Taken For Granted
Chapter Four.
Mel's POV:
Since Tal left I've been only thinking about one thing; something's wrong with her, and the problem is that I don't know why. Maybe it's because of what happened with that guy, and it was too much for her to handle, or maybe cause I didn't tell her that I know Harry which I doubt it is, for whatever the reason is, I should go home right now cause she needs me to comfort her through what she's going through, or else I'll get wasted and end up at Niall's.
"Baby I think it'll be better if I go home, Tal needs me." I whispered in Niall's ear, in moments like this I'm glad he could handle his drink. He just looked at me with sadness in his eyes, I haven't seen him for the past month, he went to Ireland to stay with his family and he came back last night. I really wanted to stay with him and show him how much I have missed him but my bestfriend needs me and I can't leave her alone.
"But I-" I cut him off before he even had the chance to continue half of what he was going to say.
"I know babe, I'm so sorry, I promise I'll make it up to you later but right now see really needs me. Haven't you seen her before she left? She looked so down." I promised him whilst placing my right hand on his cheek and massaging it with my thumb. His blue eyes shinning out so bright, his pink lips pouted, I can't handle it when he does that, he looks like a little kid who got disappointed when Santa didn't bring what he asked for. I couldn't help but kiss him fully on the lips with passion, I really did miss him so much. My hands snaked into the back of his head turning it to give myself more access, his hands went automatically to my waist bringing me as close to him as he could. I then had to pull away for air but we still were in each other's embrace.
"I'm sorry for being selfish, you go to Tal and make sure she's alright, don't forget to tell me what was wrong with her." Niall said in the sweetest way possible, he was just too adorable to walk and leave him standing there. I nodded at his words and turned around to face the guys, only to find them having shots and laughing their asses off.
"I'm gonna go guys, It think something's wrong with Tal and I have to go and see how she's doing, but we'll hang out soon again." I shouted to them trying to make my words clear enough for them to hear it over the loud music. They all nodded at me, I hugged each one of them and then I got to Niall. He hugged to so tight and then pulled back, only to find his lips crashing into mine forcefully and I gladly kissed him back with much force, my hands went to his neck bringing his face closer to mine as possible, his hand were on my back rubbing it. The kiss held many emotions, it just had it all, describing what we had been feeling for the past month. He then pulled back looking into my eyes with love covering his and then his lips curved into a bright smile that could make my day no matte what I'm feeling.
"I love you baby and you already know it." He said softly still looking at me, I moved my body towards his, and hugged him once again.
"I love you too Niall." I whispered in his ear whilst nuzzling my head in his neck, I felt him tightening his grip on me. I pulled back looking at him with all the love I have for him and pecked his lips quickly before smiling warmly at him and turned away to leave. I secretly wished he would take me home but he just got back yesterday night and he really missed the boys so he should stay with them have some fun.
I made my way out of the club with difficulty, as the drunk guys trying to touch as if I'm a piece of meat they're trying to get. Finally I exited the club, remembering I don't have my car, I headed to the big sign written on it Taxi, and waited in line as couples trying to find a cab as quick as possible before they rape each other in street. When it got to my turn and as I was about to enter the cab, I heard someone scream my name and I turned around to see who it was, only to find my boyfriend running towards me with his arms wide open. I closed the door of the cab and ran, meeting him halfway and hugging him as if I didn't five minutes ago.
"What are you doing?" I asked smiling, still in his arm staring at him.
"I came to take you home love, I wouldn't let my girlfriend go home half drunk in a cab. What kind of a boyfriend do you think I am?" He said while raising his eyebrow at the last sentence. I just laughed at his cuteness and hugged him again, it's like I could never get enough of his hugs.
We made our way towards his car, walking in the street hand in hand staring at the night sky above us until we found ourselves stopping in front of his car, he opened my door like a gentleman, I smiled in return and he closed the door, then headed to the other side. As soon as he got in the engine started and his free hand locked with mine. The ride was quiet, I was trying to sober up for when I get home, and Niall had his focus on driving us safely. Soon enough the car stopped and we were there, I leaned in my seat and pecked his lips before getting out. Never thought that walking till the elevator would be tiring, pressing number 5 I rested my head on the wall, too soon for my liking the elevator beeped. After a long struggle trying to open the door I made my way in, closing the door softly behind me.
The whole flat was pitch black, which rarely happens. Taleyah always kept a light open until I come back and close it before I sleep. I figured she'd be sleeping by now, I walked passed her room, only to hear soft sobs coming out of it. I thought it was just the alcohol messing with me so I continued walking to my room, again I heard the same noise. I barged into her room without knocking to make sure she's okay. She had her knees up her chest with a pillow in her lap crying into it, her hair was up in a messy bun and she was a wreck, never ever had I seen her like this since it happened.
