My bully's boyfriend
Look, do you wanna go out?
A week has passed since he sat with me at the tree. He's been acting weird around me, and stops me in the middle of the hallways just to say hello. He just seems...ni- Wait, what! No, Rosie, he's your bully's boyfriend. You can't think that. But what I hate about this, is that Hayley's been on to me more. She's been finding me, before, during and after school. My whole torso and my stomach has been bruised from her and her friends beating me.
It's the start of a new week, and it's going to be the same. The teasing, my books falling to the floor, people stepping all over me as I pick them up. I hate being knocked down, but I have to live with it. I know many people don't deserve this, but I think that that statement doesn't apply to me...at all. I'm too shy to stand up for myself. I just hate it. HATE IT!
I lie in bed, thinking about all the thoughts of me, mostly negative.
Why am I here? I don't deserve to be here.
Why me? There's other people to go to.
Is there something wrong with me? There can't be. I'm perfectly normal, like all the other students, but I have higher grades. Why does that matter to them? It's not like they're going to get anywher- Oops, I shouldn't talk like that. Sorry. But, seriously!
I sniffle and wipe me nose as I feel my eyes fill up with tears. Today's Monday. I should just toughen up and prepare for what's to come next. I get up, looking at the clock which said 6:20. I'll take a ten minute shower, but I hope my aunt doesn't mind, I thought to myself.
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After my 20 minute shower, of mostly thinking negatively again, I dress in a long sleeve Ramones t-shirt and a pair of skinny jeans. I pull on my black converse shoes and a maroon beanie. I adjusted my glasses and took one last look in the body mirror, turning to look at myself in all angles, looking if I look okay. I stop and thought that it was a waste of time. People were going to tease me anyways, so why bother?
I jog down the stairs, but without seeing my aunt, I found a note on the fridge.
Goodmorning my precious niece!
Sorry I couldn't say a real goodmorning, but I have to go to interstate to visit your Grandmother who's sick. I might be out for a couple of days, 2 weeks max! I'll try and make it back sooner than you think. There's some money for pizza if you want to order and invite Marcel too :)
Love you my baby, and stay strong
Louise xo
Way to start the week. I'm alone. Nice.
I look at the clock above the counter, and it says 7:05. I open the fridge and look for a small snack. I found a ball of Lindt chocolate, so I took it and popped it in my mouth. The center which was supposed to be melted was hard...must've been frozen.
I thought I might be early, so I headed out the door and locked it behind me. I checked once before heading off to the street of my school.
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"And there you have it, that's how you disect a sheep's liver." the science teacher said. I was in a group of 4. The kids in my group shoved the knife in my hand which cut me a bit, but the teacher was an experienced nurse, so she bandaged me up and made one of the other kids to take the knife. The kids in my group all look like they're about to vomit. They're just cutting a sheep's liver. That isn't hard. They're all whining because it looked gross. But I like it. I like seeing new things in science.
Marcel isn't at school today because he was sick. I tried to call him, but his mum answered, saying that he had one of those stomach bugs.
The bell rang, signalling that it was lunch break. I grabbed my bag and headed out the door. I was stopped by Niall again.
"Hey." he said and smirked. I said a quiet "Hi" back, before walking around him. I heard his footsteps coming closer behind me. "Look, do you wanna go out tonight?"
It's the start of a new week, and it's going to be the same. The teasing, my books falling to the floor, people stepping all over me as I pick them up. I hate being knocked down, but I have to live with it. I know many people don't deserve this, but I think that that statement doesn't apply to me...at all. I'm too shy to stand up for myself. I just hate it. HATE IT!
I lie in bed, thinking about all the thoughts of me, mostly negative.
Why am I here? I don't deserve to be here.
Why me? There's other people to go to.
Is there something wrong with me? There can't be. I'm perfectly normal, like all the other students, but I have higher grades. Why does that matter to them? It's not like they're going to get anywher- Oops, I shouldn't talk like that. Sorry. But, seriously!
I sniffle and wipe me nose as I feel my eyes fill up with tears. Today's Monday. I should just toughen up and prepare for what's to come next. I get up, looking at the clock which said 6:20. I'll take a ten minute shower, but I hope my aunt doesn't mind, I thought to myself.
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After my 20 minute shower, of mostly thinking negatively again, I dress in a long sleeve Ramones t-shirt and a pair of skinny jeans. I pull on my black converse shoes and a maroon beanie. I adjusted my glasses and took one last look in the body mirror, turning to look at myself in all angles, looking if I look okay. I stop and thought that it was a waste of time. People were going to tease me anyways, so why bother?
I jog down the stairs, but without seeing my aunt, I found a note on the fridge.
Goodmorning my precious niece!
Sorry I couldn't say a real goodmorning, but I have to go to interstate to visit your Grandmother who's sick. I might be out for a couple of days, 2 weeks max! I'll try and make it back sooner than you think. There's some money for pizza if you want to order and invite Marcel too :)
Love you my baby, and stay strong
Louise xo
Way to start the week. I'm alone. Nice.
I look at the clock above the counter, and it says 7:05. I open the fridge and look for a small snack. I found a ball of Lindt chocolate, so I took it and popped it in my mouth. The center which was supposed to be melted was hard...must've been frozen.
I thought I might be early, so I headed out the door and locked it behind me. I checked once before heading off to the street of my school.
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"And there you have it, that's how you disect a sheep's liver." the science teacher said. I was in a group of 4. The kids in my group shoved the knife in my hand which cut me a bit, but the teacher was an experienced nurse, so she bandaged me up and made one of the other kids to take the knife. The kids in my group all look like they're about to vomit. They're just cutting a sheep's liver. That isn't hard. They're all whining because it looked gross. But I like it. I like seeing new things in science.
Marcel isn't at school today because he was sick. I tried to call him, but his mum answered, saying that he had one of those stomach bugs.
The bell rang, signalling that it was lunch break. I grabbed my bag and headed out the door. I was stopped by Niall again.
"Hey." he said and smirked. I said a quiet "Hi" back, before walking around him. I heard his footsteps coming closer behind me. "Look, do you wanna go out tonight?"
Notes
hey :)the blue eyeshadow...
first, I want to t say thankyou for your guess, Lavybaby.
& Nialler's_Princess, I'll explain.
the blue eyeshadow came from an episode of iCarly.
the teacher walked past Carly, Sam and Freddie and there was the blue eyeshadow...
does anyone still watch it?
I haven't watched the episode of Shake It Up, but I hope to.
Everyone, it was my birthday yesterdaaayyyyyy 8thSeptember2013
I had a good day, didn't do anything, other than sleep in and have a lazy day.
5 days before Niall's and I'm 5 years younger :)
I sound too young. 15. aaaahhhh
Anyhoran, have a nice day - morning, afternoon, night - wherever you are around the world.
thankyou for reading, reading your comments make me smile, and sometimes this goofy smile that doesn't go away.
thankyou again.
p.s. if you can, get more people to read :) xx
update please
8/12/14