"Wake up, baby" I heard his raspy voice call me. Then I felt a kiss on my cheek.

"Nooo" I groaned. But he didn't take 'no' for an answer and started tickling me. I was wide awake after he was finished.

I went in the bathroom, and just then I realized I was wearing nothing but my underwear and bra. And the night before came across my mind. I started smiling like an idiot. I washed up and put on my clothes from last night.

When I got downstairs, waffles were waiting for me.

"Awww" I said as I saw him in an apron. He was so adorable with his hair pushed back.

"Here you go" He said putting the plate on the dining table.

He then joined me and we started eating.

"These taste amazing." I said chewing.

"Almost as good as you" He said quietly, but loud enough so I could hear him.

And of course, being the awkward person that I am, I had to be idiotic. I started to laugh, and he just watched me with a smirk on his face, which made me nervous.

"Oh god…" I finally stopped smiling "I'm a slut."

"What?!" He started to laugh.

"Oh my god, Harry. You are dating a slut. You are now in a relationship with a whore." I felt…icky.

"Jen" He smiled.

"We're not even going out 6 months, and we had sex." I said.

"Jen, we didn't have sex. You're still a virgin, so technically, you can't be a slut" He joked, and just watched me in amusement as I judged myself.

"Oh my god, I am half-a-virgin now. OH MY GOD I AM REGINA GEORGE WHEN SHE MET AARON SAMUELS!" I started to freak out. Harry just laughed really hard, which made me feel stupid because I was over-reacting.

"You are adorable, you know that" He said and just gazed at me with his smirk.

After our breakfast, I had to wait for him to clean up, because, surprisingly, he is 'tidy'. I know he does this just so I don't think that he is a slob, but whatever.

We got out and got into his car.

"Where to, miss" He said when we were both inside.

"Are you my cab now?" I asked laughing.

"Free of charge, of course." He said and kissed my cheek. I smiled and answered.

"School, good sir." He started to laugh and we drove off.

I was late for first period and entered in the middle of class. I had History, and my teacher scolded me, which was annoying and then I took my sit.

Lucy was in the back, banging her head agents the desk.

But, we didn't talk much until lunch.

"You've been acting strange" She said. Was it that obvious that I was no longer a full member of the virgin society?! I was a partial member. PARTIAL.

"Yeah, I'm fine" I smiled. "Why did you bang your head in first period?" I changed the subject

"I did the dumbest thing possible." She said and bowed her head.

"What?" I asked intrigued.

"I sort of…kind of…maybe…well" She couldn't say.

"What, come on spill it out!" She was about to, but we saw Chelsea, Britney and Lexi hanging out not far from us.

"Ugh, they are so annoying!" Lucy said.

"At least they're not bothering us" I said.

"I know but come on, yesterday, I had lunch with Leena because you weren't in school, and I sat with Misty and co. and they were all talking about how cool the 'new girl' is. And by 'new girl' they meant Lexi. And me and Leena just rolled our eyes. She's fooling everyone!" Lucy explained.

"Seriously?!" I asked in disbelieve. How can they not see right through that fake kindness! Well, I didn't, but still!

"Yeah, oh and some other bad news" She said, handing me her phone.

On Safari there was an article that titled: We have news Directioners, Haylor isn't real.

"What? How did this happen?!" I gasped.

"You're not that careful" She said. I read on

'It has been brought to our attention that heart throb Harry Styles, member of boy band One Direction, isn't really in a relationship with country pop singer Taylor Swift. Although they haven't done much to hide their relationship, Harry has been seen with his Ex girlfriend, that goes by the name Jenna, in his car numerous times. Styles wrote on his twitter 'The End' while his ex-girlfriend wrote 'moving on'. After all the guessing, they did a twit cam together where they confirmed that they are in fact, broken up, but still good friends. But how 'good' are they? Our adorable Harry has been hanging out with his ex, more often than with his present. So all of you directioners who don't like Haylor, don't think twice about it. Leave your comments on our twitter page listed in the bottom.'

"Oh god…" I said. I mean, I was thrilled that maybe they will have to break up because of this, but still.

"Yeah, that's not the worst part. You know what the worldwide trend is right now? 'DirectionersWantJerry''" She said.

"How is that bad?" I laughed.

