Little Things
Beach Party Blues
So to show me that he trusts me Harry let me take his car to the beach house. I was happy I got to drive up alone. I got to blare my county music (my guilty pleasure) and sing as loud as I want and think freely. The closer I got the more excited I got. Before I knew it I was already there.
I pulled up to Danielle and her cousin Mandy’s beach house and honked letting them know I was here. They both came out squealing going straight in for a hug. Then came the compliments on all the things we have changed since last summer.
“So holy crap you’re dating a celebrity! Tell us all about him and the boys. Are you guys all like super close to the rest of them too? Tell us everything! How did you guys even meet?” there was a scripted scenario management came up with to keep that the boys went to school a secret.
“Well I was at Starbucks and I went to check a text while walking out and some guy walked into me and it was Harry. We became really good friends and when he came back from tour a while ago we hung out a lot and he asked me out and we’ve been together ever since.”
“That’s so cute. How long have you guys been together exactly?”
“Almost 8 months.”
“Awwww look at you all in looooveee.” I just giggled and turned the conversation on them. We talked and caught up until it was time to get ready for the first of many parties this week.
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The party was roaring. All my old friends were there and we all got caught up. Everyone was so interested in hearing about me and Harry. I constantly tried to divert all the questions. I wasn’t technically supposed to talk about me and Harry unless it was sunshine and happy stories so no bad things would get leaked to the press. And I didn’t really want to talk about him. I just wanted to remise old memories in my favorite place in the world.
“Jazz do you remember last year when me you and Danielle got on top of the fish statue and pretended to ride it?!” Mandy said
“How can I forget I still have the videos on my phone!”
“You’re shitting me! Let me see.” She and a couple others crowded around my phone and watched the hilarity.
“And the best part is we are completely sober.” She said pointing to my phone. We all shared a laugh. We all sat around the fire having some beers telling old stories. The entire time though harry was calling me and texting me. I shot him a quick one saying I would call him when we got back to the house. He sent a snarky text back saying to just forget it. I rolled my eyes and put my phone in my pocket. We all headed back about a half hour later. I got into the guest room and called him.
“Hi.”
“Hi.”
“So how was your night?” I ask trying to start a conversation.
“Fine. Probably not as eventful as yours.”
“Can you lose the attitude?
“Can you?”
“I didn’t have an attitude until you started giving it to me!”
“Whatever Jazz.”
“I don’t know how long I can stay on. The girls just-”
“Are you fucking kidding me? You spend all night blowing me off and ignoring me and then when I finally get you on the phone you can’t stay on? What bullshit.”
“Harry-”
“How about you call me when you have time for me okay?” and with that he hung up. I rolled my eyes and through my phone on the other side of the bed and pulled out my laptop. After about five minutes of being on tumblr my phone started ringing. It was him.
“Why didnt you call back?” he ask exasperated
“Because I don’t deserve to be yelled at for going out and having fun. I don’t deserve to be yelled at all so why would I call back so you can yell at me?”
“You’re right you don’t deserve it. We’re done.”
“W-what?”
“We’re done. You don’t deserve this.” We both got really quiet. A few seconds later he tried to say something but I hung up. I started crying. He called back 10 times before I picked up again.
“What? What do you want?”
“Jazz we’re not over I was stupid. The second you hung up my heart stopped. Please I'm sorry I didn’t mean it I was just mad.”
“Why do you keep doing this?! Saying things you don’t mean just to hurt me! You must really hate me.”
“No Jazz I love you I'm just so stupid sometimes I forget how good I have it and I'm so sorry please we’re not breaking up please.”
“Okay.”
“Okay?”
“Okay. Look I need to get some sleep I’ll talk to you tomorrow okay?”
“Okay goodnight princess. I love you.”
“I love you too.”
“Bye.”
I pulled up to Danielle and her cousin Mandy’s beach house and honked letting them know I was here. They both came out squealing going straight in for a hug. Then came the compliments on all the things we have changed since last summer.
“So holy crap you’re dating a celebrity! Tell us all about him and the boys. Are you guys all like super close to the rest of them too? Tell us everything! How did you guys even meet?” there was a scripted scenario management came up with to keep that the boys went to school a secret.
“Well I was at Starbucks and I went to check a text while walking out and some guy walked into me and it was Harry. We became really good friends and when he came back from tour a while ago we hung out a lot and he asked me out and we’ve been together ever since.”
“That’s so cute. How long have you guys been together exactly?”
“Almost 8 months.”
“Awwww look at you all in looooveee.” I just giggled and turned the conversation on them. We talked and caught up until it was time to get ready for the first of many parties this week.
LINEBREAK
The party was roaring. All my old friends were there and we all got caught up. Everyone was so interested in hearing about me and Harry. I constantly tried to divert all the questions. I wasn’t technically supposed to talk about me and Harry unless it was sunshine and happy stories so no bad things would get leaked to the press. And I didn’t really want to talk about him. I just wanted to remise old memories in my favorite place in the world.
“Jazz do you remember last year when me you and Danielle got on top of the fish statue and pretended to ride it?!” Mandy said
“How can I forget I still have the videos on my phone!”
“You’re shitting me! Let me see.” She and a couple others crowded around my phone and watched the hilarity.
“And the best part is we are completely sober.” She said pointing to my phone. We all shared a laugh. We all sat around the fire having some beers telling old stories. The entire time though harry was calling me and texting me. I shot him a quick one saying I would call him when we got back to the house. He sent a snarky text back saying to just forget it. I rolled my eyes and put my phone in my pocket. We all headed back about a half hour later. I got into the guest room and called him.
“Hi.”
“Hi.”
“So how was your night?” I ask trying to start a conversation.
“Fine. Probably not as eventful as yours.”
“Can you lose the attitude?
“Can you?”
“I didn’t have an attitude until you started giving it to me!”
“Whatever Jazz.”
“I don’t know how long I can stay on. The girls just-”
“Are you fucking kidding me? You spend all night blowing me off and ignoring me and then when I finally get you on the phone you can’t stay on? What bullshit.”
“Harry-”
“How about you call me when you have time for me okay?” and with that he hung up. I rolled my eyes and through my phone on the other side of the bed and pulled out my laptop. After about five minutes of being on tumblr my phone started ringing. It was him.
“Why didnt you call back?” he ask exasperated
“Because I don’t deserve to be yelled at for going out and having fun. I don’t deserve to be yelled at all so why would I call back so you can yell at me?”
“You’re right you don’t deserve it. We’re done.”
“W-what?”
“We’re done. You don’t deserve this.” We both got really quiet. A few seconds later he tried to say something but I hung up. I started crying. He called back 10 times before I picked up again.
“What? What do you want?”
“Jazz we’re not over I was stupid. The second you hung up my heart stopped. Please I'm sorry I didn’t mean it I was just mad.”
“Why do you keep doing this?! Saying things you don’t mean just to hurt me! You must really hate me.”
“No Jazz I love you I'm just so stupid sometimes I forget how good I have it and I'm so sorry please we’re not breaking up please.”
“Okay.”
“Okay?”
“Okay. Look I need to get some sleep I’ll talk to you tomorrow okay?”
“Okay goodnight princess. I love you.”
“I love you too.”
“Bye.”
7/11/13