Bully
My everything
I ran away. Scared, confused, upset, happy. I didn't know what to do but run. I ran all the way home. Once i got home i had already cried until all of makeup was off. I stopped at my door way and grabbed some pebbles. I went up into my room. I started off throwing them at Liam's window. He saw me and went back to what he was doing. Niall and Harry did the same. I didn't know what to do but cry. So, i got into the shower with my blade. We ran out of hot water so I calmed my crying and went into my room. Once i started to cry about that. I cried about everything else. I had my music on high with out earphones so no one could hear me. I was crying into the stuffed animal Niall won me. Having flashbacks about every good moment me and my friends had.
I was so busy crying and thinking i hadn't realized people came into my room. Someone started to rub my back. I just figured it was my mom. So I didn't look up. Two more people got on my bed and I heard someone sit on my chair. I looked up confused. It was hard to make out who they were because my vision was blurred. I just turned and cried into my pillow again. They were trying to talk to me when i felt someone grab my wrist and turn it over. The hand felt familiar. It was Louis. " Did I do this to you" now i knew it was Louis. I didn't answer right away. I snapped my wrist away from him, causing his hand to run over the fresh cuts. I winced and lifted my head.
" Yes." I whispered
" I'm- I'm so sorry"
"Your're sorry? YOUR'RE SORRY?!" I started to scream. He snapped back. Looking shocked. I almost pounced on him but Harry and Niall grabbed me and held me back. " You pushed me around everyday because I hung out with three boys! YOU WERE THE ONLY ONE MADE ME SMILE FROM NOT ONLY LAUGHING BUT FROM BEING HAPPY!" I took a breath trying to calm down my crying and temper " You were my everything" He looked shocked.
" I- I didn't know" He was about to cry.
" Of coarse you didn't because you didn't really care" I broke down and ball again. Now Zayn was in my room. Even he looked shocked. I wasn't like this. I was usually calm, collected.
I was so busy crying and thinking i hadn't realized people came into my room. Someone started to rub my back. I just figured it was my mom. So I didn't look up. Two more people got on my bed and I heard someone sit on my chair. I looked up confused. It was hard to make out who they were because my vision was blurred. I just turned and cried into my pillow again. They were trying to talk to me when i felt someone grab my wrist and turn it over. The hand felt familiar. It was Louis. " Did I do this to you" now i knew it was Louis. I didn't answer right away. I snapped my wrist away from him, causing his hand to run over the fresh cuts. I winced and lifted my head.
" Yes." I whispered
" I'm- I'm so sorry"
"Your're sorry? YOUR'RE SORRY?!" I started to scream. He snapped back. Looking shocked. I almost pounced on him but Harry and Niall grabbed me and held me back. " You pushed me around everyday because I hung out with three boys! YOU WERE THE ONLY ONE MADE ME SMILE FROM NOT ONLY LAUGHING BUT FROM BEING HAPPY!" I took a breath trying to calm down my crying and temper " You were my everything" He looked shocked.
" I- I didn't know" He was about to cry.
" Of coarse you didn't because you didn't really care" I broke down and ball again. Now Zayn was in my room. Even he looked shocked. I wasn't like this. I was usually calm, collected.
9/11/13