Obsessed

"I can't believe we are starting the tour today!", Skylar giggled, jumping up and down, "It's going to be absolutely amazing!"
"Indeed it is young one", Louis spoke, "Indeed it is"

"Where are we exactly going first?", Raya asked. We were all lounging around the hotel room, before we were about to leave.
"Well actually, I have a list", Liam smiled, handing it over to Raya, who was sitting on her bed, next to me.
"Of course you do", Louis said, making the rest of us snicker.
"At least I'm prepared", he said, shaking his head playfully.
"So Washington first. Then Idaho, Montana, Utah, Nevada, Arizona, then back here to California, then Colorado, New Mexico, Texas, Oklahoma, Nebraska, South and North Dakota, Minesota, Iowa, Louisiana, Mississippi, Alabama, Georgia, Florida, South and North Carolina, Tennessee, Kentucky, Virginia, Indiana, Wisconsin, Michigan, New Jersey, New York, Massachusetts and then Main", Raya said.
"So we aren't going to all the states then?", Skylar asked.
"Nah, people who want to go to a concert go to they closest state. We always have multiple shows in each of the states anyway", Niall said.

"So today, the real fun begins!", Louis says.
"You guys are supporting us for more than just the U.S tour. We want you for the entire tour. Which means all over the world", Zayn said. "Which means that after this country, we go to Europe and do heaps there too. And by then it will be around Christmas time. You guys will go back to Australia and then we will come over and do a tour down there along with New Zealand and even Japan"
"That's a big tour", I say quietly.
"Yeah. It is", Liam said.
"BUT IT'S GOING TO BE AMAZING BECAUSE WE ARE ALL TOGETHER!", Louis shouted happily, just as the door opened, revealing Tully and the boy's manager.
"Okay, well let's go now. We have to be at the airport soon and we head to Washington", Tully smiled.
"Tully it's almost 10", I say to her quietly. "I-I can't miss it"
I could feel every pair of eyes on me. And I hated it. It wasn't any of their business and I hate sharing it with people. That's why nobody knows.
She gave me a nod before speaking softly, "We can wait in the car for you"
I nodded and felt Raya squeeze my hand before grabbing her bags and walking out the door. Everyone began doing the same.
I noticed Harry look back once at me before slowly leaving.
I was left alone.
I sat on the edge of the bed, staring at my phone, placed on the small coffee table.
I shakily waited for the familar vibrating to come from my phone and it seemed like hours that I was sitting there, running too many thoughts through my head.
How was I going to say hello?
What would they call me?
My eyes flickered to the clock and I realised that I had already been sitting here in the same position for over 30 minutes. And it was evident when Tully slowly walked through the door.
"Has the call ended?", she asked.
I took a deep breath, finally coming to my senses that there was no point waiting, "There was no call", I say, quickly wiping the tears from my eyes with the cuff of my jumper.
"What?", she asked.
"I didn't get a call Tully. It's as simple as that! They don't want me talking to them. But don't worry. I will be 18 soon and free to do what I want", I say, picking up my handbag, throwing on my shoulder before wrapping my fingers around my suitcase handle and walking out the door and into the elevator with Tully following behind me.
"Maybe they forgot", she spoke.
"Or maybe they don't want me in their lives", I say back.
The door dinged open, revealing everyone sitting around the lobby.
Everyone stared as I sat down gently next to Zeela. I think she could sense my unhappiness as she placed her hand over mine and rested her head on my shoulder.


Soon after, we were piled into a van.
I sat at the back, by myself, wanting to be alone. And I was.
I typed in my passcode on my phone and pressed into my pictures, scrolling through until I found the one I wanted. I stared at the person the entire half hour all the way to the airport.


This was the time I was supposed to be glowing.
But I just want to curl up into a ball and cry.

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