"I don't know, It's just getting a bit too…official" She said and laughed.

My phone rang. It was Harry.

"Hey." I answer it.

"Just checking up on you" He said cheerfully

"I have some bad news. Hold on I'll send it to you." I said and hung up. After that, I took a snapshot of the article and send it to Harry. He called me immediately after that.

"This was the bad news?" He asked like he was expecting more.

"Well, yeah! We are too noticeable." I said.

"I don't care, Jen" He laughed. "I wanted to tell you this in person, but I don't want you to worry about this so I'm gonna tell you now." He announced.

"Tell me what?" I asked.

"I'm going to like…'break up' with Taylor. And we can be together." He said.

"But, won't that look bad for her? Like you cheat on her with me?" I said.

"It didn't bother her when it was the other way around. Don't worry" He reassured me. "I have to go, I'll see you after school ok?"

I confirmed and hung up.

"You should really lower the sound of your speaker. I could hear the whole conversation." Lucy commented. I listened to her advice and did what she said.

The rest of the school day was normal, and after school, my phone rang. I expected to be Harry, but I didn't know the number.

"Hello?" I answered.

"Hey love, Harry sent me to pick you up. Where are you?" It was Zayn.

"I'll be right out." I said and hurried through the crowd. What I hadn't noticed, were all these people looking at me, and talking about me, and talking to me. No big conversation just the usual 'hey's and 'hello's. I said ' hey' and 'hello' back because I am not a rude person.

I finally got into Zayn's car, and people noticed.

"Where are we going?" I asked.

"The studio." he said and drove off. "I saw the article." He said after few minutes of silence.

"Yeah?" I didn't know what to say.

"Are you happy?" He asked smiling.

"I don't know." I laughed.

"Do you want Harry to break up the whole fake relationship?" He asked.

"Yes." I answered shortly and quickly and we started laughing.

"Me too. She is like…ugh!" He said and laughed.

"Oh come on, she's not that bad" I tried to defend her, but how can I?!

"No, no you're right…" He said but it was sarcastic and we both started laughing.

"Shut up" I playfully hit his arm.

"Hello! Driving!" He said after he steered accidentally a little on the right.

"Can I drive?" I asked.

"Harry told me not to let you drive…ever!" He said and laughed.

"That's not fair. I'm a great driver. He tends to exaggerate a bit. You know…" I tried to convince me, but he just smiled at me and shook his head. "Ugh, you are so not fair" I joked.

"I am not putting my life in your hands" He laughed.

"So if you were per say, at a life or death situation, and I have an excellent plan, you won't go through with it because 'you don't want to put your life in my hands'?" I sassed.

"No, but we are not in a situation like that, so I don't want to die today." He said.

"Please please, I promise I'll drive like a normal human being!" I begged with my hands put together.

"Am I gonna regret this?" He asked as he slowed down and stopped the car.

"Probably." I said and smiled

"Are we by any chance going to get stopped by the police?" He asked.

"Most likely." I laughed. "Pleaseeeeee"

"Ok, but if I die, I'm going to kill you!" He said exiting his car. I was happy, and exited too to get to the drivers seat.

After we settled in, he put on his seat belt and I put on mine.

"Ready?" He asked. I nodded. "Let's go." He said and smiled.

I turned the engine on and drove off. I was careful, but I use to play GTA a lot, so I would usually speed up, or don't stop at stop signs or red lights and just honk at everything. I mostly drove on the left side of the road, and sometimes I forgot that I am suppose to be on the right, and just honk at them, like it's their fault. We escaped a few car crashes because Zayn would stir the wheel in the last second, and we would survive. But I could see he was having fun. His phone rang and it was connected to the car so when he answered it, it went on speaker.

"Hey babe" It was Perry.

"Hey love, where are you?" He said.

"Oh I have some free time, wanna get together?" She asked.

"Ok, but I have to…." he forgot that me and Harry are no longer canon, so he tried to escape "…stop by the studio. To see Harry. I'll call you afterwards ok?"

"Ok, see you later" She said

"Bye" And then they hung up.

"She does't know about me and Harry?" I couldn't help it, but ask.

"No. So come on, drive to the studio. I hope we get there alive" He laughed.

We got to the studio and I got out.

