Love or Hate?
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i turn from the door ready to run and cry, but when my heels turn to run the door opens and i feel as if i am frozen there, my back facing Harry.
"Caitlin?" He asks, his voice full of surprise. I am sad to hear him use my real name, especially when he knows i only allow people who i care about to call me Catie. He doesn't think i care for him anymore...
I wish i didn't.
I do. I just don't want to.
I turn around, my feet thinking before my mind.
He looks similar to the last time i saw him, but my eyes focus on his. The green orbs consume me and all my thoughts.
"I just came here w-with Louis..." i practically whisper. He looks at his polished black shoes.
"I'm happy to see you came.." he clears his throat, "I was w-"
"Harry!" a girl with light brown hair says, rushing to us in a robe. "I needed to see you before you saw me in the dress, you know the whole bad luck thing." she huffs a fake laugh and looks at me with a warm smile.
"Hi, I'm Isabella." she hugs me, as i was only expecting a hand shake at most.
"I'm Caitlin." i smile. Her smile fades and she swallows hard.
I am confused by her actions.
She turns to Harry and pecks his lips, "See you at the alter" she winks and turns back to me. Before Harry leaves back to his room he gives me another look with empty eyes.
Isabella sighs and smiles at me.
"I need to talk to you." she drags me into a empty room and pushes me into a seat.
What happened to the whole sweet act?!
"Listen. I know all about you and Harry. He told me about how you hurt him, he loved you blah blah blah.." she says rolling her wrist in annoyance to her words of "Blah."
"You don't have to worry, that was a long time ago-"
"No, you see Harry has high expectation since he dated you. He was hard enough for me to break down to accept me as his, and i am NOT letting you ruin this. This is MY wedding with HIM. All you are going to do is smile and not say a word to Harry." she threatens.
Her gray eyes full of hate.
Does Harry know what he is marrying into?
"He is marrying you, I am no longer a threat-"
"You'd think so." she huffs a laugh.
"Listen," i say getting up from the chair and resting one hand on her shoulder for reassurance, "I don't think you should worry about me. Harry proposed to you, I'm not in this, it's just you and Harry."
She smiles and to my surprise, hugs me, despite her hateful words.
"Thanks."
I walk to the door and stop as i open it, looking back at her with words i though would comfort her, "I hope you and Harry have a happy life. Forever."
I smile and close the door finding Louis as he sits me down in the back row of the outdoor wedding. He goes to help Harry and the others get ready.
Isabella's pov
"I hope you and Harry have a happy life. Forever."
The last word trickled in my head many times.
Forever.
Could i handle forever?
*********Wedding starting***********
Caitlin's pov
I look down at my hands in my lap as tears form, seeing Harry at the top of the alter waiting for another woman...
I look up at Louis next to him and he give me a smile.
I wish i hadn't come, i wish even more i hadn't promised to stay.
The music starts and i look back, thinking I'd see the bride, instead nothing. No one.
I get up, unnoticed, and search the halls, i walk into her dressing room and see a note on the white dress.
it read:
Dear Harry,
I am so sorry, but i can't handle forever.
I am not one to handle forever.
-love Isabella
I want to tear the note up and never show Harry, knowing how much this would crush him.
I was going to throw it away, when i turn i see Harry at the door way.
He rips the note from my hands and after his eyes scan it it falls to the ground and he collapses. I walk slowly and sit next to him, rubbing his back.
"Harry I-" He smashes his lips to mine.
"Fuck her. I still love you."
I am literally in mental shock.
What. the. hell. just. happened.
"I love you." the words slip from my mouth and feel as sweet as honey. It's true i do and never stopped. I thought of him everyday. Every second. I wanted him back.
"Maybe in a few years you could be the one who actually walks down the aisle to me.." he whispers.
He just got left at the alter and is saying he loved me.
This all felt so wrong. So right. I felt the hate. But i know there's always going to be love around him.
"Caitlin?" He asks, his voice full of surprise. I am sad to hear him use my real name, especially when he knows i only allow people who i care about to call me Catie. He doesn't think i care for him anymore...
I wish i didn't.
I do. I just don't want to.
I turn around, my feet thinking before my mind.
He looks similar to the last time i saw him, but my eyes focus on his. The green orbs consume me and all my thoughts.
"I just came here w-with Louis..." i practically whisper. He looks at his polished black shoes.
"I'm happy to see you came.." he clears his throat, "I was w-"
"Harry!" a girl with light brown hair says, rushing to us in a robe. "I needed to see you before you saw me in the dress, you know the whole bad luck thing." she huffs a fake laugh and looks at me with a warm smile.
"Hi, I'm Isabella." she hugs me, as i was only expecting a hand shake at most.
"I'm Caitlin." i smile. Her smile fades and she swallows hard.
I am confused by her actions.
She turns to Harry and pecks his lips, "See you at the alter" she winks and turns back to me. Before Harry leaves back to his room he gives me another look with empty eyes.
Isabella sighs and smiles at me.
"I need to talk to you." she drags me into a empty room and pushes me into a seat.
What happened to the whole sweet act?!
"Listen. I know all about you and Harry. He told me about how you hurt him, he loved you blah blah blah.." she says rolling her wrist in annoyance to her words of "Blah."
"You don't have to worry, that was a long time ago-"
"No, you see Harry has high expectation since he dated you. He was hard enough for me to break down to accept me as his, and i am NOT letting you ruin this. This is MY wedding with HIM. All you are going to do is smile and not say a word to Harry." she threatens.
Her gray eyes full of hate.
Does Harry know what he is marrying into?
"He is marrying you, I am no longer a threat-"
"You'd think so." she huffs a laugh.
"Listen," i say getting up from the chair and resting one hand on her shoulder for reassurance, "I don't think you should worry about me. Harry proposed to you, I'm not in this, it's just you and Harry."
She smiles and to my surprise, hugs me, despite her hateful words.
"Thanks."
I walk to the door and stop as i open it, looking back at her with words i though would comfort her, "I hope you and Harry have a happy life. Forever."
I smile and close the door finding Louis as he sits me down in the back row of the outdoor wedding. He goes to help Harry and the others get ready.
Isabella's pov
"I hope you and Harry have a happy life. Forever."
The last word trickled in my head many times.
Forever.
Could i handle forever?
*********Wedding starting***********
Caitlin's pov
I look down at my hands in my lap as tears form, seeing Harry at the top of the alter waiting for another woman...
I look up at Louis next to him and he give me a smile.
I wish i hadn't come, i wish even more i hadn't promised to stay.
The music starts and i look back, thinking I'd see the bride, instead nothing. No one.
I get up, unnoticed, and search the halls, i walk into her dressing room and see a note on the white dress.
it read:
Dear Harry,
I am so sorry, but i can't handle forever.
I am not one to handle forever.
-love Isabella
I want to tear the note up and never show Harry, knowing how much this would crush him.
I was going to throw it away, when i turn i see Harry at the door way.
He rips the note from my hands and after his eyes scan it it falls to the ground and he collapses. I walk slowly and sit next to him, rubbing his back.
"Harry I-" He smashes his lips to mine.
"Fuck her. I still love you."
I am literally in mental shock.
What. the. hell. just. happened.
"I love you." the words slip from my mouth and feel as sweet as honey. It's true i do and never stopped. I thought of him everyday. Every second. I wanted him back.
"Maybe in a few years you could be the one who actually walks down the aisle to me.." he whispers.
He just got left at the alter and is saying he loved me.
This all felt so wrong. So right. I felt the hate. But i know there's always going to be love around him.
What?
10/11/13