covered any awkwardness with a wide smile. She at least looked genuinely pleased to see me.

I didn’t really get much time to throw a pity party though as I felt Louis race past me and jump over the sofa into the spot between Jena and Dawn.

“SO... someone’s birthday is coming up next week.” He announced causing Dawn to shake her head.

It wasn’t a secret that Dawn hated making a big deal of her birthday, which was why the only mention to it I had made in the last week was making plans to take her out on a proper date.

Big parties thrown for her were not her style at all and Louis knew that.

“Shut up Lou.” Dawn hissed, rolling her eyes when Louis stuck his tongue out at her.

“You are no fun.” Louis countered.

Jena on the other hand looked purely giddy. “It’s you’re birthday next week? Why didn’t I know?” She gushed looking at Dawn, her eyes widening as an idea must have struck her. “We should go out tonight.”

Dawn slumped in her seat and shook her head. “First of all, my birthday isn’t until next week so why would I go out tonight? And second, I hate birthdays, they always disappoint, I don’t want to celebrate getting closer to death anyway.”

Now it was Jena who rolled her eyes. “Oh please, shut up with the old bit.” Jena waved a hand at Dawn before turning her grin into a pout. “AND we should celebrate tonight because I wont be here next week.”

I looked over to Dawn who seemed to soften to the idea at the thought of her friend not being around. I sat on the back of the sofa and leaned down to place my lips close to her ear, trying to ignore her flinching away, and spoke. “It’ll be fun babe. Come on we have an off day tomorrow anyway.”

All around me, the boys were flashing pleading looks at Dawn. They wanted to go out and have a good time just as bad as Jena did.

Dawn must have caught the looks she was receiving because her shoulders sagged in defeat as she let out a sigh. “Oh alright fine, but I don’t want you making a big deal out of this. Only us though, no big gathering please.”

Jena looked like she was going to jump out of her seat in excitement but she was halted as Paul poked his head into the room announcing it was time for us to get ready for the show.

As we walked towards the dressing room, my hand reached out to slip into Dawn’s. She looked at it a bit startled before shooting her eyes up at me and giving me a small smile and a gentle squeeze to my hand before dropping it.

I was a bit disappointed as she began to walk a little faster down the hall ahead of me.

It was moments like these that made it hard to not just pull her aside and shake her until she told me what was wrong. I didn’t think I could take anymore of her indifference towards me. I felt like I was losing her all over again.

With that thought nagging me I decided that tomorrow would be the day we would both stop pretending this was working for us, I didn’t want to lose her and I certainly didn’t want to be angry with her so we needed to sit down and work this out once and for all before it turned into something we couldn‘t mend.

Tonight we would go out and have fun, tomorrow we would fix whatever was broken in our relationship.

As per the last few days, as soon as Dawn was done she excused herself from the room placing a quick kiss to my lips before walking out.

“All right where should we go tonight?” Louis asked clapping his hands.

Jena, who had offered to help Dawn get us ready, hopped up onto the counter in front of Niall and smiled giddily at Louis as she began listing possible ideas for our night.

I just sat there pretending to listen and nodding when needed, but my mind was still on the girl who had practically rushed out of here.

I just wanted everything to go back to the way it was a few weeks ago. I wish I knew what had changed.

“Where are you lot off to tonight?” A new voice broke my thoughts. I looked up to find Jasmyn smirking at me as she leaned against the doorway. I had a feeling that question was more directed at myself then anyone else in the room.

From behind me I heard Louis scoff.

“Out for Dawn’s birthday.” I mumbled without thinking. At my words I could practically feel all the other eyes in the room blaze into me.

“Oh?” She said looking down at her hands.

I felt sorry for the girl. The tension in the room was thick and she had to know it was aimed at her.

Again my mouth moved before my brain processed because if my brain had processed it would have known that what I suggested next was a very, very bad idea.

“You should come?”

I tried to ignore the voice in my head, that sounded remarkably like Louis, screaming what an idiot I was and smile reassuringly at her.

Behind me I heard a strangled sound from Jena and Louis clearing his throat as if he was going to speak.

“Actually Jasmyn I don’t think that’s-” Louis began but the girl in front of us never gave him the chance to finish.

“GREAT!!” She shouted over any other sound, startling Louis into silence as she spun around and waved over her shoulder , calling out as she rushed down the hall. “See you later.”

“You’re an idiot Harry.”

Indeed, the voice in my head was definitely Louis.

I spun around to face everyone else in the room. “What?” I really didn’t have to ask, I know ‘what‘.

“It’s Dawn’s birthday, she asked for it to be just us.” Jena said. “And you just invited the person she gets along with the least. You shouldn’t have invited her.”

I knew I had been wrong to invite Jasmyn because Jena was completely right, but I didn’t want to admit it. I also didn’t want to hear about it from them.

It wasn’t like I could take it back now, I wasn’t cold hearted.

Without a word I grabbed my cell phone and left the room, ignoring as the others called out to me to return.

I aimlessly drifted down the halls, avoiding speaking to anyone as I pretended to text someone.

It was as I was getting closer to the exit that I finally leaned up against the wall.

