I thought a lot about Zayn's apology and I just wasn’t sure if I was ready to forgive him. He said a lot of hurtful things to me. I know its kinda hypocritical seeing hot I treated him but I can’t help but still be upset about it. I was also kinda mad that Alex had already forgiven him because he got her concert tickets. I know he was really sorry I'm just still upset. God lately it seems like either I'm mad at one of the boys or I'm begging them for forgiveness. Why can’t we just be normal?

Everyone was in prom fever, well expect me. Even though it’s still like a month away. I thought Alex would be more bummed but she is going with a couple of her friends. They invited me too but I really wanted my first prom to be with Harry. And besides I don’t have enough to get a ticket. I mean if I knew I was going with Harry I would find a way to scrounge up the cash but seeing as he can’t go it just doesn’t seem worth it. I’m just glad it’s the weekend so I don’t have to hear about it.

Harry and me were going to hang out today. Apparently he is appalled that I go ice skating religiously every winter but have never learned to roller blade. So he said he was coming over and he was going to teach me. I was actually a little scared I felt like a kid learning to ride a bike.

Earlier this week my friend dropped me off some of her hammy downs [she has the best clothes. She only wears stuff once then gets bored with it and gives it to me yay new stuff!] and Harry made me give him a fashion show. There was one item he particularly like [no nothing dirty] it was the white and blue striped shirt/dress thing. Well it was stripped up until about the middle of my ribcage then it was solid blue. It was too long to be a shirt but just a tad too short to be a dress. The weather was nice though so I just threw on some jeans shorts underneath. It was an unusually warm day for April. I got bored just sitting around waiting for Harry to arrive so I tried new hair styles out. I settled on this one where it turns my hair into a bow. I really liked it. Just I was spraying it to make sure it stayed I heard a knock at the door.

“Hey babe!” he said as I went in for a hug. He pulled back and looked me up and down “You’re wearing the shirt!”

“Indeed I am.” I said giving him a little twirl.

“You are stunning.”

“You’re only saying that because you love this shirt.” I smile and give him a little shove. He catches my hand and pulls me close to him. “No I’m saying it because you are absolutely stunning.” He kissed my forehead and grabbed his skates off the porch. “Now are you ready to learn how to roller blade?”

“As ready as I’ll ever.” I said grabbing my brothers skates. We walked down my stairs and onto the sidewalk where he helped me put on my skates. Once he was done he held out his hand to help me up and I said “no, no its fine I got it.” I shakily stood up and held on to my railing for dear life.

“Come on don’t be scared. Just push off. It’s just like ice skating.” He said trying to encourage me.

“Okay here I go.” I said closing my eyes. After a minute I said “am I moving yet?” he chuckled and pried my hand off the railing.

“It’s okay I got you. Look see I haven’t even put my skates on yet. I’m just going to guide you along.” He said pushing me down my street. We got to the end and he said “Come on try without me. You’ll be fine.”

“Umm okay.” I let go of hi and pretended I was ice skating. I pushed off and I only got like 2 feet. I continued going until I heard Harry yell for me to wait up. He had fastened his skates and was quickly coming after me. As we made our way further down the street we saw some kids having a lemonade stand. I used to babysit these kids and was happy to contribute. Harry adjusted his hat and sunglasses to avoid being spotted.

“Hey cuties, Hi Heidi.” I said to their mom.

“Hi Jazz how have you been? We haven’t seen you in a while.”

“I’ve been good busy with school. How have you been Jo?” I asked the little girl giving me lemonade.

“I’ve been great. When are you going to babysit us again?” she asked handing us our lemonade and taking our money.

“Whenever your mom needs me. See yah later kids. Bye Heidi!” And with that we skated over to my old middle school [which was down the street from me.

“So this is where you went to school.” He said as we sat down on the bench sipping our lemonade.

“Yup. Sure is.”

“And are those the monkey bars you told me you almost passed out on because you wanted to prove you could stay upside down longer than the boys could.”

“Yup and it was worth it to see their faces fall when Josh Thomas finally dropped.”

“Wanna have a rematch. So I can try and win back the title for my gender. Pretty please?”

“Oh your on pretty boy.” I said stepping out of my skates and running over to the monkey bars.

“Okay here are the rules” I said tucking my shirt into my shorts, no need to flash him. “the first player to bring themselves up loses. That includes just grabbing the bar to keep balance. Oh and no touching the other player. Ready.” He nodded “GO!” and we both let go and hung upside down. He started laughing when he looked at me.

“what? You try to lose?”

“you hair looks insane right now!”

“Like yours looks much better.” I closed my eyes and let my arms hang above my head. I could stay like this all day it was so relaxing. I didn’t hear Harry swing back and forth until he grabbed on to me and pulled me into the cheesiest romantic upside down kisses. When he pulled away he was still hanging on to me so we were an inch apart. “You know you lost right.” I said biting my lip.

“It was worth it.” He smiled and then started to get down. I followed him off the monkey bars and we went over to the slide and lay down for a minute to stop the dizziness.

“I am very light headed are you?” he asked playing with my hair.

“A little probably not as much as you though.” I giggled. We stayed there for a few minutes I jumped up and said “I know where we should go next. I don’t know why we didn’t go there in the first place.” I pulled him up and we got our skates and headed up the road to the park. The park was literally around the corner form my house and had this huge tennis court that was amazing to skate on [or scooter if you’re me]. Not a crack or bump in sight. Once we got there I kept going up and down the court spinning around the net posts and going as fast as I could not caring I could fall at any moment. Harry had stopped trying to keep up with me and was taking pictures and videos. I think he was kinda hoping I would wipe out so he could catch me on film.

“Jazz come here look at this!” he yelled to me. I skated over and he showed me a pic of me skating by sticking my tongue out.

“No Haz delete it.” I whined.

“Oh no no no this is going on twitter AND instagram!” he said pulling the phone away typing furiously.

“Haz NO I look so derpy!” I whined grabbing at the phone.

“To late now the world knows how cute and adorable you are.” He showed me the tweet. “Jazz’s first time skating! Isn’t she adorable! #loveher”

“The fans aren’t going to like that you know.” I wagged my finger at him

“I know but I love you they just have to get used to that.” He kissed me and said “come on let’s get you home. Your feet must be killing you.” He had me grab onto his belt loops and pulled me all the way home.

Notes

sorry i havent updated in a while and sorry if this chapter kinda sucks ive been having serious writers block but comment and tell me what you think :)