Obsessed

Paisley's POV





And that is when it all came out.
I seemed to have gained an instant trust with Louis as soon as I met him and today only confirmed that.

I told him everything.
The entire story.



How I was never the type to find a guy at a party and do the dirty, never to see him again and end up pregnant. And he agreed that it didn't sound like me.

He understood when I told him about the deep relationship I was in.
"I met a boy, who w-was older than me. About 4 years older. And for the first few months, he made me feel safe and protected and loved", I remember my exact words to Louis, "B-But one day, he came home drunk and that's when the abuse started. I never had a family to go to so I just put up with it and tried to do everything he wanted me to"

I could see the fear that Lou was trying to hide, just so it wouldn't upset me. But it was seeping through the cracks. "And one night. I couldn't stop him. He went to far and after that, I ran away, finding myself in Sydney and never saw or spoke to him again. I heard that he was trying to find me, but when the girls came along, I felt like I had nothing to worry about", the tears dropped slowly.

"What's her name?", Louis had asked me.
"Chapin", I whisper. (A/N- If you have seen the movie Triple Dog, this is where I got the name. It isn't pronounced as CHAPPIN - it is pronounced Chay-pin)

"That's a beautiful name", Louis spoke, taking hold of my hand gently.
"I know", I whispered, not being able to speak louder, "Th-They told me I could get her back once I turned 18. And now they are making up excuses. Now, I have to wait until I am 19. Which is in a month", I say gently.

"You're her mother. You have every right to get her back!", Louis says, sounding annoyed that they are keeping me from my child.
"That's what I said"
"Does she know you?", he asked, "I mean, does she know that you're her mother?"
I nodded my head, "We are allowed to speak every few months. And I'm so happy that she calls me her mum", I speak, "This may sound a bit creepy, but I have a folder of her on my phone. There are videos from when I got to see her for the first time when she was about 1 and a half"
"Well I think it's beautiful!", Louis said, "And just so you know, I am going to help you. No mother should have to wait. I want you to see you're daughter. And we are going to get her"















Now sitting in my dressing room with Louis and Eleanor, who has also been told just now about my little story. She agreed to Louis and said she was also going to help get Chapin back.


"I don't want anyone to know just yet", I say. "The people that need to know, we can tell them, but not the others"
"So the guys and girls?", Louis asked.
I shake my head. The last thing I want is to trouble them with my issues.













The rehearsal was as awkward as yesterday.
But Raya glared at me more.
Skylar was awkward and didn't say a word.
And neither did I.
And neither did the rest of the place.



I hated having those boys watch up practise. I felt like they would judge everything they did because they have done it all before and are critising me in their heads about everything I do wrong.

I just hope that's not the case.
Once rehearsal was over, I was quietly moving off the stage to go backstage when I felt a tight stinging grip on my wrist, "What the hell is your problem?!", Raya spits angrily in my face.
The guys and girls (Skylar and Eleanor) have stopped speaking and are looking at Raya and I.
"N-Nothing", I say, gently trying to remove myself from her hurtful grip.
"Bullshit!", Raya steps closer. She was taller than me, "You've been acting like a fucking freak for days. Stopped being all depressed and get over it!"
"You don't have a clue what's going on Raya. So please, just leave me alone", I say, my voice weak. She rolled her eyes.
"You know you brought this on yourself right?!", oh, "You're the one that threw yourself at him and then got yourself into a whole load of shit!"
"N-No", was all I could say, trying my best not to let the tears fall. everyone had stepped closer and was watching intently.
"YES!", Raya's voice grew. "So while you go ruin your life, don't take everyone down with you"
"Incase you didn't notice, I'm not the one messaging people saying 'We all went out to dinner. We were going to invite you but you would much prefer staying in your room'", I say, making Raya's face drop.
"Raya?", Skylar's voice squeeked, "You said you messaged her. But said she told you no because she was feeling ill"
"I-I Didn't...", Raya tried to find words, dropping my arm and looking at all the others who were frowning at her.
"So if you want to speak about me being a bad friend, You shouldn't put yourself in situations like that", my voice was small.
"Why would you do that?", Zayn's voice sounded angry. And Skylar looked like she was about to cry.
As I began walking away, with Eleanor by my side and Louis close behind, Raya's voice screamed once more, "SO IF I'M SUCH A BAD FRIEND, WHY DON'T YOU TELL THEM WHAT YOU'VE BEEN HIDING!"
I stopped in my tracks and I heard Eleanor gasp quietly.
I slowly turned around and said in the smallest voice, "R-Raya don't"
"No, I think everyone deserves to know"
"Raya, that's enough", Liam said, sounding stern and strick. Raya glared at him before turning back to me.
"Go on Paisley, Tell them all about the boy in Western Australia", she taunted, "How you thought you were in love until his problems caught up with your beloved relationship"
"R-Raya I don't think tha-", Skylar's voice was cut off.
"Paisley. Tell them all about Tom", a smirk appeared on her face, "Or better yet, why don't you tell them about Chapin?"
My stomach dropped and I immediately felt like I was going to pass out. I felt the colour drain from my face and people started to notice.
"Since you won't tell them then, I will", Raya started.
"Raya. stop", Harry's voice said.
"This innocent acting poor excuse of a girl got herself pregnant to a crack head and abusive rapist and has a toddler daughter living back in Sydney!", Raya's smirk grew.
It was out.
My secret was out.
Everyone knew. Everyone was judging.
"Oh and better yet! Paisley s-", Raya's voice was cut off.
"RAYA! CUT IT OUT!", it was Liam.


Everyone stopped moving, stopped speaking.
Everyone stared at the angry Liam.
Raya stared at him with a hurt and shocked expression.
Her face grew a little red and she looked over at me, realising that she had actually said it all, "Paisley, I-I'm sorry"
I shook my head, turning back around and walking out.



I couldn't deal with that at the moment.
The only thing I could deal with is that everyone knows.
I will be the topic everyone around here talks about. It's going to be everywhere.




I locked myself in my dressed room and began crying.
My emotions were to full on at the moment to be able to do anything.



Everyone was knocking at my door, but I kept myself quiet and didn't reply.
They tried speaking to me through the doors. But I wouldn't answer.








I was going to be talked about.
And judged.

Is my life with my daughter over before it even started?

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