I was laid on his bed, my head turned to face in the window, surrounded by his sent coming from the t-shirt I was wearing. Nothing has ever comforted me so much, nothing, not even my dad’s embrace. I sighed. I have this thing, this condition. When I’m truthfully and deeply happy, I sigh a lot.
I looked at the window and smiled. I could see the stars from here, I really could see their shine. The moon had the pearly shine and the round shape of a real pearl, shiny and worthy of being written a poem for, or even a song.
Niall was inside the bathroom, under the shower. I could tell that because of the noise the water made against the ground of the bathroom. The chorus of Beautiful Day by Michael Bublé was being free styles by him, in the celestial beautiful voice he had. Only hearing him was making me smile widely against the pill where my head was resting against.
My heart hasn’t stopped pounding for a while now and I knew it was because I was overwhelmed. Overwhelmed about what just happened. I showed almost my entire body to one guy, one guy I love very, very much. Still, it goes against my deepest beliefs. I always had this idea in my mind, that my body was like a gift. I should only unwrap it when I was married to someone I loved and held so deeply it would make me question my own safety just to keep his. Yeah, say that I live in a fairy tale, but I do actually believe in true love and its power over people. It changes us but we have to choose if it’s for the best or for the worst.
I personally think that love always changes you o the best. It brings out the best in you, there’s always a colorful orb around you, like your own bubble and there’s nothing on earth that can burst the bubble.
Suddenly I found myself without any words to describe love and it hits me, it’s an indescribable feeling. It’s awful at first. I remember how awful I felt. My heart would be beating so fast I would think I was dizzy, thanks to the lack of functioning of my lungs I was constantly gasping, unconsciously trying to make them work again, I would feel butterflies so strong in my stomach I would think I was hungry, only to look at food and strangely not being as hungry as I thought I was, because I’m always hungry. I remember that my brain turned black so many times that I actually stopped, thinking about nothing, just looking at him and not knowing what to do, think or say when he was so close. Yes, love is discussing at first, especially the first time where you don’t know what’s normal or not.
The water in the bathroom ceased while I was so deep in my thoughts, but the singing didn’t stop thankfully. Somehow, his voice calms me down, making me go deeper in my thoughts. The sky smiled at me with all his shine, the stars I loved so much and I rarely see. They make me dream somehow and I just love it so much I can’t even explain.
I frowned, speechless. This doesn’t happen very often and I don’t usually trip on words. So why is this happening right now! I would say that the happiness is so huge that it made me lose my words, and it’s so freaking confusing that I don’t know what to say.
Suddenly, two arms surrounded my body, pulling me closer to his. My breathing stopped for a tiny moment, afraid, but I quickly melted against his arms, landing my hands on top of his that were around my waist. I could feel his naked back against the thin fabric of the dark blue shirt, his legs intertwined with mine, warmth emanating from his body. How I love the warmth that the shower gives you!
And the smell. Oh, he smells so good. I turned around. He only gave me enough space so I could move, almost worried I would run away from him. I didn’t want to, I wanted to stay in his arms, I just wanted to smell him better. Once turned, I sunk my head in Niall’s neck, smelling the exposed skin. All of his body vibrated with the touch of my cold nose on his pale warm skin.
“You smell good!” I whispered against his neck and I felt him sighting, just like I have done. I smiled “I’m glad I didn’t try to forget you!” I said and he shivered again.
I knew I screwed up. He immediately went stiff and the warmth of his body seemed to have been drained. I shook my head negatively in his neck curb and pulled away. I looked at hi, his face pale somehow, his eyes ran out of sparkle and his lips were pressed in a thin line.
“Why didn’t you?” So that’s what’s bothering him.
He was probably thinking that I would have forgotten about him if I tried. He’s so silly, and he’s too easy to love too. I wander why he doesn’t see that like I do, and like I’m sure all of his fans do too. I sighed, taking a look at the mattress between us and I quickly moved, filling it, getting even more close to him. My hands roamed to his blond hairs and I started playing with them.
“Because, trying to forget someone you love is like trying to forget who you are!” I said in a whisper, softly speaking, like I was telling a secret only he could hear “You’re the only person I couldn’t let go of, and I still can’t!” I smiled
“I still think I deserve a kick in the balls for what I’ve done to you!” He sighed again. I shook my head negatively, seeing him looking at the ground. I put my index under his chin, slowly making him look up.
His eyes found mine, and I could tell he was regretted what he had done! They were sparkling now, but a sparkle that I could tell it wasn’t s strong, not strong enough to handle one mean word. I imagined him as a child. How many times has he wore this smile before he became who he was? I don’t want to see it ever again.
