Little Things
Where It All Began
“JAZZ!” I hear someone shout down the hall. I see Harry bound the corner and come sprinting down the hall in my direction. His hair was more of a mess than usual and his face was bright red, he must have just got of the soccer field for a little early morning practice with the boys.
“What Harr-eeeee” I shriek as he tackles me to the ground.
“I have something really important to tell you” he said dead serious still pinning me to the floor.
“What H-harry?” I say my voice cracking as he gets really close to my face.
“… hi.” He whispers and we both burst out laughing. In between gasps I manage to spit out “Are you… telling me… you... tackled me… at 8 o’clock this morning… to say hi” I say still laughing as he tried to help me up.
“Yup” he said with his famous side smile “so what do you have first?” he said grabbing the last of my papers on the ground.
“English, what about you?”
“Contemporary issues. I’ll walk you too English.” He said as we make our way to the stairs
“So how are things with Rylan? Any better?”
“Not good. Were still fighting all the time about the stupidest things and I don’t think its going to last much longer. It’s just not meant to be. Love shouldn’t be this hard.” He said with a grimace. “Here’s your stop I like totally have to go so ttyl byeeezz” he said in his girliest voice to lighten the mood. I chuckle and wave him off as he skips down the hall.
I walked to my seat and put my head on my hand and started to day dream. I must have had the goofiest grin on my face because my best friend Alex sits down with a plop and says in a mocking sing song voice “had a nice chat with Haaarrry?”
“How did you know I was talking to harry?”
“Please I can read you like a book. You have your I-just-talked-to-Harry-I’m- so-in-lah-ove” she giggled and took a sip of her bitter black coffee that she has every morning. “I ship you guys so hard”
“Stop he has a girlfriend” I said with a blush
“Please anyone can see they are on a downward spiral. They wont last another week, I’m surprised that lasted this long. Besides he’s not happy and didn’t you say all you wanted was for him to be happy?”
“Yah but I’m not going to pounce on him because he MIGHT break up with his girlfriend. I’m not like her.” My ‘friend’ Rylan and I aren’t on good terms because of this whole relationship. Ever since they started dating in June I have tried to avoid both of them. It worked in the summer but now we’re back month into school it gets harder. I have to say I’m not totally displeased that they are fizzling out. I just want him to be happy.
FLASHBACK
“Here.” I said handing him a note with all my hidden feelings for him.
“What is it?” he said with a smile as he goes to open it.
“Wait wait wait, count to 20 after I leave before you open it okay?” I say and I turn and walk down the hall. I turn the corner and sink into the wall and take a deep breath. A slow smile creeps on my face. NO regrets
END FLASHBACK
As I come out of my daydream I hear my English teacher going on and on about some summer reading book I didn’t read… opps. Then I feel someone poke me in the side who turned out to be Zayn. He brought two fingers to his lips and motioned to smoking and mouthed ‘after school’ I nodded and mouthed back ‘yes please’ he smirked and went back to doodling.
Zayn and Alex had always been close friends, ever since they met on the first day of freshman year. She spilled her coffee on him. She was mortified that she spilled coffee on a sophomore. Nonetheless she helped him get cleaned up and just clicked, very big brother little sister type of friend ship ever since.
Zayn and I didn’t get really close until last year. I mean we were friends but we really didn’t know each other. We even had a bit of a fling over the summer but that’s another story. Now I and Zayn are just friends and smoking buddies. He is also how we got close with most of the other boys. After we clicked with them all the other boys wanted to hang with us too. He introduced me to Harry. And I’ve been thoroughly friend zoned since.
FLASHBACK
“Rylan!” I yelled after her as she left the school. She turned towards me just in time to almost collide with her. I was giddy with anticipation of what harry thought of my note. “I did it I gave him the note. I-“
“I know” she said with a sad smile. The kind of smile you give someone when your about to tell them something bad. My face fell. “What did he say?”
She took out her phone and swiped it unlocked. She scrolled through her messages until she got to it then handed me the phone “You better read it.” I stared down at the letters, my brain not wanting to process the information.
*I like her just not like that. I’ve never even thought of her like that.” And that’s when it hit me like a ton of bricks. I shoved her phone back at her and then ran back inside. I grabbed Alex and stumbled into the bathroom and cried. I never cry.
