Lily's POV:

I just couldn't help myself.

I couldn't stop sneaking peaks at Him. Luke. What was he doing to me?

I could just just get lost in his eyes, those freckles splashed across his face, and his pale pink lips. He was so caring and never made me feel bad and...and...he was so much better than Nick right now. (why did it feel so good to admit that?)

Nick had broken my heart. But that was because I screwed up, I reminded myself. I can't screw up again.

But I can't get out of this deal. I need a sign telling me if I should pursue Nick or Luke. I glanced back at Luke again, for the fiftieth time and met his passionate gaze. I quickly looked back down and scooped the last bits of my yogurt into my mouth. I felt my eyes wandering back up to meet Luke's but I finally put the hammer down and forced myself to become interested in how many times people will go to the fruit bar instead of the sweets bar.

"As strange as this might sound to your foreign ears, people in Great Britain normally look at their date," I glared at Luke, my eyes joyful for me finding an excuse to ogle at his.

"Believe it or not, we do that in America as well!"

"Then why won't you let yourself loose yourself in my eyes? I know you're resisting me Lily, it's obvious."

"I'm only on this stupid date because I needed help on Math and you wouldn't help me!"

"Lily the only reason that your yelling at me right now is because your desperate to be angry at me. The question is, why do you want to be angry at me?"

"How do you know what I'm thinking?"

"I just do. Now please, answer my question." Luke waited patiently for my reply, as if he had all the time in the world. He was so convincing that I gave in, knowing he would probably keep pestering me.

"I- I can't like you. I can't like anyone."

"Why? Who's holding you back?"

"What about Louis? And Harry, Zayn, Liam, and Niall? Don't they want you out of my life?"

"They expressed they're discontent of me dating you," admitted Luke. "But as long as I met they're terms, they would leave me alone."

"But we aren't even dating! This is just apart of the deal!"

"That's what I'm trying to understand. I know you have hidden feelings for me, why else would my heart be telling me that you're my perfect girl? So what are you blinded by? What is making you not see what we have? Why can't you see what we are?"

"We are young! So young! It's a billion to one chances that we could be together forever."

"We are that solitary chance, that glimmers through the darkness!"

"What is up with you and the metaphors? I mean seriously, this isn't Romeo and Juliet!"

"Look I know you think I'm crazy but why would a guy my age know so much about love but not know who his lover is?"

"Luke! I'm not your soul mate or anything! We just happen to be on one date and suddenly you go all Shakespeare on me, telling me that I'm destined to be your future wife or something? It's never going to happen! Besides I have someone else-"

"Aha, I knew there was someone else!"

"-that I really don't want to give up on. You think that we're destined to be together but really, the guy that I am completely in love with right now is going to realize what we have. So I'm sorry, I'm not yours, I'm taken. There must be another girl exactly like me because I'm not that Girl that you've been yearning for."

"Hear me out one more time. I believe that we are going to be together. Eventually. If that takes a million years and we're in heaven that's fine. But I know we're going to be together. And I want you to test fate. You can run farther and faster than anyone across earth but if our Love is true, it will find you. I don't know why, but I have faith in our Love. Believe me, I'm pretty sure that I'm going insane, but how could I believe in anything so deeply if it wasn't true? If I'm really crazy, forgive me. If I'm wrong, forgive me. But now, when there is still hope, don't push me away."

I pushed my chair away and started walking. I pushed the door open and just walked away. I walked home and cried. I had never heard something so beautiful, so deep, so pure. I agreed with every word he said, how could I not? But I knew that everything he said was also wrong. He was promising that Love would always find me. But what is Love?

The bible verse burned inside my head but I pushed it away. Love was the exact opposite of those words. Love is wrong, it has led people doing terrible things. It tears everything apart, it's an complex kind of sin that even the Devil and God can't explain. It always starts out with beauty but turns ugly. I can't trust love.

When I reached my house, tears poured out of my eye sockets like an everlasting fountain. I couldn't stop them, no matter how many times I tried wiping them away. It's like Luke's words shook me more than an earthquake and I couldn't deny them. I kept telling myself it's not true but I believed him and he was just so convincing. He talked like it was actually true. Was it? Could true love be discovered what such a young age? I was overwhelmed by all the thoughts in my head and I crawled into my bed, not believing that I had just been there only twelve hours ago; it had felt like an eternity.

I knew I had to decide soon. I always ended up deciding and finding a good solution, but right now, either way, the risks were piled higher than a skyscraper. I fell asleep feeling consumed by my tears of Love.

"Goodnight, Luke." I croaked, my throat dry. Tomorrow would be another day, I thought as I slowly lost conciseness. Another day with Luke at my side. Proclaiming our supposed Love.

Notes

So guys what do we think? It's a very emotional chapter. But I think that everyone has the same thoughts about young love. At a young age we all meet someone that we think, I'm going to marry that someone someday. But it rarely ever happens. But what about Lily? What is she fighting? Is it really all about Nick? Is there some other resentment as well? Thank you so much to the 59 voters! And the 76 subscribers! I really appreciate it.

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