Tal's POV:
I cried. Yes, I cried and that's all I did, I just couldn't bring myself into doing anything else. When I got back home all I did was slide down the door and cry, mentally killing myself that I was so close. I just don't understand why does everything bad happen to me, I never did something wrong, I never was a sinner. So why does shit keep happening to me?
I got up went to my room, I stripped down and sat on the toilet seat, debating whether I should do it or not. It's been a really long time since if last happened, but it's the only thing I could think of right now. I opened the drawer next to the sink and searched for what I was looking for, until I found it shinning like usual. I held it with shaking hands and brought it up in front of my eyes. My mind kept screaming for me not to cut again but I just decided to ignore it. I brought the blade down to my hips a bit lower to make sure it's not visible if I wore a bikini. with shaking hands I pushed it into my skin, screaming in agony as the pain shot through my body.A few more cuts were placed and then I did the same on my other hip, whilst closing my eyes, to not see how much of blood was there, even though I can feel it flow down my legs.
I washed the blade and put it back in place, just then I went for a shower. My legs were covered in blood, it even reached my toes, hips are comfortably numb. As the hot water touched the fresh cuts, I found myself shaking trying to make it stop wishing I took out everything on dancing like I do, I got weak again I let it get to me. Looking down I found the water turning to a light shade of pink due the blood. Barely handling the pain, I got out of the bathtub, covered my body with a towel. I went to my room and sat on my bed, a few minutes had passed and I was still wrapped in the towel. Deciding I should change, I went to my wardrobe and took out a fresh pair of panties and a big t-shirt, going back to the bed I took off the towel and examined my cuts. Cursing myself for doing it again after I promised Mel I would stop. I took some bandage from the nightstand next to the bed and placed it on my cuts before I slipped into my underwear and my t-shirt. I brushed my long hair for a few minutes then put in up in a messy bun. Closing the lights, I climbed into bed, bringing my knees up to my chest, took the pillow next to me and hugged it.
I screamed into the pillow, screams soon followed by sobs. Back to crying and blaming myself for everything that happened to me. I could've been a better daughter, a better sister, a better friend, maybe those were the reasons for everything bad that happened to me. I could've been better, but then again I'm never good enough. My life was perfect and I honestly don't know what happened scratch that I know what happened, I just don't understand why it did.
I was just way out of reality, and only came back when I found the lights on. I looked to the left only to find Mel standing next to the door, staring at me with a look that I never saw before.
Since Tal left I've been only thinking about one thing; something's wrong with her, and the problem is that I don't know why. Maybe it's because of what happened with that guy, and it was too much for her to handle, or maybe cause I didn't tell her that I know Harry which I doubt it is, for whatever the reason is, I should go home right now cause she needs me to comfort her through what she's going through, or else I'll get wasted and end up at Niall's.
"Baby I think it'll be better if I go home, Tal needs me." I whispered in Niall's ear, in moments like this I'm glad he could handle his drink. He just looked at me with sadness in his eyes, I haven't seen him for the past month, he went to Ireland to stay with his family and he came back last night. I really wanted to stay with him and show him how much I have missed him but my bestfriend needs me and I can't leave her alone.
"But I-" I cut him off before he even had the chance to continue half of what he was going to say.
"I know babe, I'm so sorry, I promise I'll make it up to you later but right now see really needs me. Haven't you seen her before she left? She looked so down." I promised him whilst placing my right hand on his cheek and massaging it with my thumb. His blue eyes shinning out so bright, his pink lips pouted, I can't handle it when he does that, he looks like a little kid who got disappointed when Santa didn't bring what he asked for. I couldn't help but kiss him fully on the lips with passion, I really did miss him so much. My hands snaked into the back of his head turning it to give myself more access, his hands went automatically to my waist bringing me as close to him as he could. I then had to pull away for air but we still were in each other's embrace.
"I'm sorry for being selfish, you go to Tal and make sure she's alright, don't forget to tell me what was wrong with her." Niall said in the sweetest way possible, he was just too adorable to walk and leave him standing there. I nodded at his words and turned around to face the guys, only to find them having shots and laughing their asses off.
"I'm gonna go guys, It think something's wrong with Tal and I have to go and see how she's doing, but we'll hang out soon again." I shouted to them trying to make my words clear enough for them to hear it over the loud music. They all nodded at me, I hugged each one of them and then I got to Niall. He hugged to so tight and then pulled back, only to find his lips crashing into mine forcefully and I gladly kissed him back with much force, my hands went to his neck bringing his face closer to mine as possible, his hand were on my back rubbing it. The kiss held many emotions, it just had it all, describing what we had been feeling for the past month. He then pulled back looking into my eyes with love covering his and then his lips curved into a bright smile that could make my day no matte what I'm feeling.
