Little Things
Apologies All Around
“Jazz?” I heard from behind me. I went to the smoking spot after drama to clear my head. I looked up to see Rylan. “Can we talk?”
“Yeah sure.” She sat down next to me. “Look Jazz I'm so so so sooo sorry I didn’t tell you about the messages from Harry. I didn’t think he was going to dump you I just thought he needed to get it out of his head and off his chest and I should have told you and I’m sorry.”
“It’s okay Rylan really. I understand now. I would’ve come to you but I have so much going on right now. I'm sorry for storming out.”
“So we okay?” she asked hopefully
“We’re good.” Smiled and we hugged.
“Just don’t go behind my back again please.” and we both laughed
“So what’s going on that has you all frazzled?” she asked
“Well Zayn and aren’t speaking. And I don’t think Harry is that happy with him either so I feel like it’s going to affect their work environment. I just feel like I keep messing things up. And no matter what I do someone is getting hurt some way.” She stayed really quiet I guess she didn’t know what to say about it. “Look gotta go but I'm really glad we could make up Rylan” I said turning to leave.
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‘Wait you’re not going to be here for prom? What do you mean you’re not going to be here for prom?” I said to Harry over the phone.
“I’m sorry love we have some charity events we have to go to in Paris and Spain. I really wish I could go. I’m so sorry I know how much you’ve been looking forward to this.” And I have. One of the things my mom has done for me is earlier this year she found a beautiful dress for me. She even knew how excited I was for prom. But even then it was still 2 months away I hadn’t even thought about it yet. Until now.
“No its okay charity events are important. You have a job to do I can’t keep keeping you from it. I feel like since we have been dating you have barely got any work done.”
“That’s not true. You’ve helped me write some great songs” he chuckled. “But seriously are you going to be okay with this. I know you hate when go away.”
“Well at least you’re telling me this time that you’re leaving. When are you leaving exactly?”
“May 1st.” he said softly.
“Oh so we still have another month together. When are you coming back?”
“June 15.”
“Oh wow um okay only a month I can deal with this.” I said trying to make sense of it all.
“Look I gotta go management is making us work over time, says we been slacking. I’ll talk to you later okay?”
“Yeah sure. I love you Harry.”
“Love you too Jazz.”
Zayn POV
I'm so glad to be home. I thought to myself as I kicked off my shoes. The stupid recording session ran late and I was fucking exhausted. I had already had a shitty day. Not to mention Harry was actually being nice to me, what the fuck. I knew it was just an act he couldn’t possibly forgive me after all the shit I said to Jazz. Shit don’t think about it don’t think about it, FUCKING HELL. Why did she always creep her way back into my brain? All day I haven’t been able to get how said she looked out of my head. How I had made her cry. How absolutely torn she looked today when I told her off. God I'm such an idiot. It’s not her fault she loves him. I need to make things right. And Alex oh my god Alex I have never seen her so mad. I need to fix things with them first thing in the morning tomorrow.
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I waited for the girls outside the nursery in the morning. I heard talking about some English assignment last night with Jazz when they turned to corner. Jazz’s eyes met mine before she quickly looked to the floor, her face giving away how upset she was. She quickly ran past me and darted down the hall before I could even talk to her.
“What the hell?! Haven’t you done enough?” Alex scoffed
“Listen Alex I’m s-”
“You’re what? Sorry? You damn well should be. You know she can’t even say your name without looking like she is going to break down, let alone be in the same room as you.” She turned to walk away.
“Please Alex I’m sorry please I’ll do anything.” I said grabbing her arm
“Then fix it.” She pulled her arm away.
“How?!”
“I don’t know Zayn I didn’t fuck up it’s not my job to figure out how to fix it.” She threw over her shoulder as she walked away. I needed reinforcement.
Jazz POV
“Hey are you okay?” Alex found me before homeroom.
“Yah I'm just not ready to talk to him.”
“Me neither. He said he was sorry for what it’s worth.” She said shifting her bag from one shoulder to another.
“Are you going to forgive him?” I asked
“I don’t know. He’s just ugh he’s so dumb sometimes you know. If he earns it I will. I mean he’s one of my best friends even if he’s a jack ass sometimes. I don’t know if I can stay mad at him forever.” She said as he bell rang and we went our separate ways.
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After school I headed to the auditorium so I could get a new schedule from the drama teacher. I went my usual short cut under the auditorium when I felt a pair of hands grab me from behind. I was about to scream when Liam came in front of me and covered my mouth.
“This is for your own good Jazz.” And they pulled me into a storage room. The shoved me in (the one who was holding me was Niall.) and locked the door behind me. I looked up and saw Zayn standing against the wall. I turned around and started banging on the door.
“Sorry Jazz we're not letting you out till you hear him out.” I shouted back at them. “Fine but when I get out you both are dead!!!” I turned around to see Zayn looking at me with very hopeful eyes. “Go ahead it’s not like I have a choice.”
“Jazz I’m so sorry. I know I said I meant those things but I don’t. I'm just hurt, but that’s no excuse for how I’ve been acting. I’m about this close to having no friends at all. But I want to make amends. I never should have said those hurtful things to you and will completely understand if you still don’t ever want to talk to me again. I just needed to apologize.” There was a long pause. “Please say something.”
“I don’t know if I can forgive you Zayn. You were supposed to be my best friend the guy I can turn to for everything. And yes I did take advantage of that but I did not deserve how you treated me. I appreciate your apology but I need some time to think before I can truly forgive you.”
“Yes of course take all the time you need.” I knocked on the door and Niall unlocked it and opened it. I was about to leave when I looked back at Zayn and said “and you need to apologize to Alex, you hurt her worse than any of us. Even if she doesn’t show it.”
“I already got that covered.” He smiled and I walked out.
Zayn POV
“Alex there you are.” I said when I found her in the lobby.
“What do you want Zayn?” I pulled her over into the hallway and away from everyone else. “What the hell?”
“I needed to give something.” I pulled out the concert tickets I had in my back pocket. I watched her eyes light up as she read the ticket.
“No freaking way! MCR tickets!” she was jumping up and down.
“Yup front row.” She stopped jumping all the sudden and pointed the tickets at me. “This doesn’t mean I forgive you, but it’s a good start.” She got all excited again and was freaking out. Just like I knew she would. “But thanks Zayn. Have you talked to Jazz yet?”
“I talked to her earlier. She said she would think about accepting my apology. I'm screwed aren’t I?”
“I don’t know dude. We’ll just have to wait and see.”
7/11/13