I know that as soon as Dawn saw Jasmyn tonight there was going to be a problem. I know it will be my fault too.

I sighed and threw my head back, resting it against the wall.

What possessed me to invite her?

Voices getting closer to me made me straighten up from my hunched over position. I looked down the hall towards the voices to spot Shane as he reached for someone and tugged them back towards him.

My heart froze and pure anger filled me as I saw Dawn turn and glare at him.

I strained my ears to hear what they were saying, neither of them noticing me at the end off the hall.

“What‘s wrong?” He asked placing his hand on her shoulder.

A part of me wanted to walk right up to them and yank his hand right off of her before punching him square in the nose.

“It’s nothing. I’m so sick of everyone asking me what's wrong. Just leave me alone.” She hissed at him.

It made me feel a little better to know that I wasn’t the only one to notice the change in her, I still didn’t like him thought. It also didn’t hurt that Dawn was being a little cold to him.

“You can talk to me Dawn. You know that?”

Did she?

“It’s nothing. I promise.” She said, her tone softening a bit as she sent him a weak smile. My heart constricted, I didn’t like her around this guy at all and I definitely didn’t like her smiling at him like that. “Don’t worry about me.”

“I can’t help that.” Shane said sending her his own grin.

My blood began to boil. What was he playing at? Why were they talking to each other like that?

I didn’t like it at all.

I was relieved when I saw Dawn wave and mumble a goodbye to him before walking away.

It took everything in me to remain standing where I was as I watched him watch her walk away.

I wanted to make sure I knew what I had seen before I reacted to it, even if every cell in my body wanted to pummel Shane for even looking at my girlfriend.

I stayed in my spot until I knew he was gone, not trusting myself to walk by him as I made my way back to the dressing room.

I wasn’t at all surprised to find that Dawn hadn’t returned to the room after her encounter with Shane but now I was even more on edge then I had been before.

I really didn’t like what I had seen in the slightest.

Because I was so upset by it, time flew by as I was stuck in the memory of it and what it was all about, resulting in the show that night passing in a blur of lights and screaming.

Dawn barely looked at me during the two quick changes of the show. It was enough to make me just that much more frustrated by everything going on.

By the time we made it back to our hotel Jena quickly whisking Dawn away before I could even speak to her. I had a feeling our night wasn’t going to be as great as originally planned.

I ignored the others as they chatted amongst themselves as we waited for the girls to meet us in the lobby an hour after we had arrived back.

I half heartedly waved at the few fans I could see standing outside waiting for us, any other time I would have gone out there but tonight my mind just wasn’t in the right place.

I really just wanted to cancel the night and get to the bottom of whatever was going on once and for all but it was Jena’s last night before returning to Uni and Dawn’s birthday did deserve a celebration even if it killed her to go out.

A low whistle from Niall pulled me out of my own mind and made me lift my head to look at what Niall was looking at.

My eyes instantly settled on the two girls walking towards us.

Dawn nervously fidgeted with the hem of the leopard printed skirt of her dress and Jena spun around showing off her black lace dress for Niall’s approval.

I pushed up off the seat I was in, for a moment forgetting all my worries at the sight of my beautiful girlfriend. I slowly walked up to her, not missing the blush that tinted her cheeks at my smirk, and let my hands rest on her hips.

For once she didn’t pull away and just let me nuzzle my nose into the crook of her neck. She didn’t even pull away as I kissed that same spot.

I loved this girl so much it hurt.

My arms tighten around her as flashes of Shane speaking to her came back to me. She was mine and I wasn’t going to let her go easily. It was like I was holding onto her physically because I felt I was losing her emotionally.

“Do I look alright?” She asked after a moment of us just standing there, my face still pressed to her neck, lips sponging soft skin, hands pressing into her back. Every inch of our fronts were touching.

“You look beautiful.” I said against her skin causing her to giggle.

This is what I missed, us just being in love and happy. I missed us being us.

When we were like this I could easily forget about all the rest. It was because of moments like this I knew we needed to fix this.

I was so caught up in being happy and in love with this girl that I completely forgot about my earlier mistake, that was until I heard her speak.

“Are we ready to go?”

My head shot up, my eyes landing first on Dawn’s confused yet annoyed face before shifting to the person behind her.

Jasmyn smiled coyly at me and waved. “How do I look?” She asked me holding her hands out to show off even more of her very short, very tight silver dress.

I looked back at Dawn who was just looking at me.

“Why is she here?” She asked quietly.

I desperately looked over at Louis, almost hoping he would help but I should have known better. He only raised his eyebrows at me waiting for me to answer just like Dawn was. The others were no help either.

Niall and Jena stood staring wrapped in each others arms while Liam and Zayn looked on with wide eyes.

Jasmyn on the other hand just smirked at me as if she knew this was going to be a problem.

“I um... I invited her.”

For a moment I thought she hadn’t heard me. She just looked at me with the same blank expression but then all at once it registered.

“You what?”

Oh shit.

Notes

ugh oh... oh Harry.
I hope you guys like it. This story doesn't seem to be as popular as the Nanny which is kinda sad...
anyway let me know what you guys think