"Go in, I'll see you later." He said and went in the driver's seat.

"K,k." I said and went in. Inside were Harry and Niall. Harry was recording One way or another, and Niall was eating.

"Hello" I said and took some of his food.

"Hey" He said chewing.

Harry saw me from inside and came out just to greet me.

"Hey, what took you so long?" He asked kissing my cheek.

"I was driving" I said and smiled.

"Oh, well good to see you alive" He said and I laughed.

"Harry, we need to finish this" Said the man recording.

"Be right there." He said, and then turned to me "When I finish, we'll go ok?" He didn't wait for my reply, just pecked me on the lips and went back to record.

I sat next to Niall on the couch.

"So listen" He started talking a little serious

"Yeah?" I asked, taking a bit more of his french fries.

"I was with Louis last night. And we ran into Lucy." He paused, looking at me stealing his french fries "Are you listening?"

"Yeah yeah, sorry just, these french fries distract me." I laughed and he did too.

"Can I continue? Are you done eating my food?" He joked. I took one more and nodded

"Yup, talk" I said chewing it.

"So we ran into Lucy and the three of us went to McDonald's and then Louis had to leave to see Eleanor, and it was just me and Lucy. And she was home alone, so we went to her house"

Oh my god, where was this going! Is this the stupid thing Lucy did that didn't finnish telling me at lunch?!

"Ok, and?" I encouraged him.

"And we were bored, we watched some film about…I have no idea what it was about, anyway, we were bored, and we wanted to make things interesting, so…" He stopped again

"Please don't make these pauses, you're scaring me" I said, trying to act all calm and collected. He started to laugh, and continued

"So, I called a friend and he brought us these…hash brownies."

"You did what?!" I was so against drugs.

"Ok, so after the film got a lot interesting and we laughed at everything and we drank a bit…a lot and the film ended and it had this happy end where the girl gets with the guy she likes and Lucy looked at me and said 'Oh, that's never gonna be us'." He paused. My eyes went wide open

"W-what?" I didn't know how to react.

"So, I asked her what she meant with that, and she didn't answer me, and I forgot about it at the moment, and I slept over because I was in no condition to go home…. So anyway, I slept in her guest bedroom and she told me to wake her up this morning. And I did. And we had breakfast and I remembered what she said, and asked her about it, and she was really weird about it…"

He made a pausee again, getting lost in his thoughts.

"Then what happened?" I asked hoping Lucy said something that got her in the clear, but I knew she didn't.

"She told me that she didn't remember.." He said a little disappointed

"Don't look too much into it" I tried to cover for her.

"Don't do that. She remembered, but just doesn't want to tell me." He said "I know she remembered."

"You have to talk to her about it." I said.

"I know, I phoned her but she was in class, and then Harry said that you'll come by later, and I wanted to talk to you first." He said.

"I don't know what to tell you. It's really not my area" I said, not wanting to tell him what it was really about.

"OK, just answer me this, does she like me? Like…like-like me?" He asked me. What an uncomfortably awkward question.

"I don't know. Maybe…I don't know" I said. He smiled and finally got that it was a little unpleasant for me to talk about my friends and her feelings. "You should talk to her." I finally said.

"I will." He smiled

The atmosphere changed. We started to laugh about things and got along as we usually do. We were bored and took random photos on my new phone because it was completely empty and recorded videos. And finally, Harry was finished.

"Sorry you had to wait" He said and gave me a hand to stand up.

The three of us left the studio and of course, there were paparazzi outside and we quickly got into Harry's car. He left Niall at the mall, he texted Lucy to meet up, and she agreed, knowing that she can't escape the situation further.

Me and Harry continued to his place.

"Ok, get out." He said when he stopped in front of his house.

"Aren't you coming?" I asked.

"I will, just have to take care of something." He said and smiled and gave me a key. I did as he said, and got in

"Heyy!!" I heard a voice. I was startled, but it was his sister. I was finally going to meet her.

"Hey, you must be Gemma? I'm Jenna." I said and laughed because our names were similar. She did also.

"That's me. Nice to meet you. Where did Harry go?" She asked.

"I don't know, he told me to me in and that he will come after he finishes something." I answered.