"I love you baby and you already know it." He said softly still looking at me, I moved my body towards his, and hugged him once again.
"I love you too Niall." I whispered in his ear whilst nuzzling my head in his neck, I felt him tightening his grip on me. I pulled back looking at him with all the love I have for him and pecked his lips quickly before smiling warmly at him and turned away to leave. I secretly wished he would take me home but he just got back yesterday night and he really missed the boys so he should stay with them have some fun.
I made my way out of the club with difficulty, as the drunk guys trying to touch as if I'm a piece of meat they're trying to get. Finally I exited the club, remembering I don't have my car, I headed to the big sign written on it Taxi, and waited in line as couples trying to find a cab as quick as possible before they rape each other in street. When it got to my turn and as I was about to enter the cab, I heard someone scream my name and I turned around to see who it was, only to find my boyfriend running towards me with his arms wide open. I closed the door of the cab and ran, meeting him halfway and hugging him as if I didn't five minutes ago.
"What are you doing?" I asked smiling, still in his arm staring at him.
"I came to take you home love, I wouldn't let my girlfriend go home half drunk in a cab. What kind of a boyfriend do you think I am?" He said while raising his eyebrow at the last sentence. I just laughed at his cuteness and hugged him again, it's like I could never get enough of his hugs.
We made our way towards his car, walking in the street hand in hand staring at the night sky above us until we found ourselves stopping in front of his car, he opened my door like a gentleman, I smiled in return and he closed the door, then headed to the other side. As soon as he got in the engine started and his free hand locked with mine. The ride was quiet, I was trying to sober up for when I get home, and Niall had his focus on driving us safely. Soon enough the car stopped and we were there, I leaned in my seat and pecked his lips before getting out. Never thought that walking till the elevator would be tiring, pressing number 5 I rested my head on the wall, too soon for my liking the elevator beeped. After a long struggle trying to open the door I made my way in, closing the door softly behind me.
The whole flat was pitch black, which rarely happens. Taleyah always kept a light open until I come back and close it before I sleep. I figured she'd be sleeping by now, I walked passed her room, only to hear soft sobs coming out of it. I thought it was just the alcohol messing with me so I continued walking to my room, again I heard the same noise. I barged into her room without knocking to make sure she's okay. She had her knees up her chest with a pillow in her lap crying into it, her hair was up in a messy bun and she was a wreck, never ever had I seen her like this since it happened.
Tal's POV:
I cried. Yes, I cried and that's all I did, I just couldn't bring myself into doing anything else. When I got back home all I did was slide down the door and cry, mentally killing myself that I was so close. I just don't understand why does everything bad happen to me, I never did something wrong, I never was a sinner. So why does shit keep happening to me?
I got up went to my room, I stripped down and sat on the toilet seat, debating whether I should do it or not. It's been a really long time since if last happened, but it's the only thing I could think of right now. I opened the drawer next to the sink and searched for what I was looking for, until I found it shinning like usual. I held it with shaking hands and brought it up in front of my eyes. My mind kept screaming for me not to cut again but I just decided to ignore it. I brought the blade down to my hips a bit lower to make sure it's not visible if I wore a bikini. with shaking hands I pushed it into my skin, screaming in agony as the pain shot through my body.A few more cuts were placed and then I did the same on my other hip, whilst closing my eyes, to not see how much of blood was there, even though I can feel it flow down my legs.
I washed the blade and put it back in place, just then I went for a shower. My legs were covered in blood, it even reached my toes, hips are comfortably numb. As the hot water touched the fresh cuts, I found myself shaking trying to make it stop wishing I took out everything on dancing like I do, I got weak again I let it get to me. Looking down I found the water turning to a light shade of pink due the blood. Barely handling the pain, I got out of the bathtub, covered my body with a towel. I went to my room and sat on my bed, a few minutes had passed and I was still wrapped in the towel. Deciding I should change, I went to my wardrobe and took out a fresh pair of panties and a big t-shirt, going back to the bed I took off the towel and examined my cuts. Cursing myself for doing it again after I promised Mel I would stop. I took some bandage from the nightstand next to the bed and placed it on my cuts before I slipped into my underwear and my t-shirt. I brushed my long hair for a few minutes then put in up in a messy bun. Closing the lights, I climbed into bed, bringing my knees up to my chest, took the pillow next to me and hugged it.
I screamed into the pillow, screams soon followed by sobs. Back to crying and blaming myself for everything that happened to me. I could've been a better daughter, a better sister, a better friend, maybe those were the reasons for everything bad that happened to me. I could've been better, but then again I'm never good enough. My life was perfect and I honestly don't know what happened scratch that I know what happened, I just don't understand why it did.
I was just way out of reality, and only came back when I found the lights on. I looked to the left only to find Mel standing next to the door, staring at me with a look that I never saw before.
Notes
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