“You made a mistake, everybody does. It’s human! It’s okay to make mistakes sometimes!” I smiled sweetly, looking at him directly. Somehow, I liked to see how his eyes gave his feeling away “I just hope you don’t think of other people when I’m not around!” I sighed, faking sadness and he smiled sweetly, looking at the mattress, his cheeks slightly red.
“Ever since I met you, no one else is worth thinking about!” He said, making me blush heavily “Don’t blush!” He caressed my cheek and I smiled. He sighed, smiling next, looking at my smile “They told me that, in order to make you fall in love with me, I had to make you laugh, but it only made me fall even more by you!” I looked down, him still cupping my cheek “If every word I say would make you smile, I would talk forever!” He put some hairs of mine behind my ear and made me look up, his both hands holding my head “Because your smile is gorgeous, just like you!” His nose brushed mine in an Eskimo kiss, closing his eyes and smiling widely, like a child. I melted.
“You’re so adorable!” I said, giggling and he opened his eyes to look at me. He put one hand behind his head, scratching it awkwardly. I could tell he wasn’t told that frequently “You are!” I said, climbing in his body and sitting with my legs crossed over him. He smiled and laid back in the pillow, looking at me.
“What do you wanna do?” He asked and I instantly looked outside. He followed my look and opened a smile. I bit my lip, wishing he would go with me because really wanted to do it and I wanted him to come with me “Let’s go!” He said, jumping off of bed with me on his lap, my legs around his waist. I got scared and held to his head for my life, his head between my breasts. He looked maliciously at me and I snorted.
“Pervert!” His laugh was so young and careless that I couldn’t stop myself from smiling at him “Put me on the floor!” I faked bossed him, and he did, showing me his palms in self defense.
“Alright, alright! You’re on the ground! Now, I’m gonna take you to see the stars!” He smiled and grabbed my hand, pulling me to the balcony.
I followed him free willed. He opened the window of the balcony and I passed through. His balcony was similar to mine. There were some puffs and a handrail made out of cherry wood. I leaned in and supported my elbows in the handrail, my hands in my cheeks. I sighed loudly and dreamt wide awake.
The sky was dark blue, but the moon shined widely and the stars were so perfect I think I would faint just for seeing them. I wish I could be up there, but deep down, I know it’s here I belong. Here on earth, we’re all we need to be, all that’s programmed for us, for the people we are destined to be with, the people we love, all of them are in here and are destined to love you unconditionally and truthfully. Sometimes you might not see it, but they are there and, sometimes they might not be around all the time, but you know they are always there for you and that’s what makes them true. Danny often sais that I’m too dreamful and that would cause me pain someday, but I won’t change because of that. I think changing is for weirdoes, for people who don’t like themselves and I like who I am so I won’t change. Two hands wrapped around my waist and I shivered.
“You’re a star!”He sadly said “And I’m darkness!” I leaned back to my original position and sighed too. I have no idea why he does this to himself!
“Stars can’t shine without darkness!” I said and he supported his chin on my shoulder, looking up to the stars too “Plus, if I was just a star, I would be one in a million of them!” I said pointing to the stars in general with one hand while the other was on top of the knot of fingers he had created on front of my belly button
“You aren’t just a star to me, you’re my whole universe!” I shivered when I felt him kissing my neck and quickly turned to look at him.
I cupped his cheeks, looking deeply at him and smiling shyly. He put his hands over my own, closing his eyes, enjoying this moment. I took time to appreciate every single detail on his face before I spoke. The soft, slightly wet hairs, the pale cheeks that my hands were now covering, the pink lips calmingly resting one over each other, the nose that was the only thing unveiling if he really was breathing or not.
“You’re my everything then!” I said and he opened his eyes to look directly at me, his eyes sparkling and looking at mine, moving to the right and to the left in small movements shifting in my own eyes repeatedly, confused and lost, not waiting for this at all “My piece of paradise!” I said, joining our foreheads “Cause my life was so hard this past week, I felt like I was on a living hell, but then you came and peace came with you. I never felt more relieved in my entire life than when I saw you running to me, never!” I said and I looked directly at him “Please don’t ever think you’re different than me, please don’t ever bring yourself down! We’re the same, our bodies might be two, but this…” I put one hand over his chest, feeling the rhythm of his heart accelerated “This is what makes us one!” I said and I could tell by his eyes that he was still confused “What we feel makes us one and I never want us to tear apart!” I confessed and he gave me a soft smile before he held my hand, kissing it slowly and tenderly.
“I don’t want us to tear apart nether!” He said and I shot him a smile “Now, let’s go inside before you get a cold!”
“No!” I made a puppy face “I want to look at the stars more!” He smiled
“Let me hug you then!” I turned around to face the stars again and he wrapped his hands around my waist, his body glued on mine.