It turned out, me and her had a lot in common. At first I was really nervous, but then we laughed and she asked me questions that weren't at all awkward so I answered them. And the likability was going both ways. After an hour, that passed like 5 minutes, Harry came in

"How are my two favorite girls getting along?" He said as he sat next to me, kissing my cheek.

"Harry if you break up with her, I am not your sister anymore" She laughed.

"That much huh?" He smiled happily

"And more" I said and he kissed me again.

"Want some tea?" Gemma offered us.

"Yeah sure" We answered and she went in the kitchen to make it.

"Where did you go?" I asked him.

"Told you, to take care of something." He said and kissed my head.

"You know, that doesn't answer my question" I smiled.

"I told you I was going to do something earlier…and I did it" He smiled.

"You broke up with-" He was nodding at the start of my sentence. I kissed him on his lips and pulled away, but he caught the back of my head and pushed it closer to his and continued the kissing.

"Don't let me interrupt you. By all means, continue" Gemma walked in with our tea. I started laughing and Harry pulled away smiling.

We talked a long while, and Harry sort of got left out, he didn't get the chance to talk to us we just babbled on. But he didn't got up, or leave. He just sat there, holding my hand and listening to our conversation.

After almost 2 hours, my phone rang.

"Excuse me" I said getting my phone and going into the kitchen to answer it. It was Lucy.

"Hey Lu, what's happening?" I answered it.

"Oh my god Jen, I have to speak to you. Like right now!" She was angry

"OK, are you home, do you want me to come over?" I offered concerned.

"No, not right now, but tonight. Just have in mind that I am very angry at you. I have to go" And she hung up. Why was she angry at me?! What the hell did I do?!

I came back in the living room where I found Harry and his sister laughing loudly.

"Hey" I said.

"Well I have to go. I'm gonna leave you love birds alone. I'll see you tonight right?" She said to me.

"Tonight?" I asked confused.

"Yeah. Dinner. You, me and this idiot" She said and smiled.

"Yeah sure" I confirmed. She said goodbye and left.

"Sorry. I forgot to tell you. We are going to dinner with Gemma." He said.

"It's fine. I'm looking forward to it" I said and sat next to him.

He pushed me back, and he hovered over me on the couch.

"Hi" He said when our faces were just inches from touching.

"Hi" I also said before he kissed me. My hands were lost in his curls, slightly pulling them. Every time I did, he smiled and sometimes he groaned. My knees were bend, so he was lying in between them, and I could feel his erection through his jeans.

His right hand travelled all over my sides, reaching my thighs, and sliding them higher.

"Harry" I said, warning him not to go there. But he pretended that he didn't hear me and dived into my neck reaching 'my area'.

"Stop it, come on" I said again, but he didn't listen. I tightened my grip in his hair, but that just gave him the courage the continue, letting out a groan. The kisses on my neck were giving me goose bumps, and the movement of his hand were turning me on. I was finally in to it, when the doorbell rang.

"Someone's at the door" I whispered in his ear.

"I don't care" He whispered in mine.

But the doorbell continued to ring.

"Just open the door" I laughed. He got off me and walked to the door.

"Yes?" He opened. It was Taylor. I saw her from the living room and lied flat on the couch so she doesn't see me.

"Harry can we talk about what you said?!" She said softly.

"No Taylor, I told you everything I needed to say. Goodbye."

"I just need to know the reason! You didn't say anything!" She insisted.

"You want to know the reason? I don't like you like that, and this whole relationship isn't real between us. Stop going out of your way to make it happen. It's not going to happen." He said in annoyance.

"Fine. Bye" She said and left. He closed the door and locked it.

He walked to the living room where I was still lying on the couch.

"Where were we?" He said, getting back into his possession, but I sat up straight. "What?" He asked, rubbing my knee.

"That was a bit harsh, don't you think?" I said to him.

"Why are you vouching for her all of a sudden?" He asked annoyed.

"I'm not. You could've said that in a completely different way" I defended myself.

"Why do you care?" He asked.

"I don't, I'm just saying you could've said that differently and try not to hurt her feelings. You didn't have to be an asshole" His tone was really bugging me.

"Are you serious?" He said in mockery.

"Yes I am. Just because you don't like her, doesn't give you the right to behave like that!" I scold him.