END FLASHBACK
Ever since that moment I haven’t let him in. not like that. I never know if he really likes me or is just flirting and I can’t afford to find out. It’s not worth the risk.
“What Harr-eeeee” I shriek as he tackles me to the ground.
“I have something really important to tell you” he said dead serious still pinning me to the floor.
“What H-harry?” I say my voice cracking as he gets really close to my face.
“… hi.” He whispers and we both burst out laughing. In between gasps I manage to spit out “Are you… telling me… you... tackled me… at 8 o’clock this morning… to say hi” I say still laughing as he tried to help me up.
“Yup” he said with his famous side smile “so what do you have first?” he said grabbing the last of my papers on the ground.
“English, what about you?”
“Contemporary issues. I’ll walk you too English.” He said as we make our way to the stairs
“So how are things with Rylan? Any better?”
“Not good. Were still fighting all the time about the stupidest things and I don’t think its going to last much longer. It’s just not meant to be. Love shouldn’t be this hard.” He said with a grimace. “Here’s your stop I like totally have to go so ttyl byeeezz” he said in his girliest voice to lighten the mood. I chuckle and wave him off as he skips down the hall.
I walked to my seat and put my head on my hand and started to day dream. I must have had the goofiest grin on my face because my best friend Alex sits down with a plop and says in a mocking sing song voice “had a nice chat with Haaarrry?”
“How did you know I was talking to harry?”
“Please I can read you like a book. You have your I-just-talked-to-Harry-I’m- so-in-lah-ove” she giggled and took a sip of her bitter black coffee that she has every morning. “I ship you guys so hard”
“Stop he has a girlfriend” I said with a blush
“Please anyone can see they are on a downward spiral. They wont last another week, I’m surprised that lasted this long. Besides he’s not happy and didn’t you say all you wanted was for him to be happy?”
“Yah but I’m not going to pounce on him because he MIGHT break up with his girlfriend. I’m not like her.” My ‘friend’ Rylan and I aren’t on good terms because of this whole relationship. Ever since they started dating in June I have tried to avoid both of them. It worked in the summer but now we’re back month into school it gets harder. I have to say I’m not totally displeased that they are fizzling out. I just want him to be happy.
FLASHBACK
“Here.” I said handing him a note with all my hidden feelings for him.
“What is it?” he said with a smile as he goes to open it.
“Wait wait wait, count to 20 after I leave before you open it okay?” I say and I turn and walk down the hall. I turn the corner and sink into the wall and take a deep breath. A slow smile creeps on my face. NO regrets
END FLASHBACK
As I come out of my daydream I hear my English teacher going on and on about some summer reading book I didn’t read… opps. Then I feel someone poke me in the side who turned out to be Zayn. He brought two fingers to his lips and motioned to smoking and mouthed ‘after school’ I nodded and mouthed back ‘yes please’ he smirked and went back to doodling.
Zayn and Alex had always been close friends, ever since they met on the first day of freshman year. She spilled her coffee on him. She was mortified that she spilled coffee on a sophomore. Nonetheless she helped him get cleaned up and just clicked, very big brother little sister type of friend ship ever since.
Zayn and I didn’t get really close until last year. I mean we were friends but we really didn’t know each other. We even had a bit of a fling over the summer but that’s another story. Now I and Zayn are just friends and smoking buddies. He is also how we got close with most of the other boys. After we clicked with them all the other boys wanted to hang with us too. He introduced me to Harry. And I’ve been thoroughly friend zoned since.
FLASHBACK
“Rylan!” I yelled after her as she left the school. She turned towards me just in time to almost collide with her. I was giddy with anticipation of what harry thought of my note. “I did it I gave him the note. I-“
“I know” she said with a sad smile. The kind of smile you give someone when your about to tell them something bad. My face fell. “What did he say?”
She took out her phone and swiped it unlocked. She scrolled through her messages until she got to it then handed me the phone “You better read it.” I stared down at the letters, my brain not wanting to process the information.
*I like her just not like that. I’ve never even thought of her like that.” And that’s when it hit me like a ton of bricks. I shoved her phone back at her and then ran back inside. I grabbed Alex and stumbled into the bathroom and cried. I never cry.
END FLASHBACK
Ever since that moment I haven’t let him in. not like that. I never know if he really likes me or is just flirting and I can’t afford to find out. It’s not worth the risk.
7/11/13