"You're one to talk. You behaved the same when you disliked you sister, or Lexi, or Britney or Chelsea, but I guess that was ok then right?." He stood up.

"You are not seriously comparing them are you? In case you don't remember, they did something to me, something bad. Whereas Taylor, didn't do anything even remotely close." I also stood up.

"She did Jen. She's the reason we had to hide our relationship again, and I had to lie to my fans. That's not bad?!" He started to shout.

"No Harry. You did that! You didn't have to go along with the whole publicity thing. You can't blame her for your mistake!" I raised my tone.

"I can't believe I am hearing this from you. You didn't like her yesterday, and now you are her guardian angel?! Make up your mind!" He still shouted.

"Ok, first of all, stop shouting or I am leaving. Second of all, I still don't like her, but I don't behave like a bitch to her. Did you see me snap in the hospital!? Do you think I was happy that she stayed with you, when I wanted?! You think this is fun for me?! Hiding our relationship like this." I was talking really fast.

"You said you were ok with the whole thing! You could've said that you weren't, and this wouldn't even happen!" He kept on shouting, ignoring everything I said, except for the last two sentences.

"I was supporting you Harry. I do that, sorry for trying to be on your side! And stop yelling at me like it's my fault!" I shouted.

"You didn't have to lie to me about it! You could've just said so!" He continued, completely ignoring my request.

"For god's sake Harry, everything I do is for you! I got fucking kidnapped and tortured for you!" I shouted.

"Why do we have to have a fight in order to tell me how you really feel!?" He shouted even louder.

"Because I don't want to hurt you!" My hands started to shake.

"So you lie to me?! Is that it? Who knows what other lie I've bought!" He threw his hands in the air.

"You wanna hear the truth!?" My voice started to become that weird voice you get right before you cry.

"YES!"

"I remember everything. From the torturing. I have nightmares about it, I feel every scar being made over and over again. I remember everything that crazy bitch said to me, her voice, her face, they haunt me! I see her in every crowd like she's watching me. I lock my windows at night. I can still feel the pain, and I did't scream then, not once. You know why!? Because that would've meant that she won. That I am weak and that she is stronger and I wouldn't give up. And you know why I lied to you?! Because it wouldn't make a difference if you knew that or not. Because I would just hurt you, because you would blame yourself. Because you will think that I blame you for that!" I couldn't stop talking.

"Do you?" He asked.

"Do I what?!" I shouted.

"Blame me. For all that" He said.

"No I don't. But that doesn't matter right? Because I lied to you, and because I am a bad person for doing that and not telling you everything!" I continued to shout.

"Let's just cool off, ok?" He lower his voice, turning his back on me, his hands in his hair.

"Yeah, let's take a break." I said.

"Yeah ok. Go home, I'll call you for tonight ok?" He turned to me to see the tears in my eyes.

"No Harry. A break from us." I said.

"Are..are you serious?" He said in disbelieve, but I could see he was hurt.

I bowed my head confirming his question. He didn't say a word, just walked outside in the backyard, leaving me alone in his living room. I stood there for a moment, but he didn't come back. I took my phone and my school bag, and got out.

I started to walk, and I started to shake. Tears were coming down on my face and my vision was blur.

But what was I suppose to do? He wouldn't stop with the shouting, and forced me to say what I did, just some could be right.

I walked home and unlocked the door. My eyes were dry, I don't think my body could produce any more tears.

When I came in, I went straight for my room and entered my bathroom. I washed my face, and got a bedoxin to calm myself.

It was around 4 and aunt Anna came in my room.

"I'm packing cupcake. We're having dinner as a family tonight. Will you be joining us?" She asked me.

"Yeah. You're leaving tomorrow?" I asked surprised. I almost forgot.

"Yeah, but be free to visit me anytime you want." She said "You will love Rome" She laughed.

"This summer definitely!" I said. She smiled and left my room.

I was on tumblr. but didn't really pay any attention to it because I was still shaking from what happened at Harry's. I didn't know what do to. I didn't want to talk about it. I didn't want to exist right now. Why do things always have to get so complicated?!

Notes

In Too Deep - Sum 41

Have in mind that the story is slowly coming to an end. I still haven't made up my mind whether it will have a happy end or a not-so-happy end : )