We kept watching the starts for s bit while, just looking at their shine, not saying a word, until I felt Niall dozing off in my shoulder, waking up the next second. I turned and kissed his lips, making him wake up.
“Humm! That’s a good way of waking up!” He mumbled, his eyes slightly swollen from constantly dozing off. He blinked and I smiled sweetly at him
“Let’s put you to sleep!” I said and he grabbed my hand, pulling me inside.
He stumbled inside the room, the bed already open thanks to me. He pulled me inside and covered me and himself up. I felt cozy when he hugged me and I got to one conclusion, in his arms is my favorite place in the world. Not Paris, or Manhattan, Madrid or Rome, here, with him.
I snorted, noticing I couldn’t sleep here thanks to my parents. Niall opened one eye, still tired. I smiled sweetly at him and kissed the tip of his nose, getting rid of his hand and grabbing my phone. I walked towards his window and dialed Danny’s number. It beeped once, twice and when the third beep was heard, she answered right away.
“Hello?” She yelled. Clearly, the party wasn’t over for her.
“Het Danny, it’s Johanna!” I said
“Yeah, I know! Duh!”I giggled “So, tell me, what happened?” She said and the loud sounds behind her got less loud.
“Um, two letter DH!”
“DRY HUMPING?!” Jesus, she’s quick
Niall herd her yelling and laughed tiredly, turning in bed, his nose buried in the cotton white pillow, half of his body covered with the same color sheets. I smiled sweetly. I could get used to this! He looks like an angel.
“TELL ME! DETAILED!” She yelled again, pulling back my attention
“Later okay? I just need you to tell my parents I’m gonna sleep with you!” I asked
“Okay, enjoy the rest of your night love!” She said
“You too, ad don’t drink too much, I won’t be awake to go rescue you like the other times!” I said and I heard her laugh
“Okay love, bye!”
“Bye!” I hanged up and walked towards Niall, lying on top of him. He mumbled in response and I smiled, planting a kiss on his back.
“Are you going to stay here?” He mumbled and I nodded, my nose making up and down movements in his back so he could understand my answer “Good!” Out of the blue, he grabbed me and threw me by his side on the bed. I laughed and he wrapped a hand around my waist, pulling me closer “Sweet dreams princess!” He said and I turned, burring my nose in his neck curb
“All of my dreams came true!” I said, closing my eyes and dozing off.
**
I woke up with an unwanted pressure in my belly. I blinked repeatedly, looking up to the white ceiling. My lashes were slightly heavy and I was uncomfortable thanks to the weight in my lower belly. I turned my eyes to the place where my belly was hurting and saw a huge pale leg covering it.
I had to cover up my mouth not to laugh. It’s like he was afraid I was going to flee or something. I bit my index hard, trying to hold on to the laugh until he moved. Now his hand was tightening my waist.
I turned to face him, and I instantly knew something wasn’t right. His forehead was soaked in sweat, making his blond hairs fall in front of his forehead, his eyelids pressed against each other like he was in pain, and the tight in my waist didn’t seem to cease any soon. I turned my body around, his leg on my hip now. I hopped the movement made him wake up but it didn’t.
“Don’t! No, stay! Please!” He mumbled and looked at him, my eyes wide open “No, I love you! Little princess please!” I swallowed. Damn it, he’s dreaming about me leaving him that’s why the tightening in my waist and the leg over me.
“Niall!” I called low pitched, cleaning his forehead but he didn’t woke up “Niall!” I called again, kissing his forehead sweetly, but he was still in his nightmare “That’s enough!” I said, shaking him. I was getting worried he might not wake up.
“Ah!”He yelled, opening his eyes and facing me. I smiled sweetly, seeing he was deeply concerned
“I’m here!” I said in the minute he hugged me so tightly I thought my head was going to pop out of my shoulders. “I’m here!” I assured him again when he looked in my eyes
“Thank you!” He said and hugged me again, his chin in my shoulder. I frowned
“For what?” I asked
“For staying when you had every reason to leave!” He said and I sighted
“I won’t be able to leave behind a part of me Niall, never!” I said “I won’t be able to leave you, never!” I pulled back, looking deeply into his eyes. He smiled weakly and clashed our lips quickly.
He smooched me once, twice, three times and I smiled vaguely with his affect towards me. He hugged me again.
“Please, promise you won’t ever leave… because I’m lost without you!” He said
“And I without you!” I said and he smiled.
I took a quick look at the watch. Wow, we slept till one in the afternoon. This is what Christmas breaks do to people. I grabbed Niall’s hand and pulled us both out of bed. I opened his wardrobe where I had put all my clothes before and I took them off, starting to get dressed.
“What are you doing?” He asked, looking weirdly at me
“We’re going to McDonald’s!” He frowned “A double cheeseburger always solves everything, plus it turns your day better!”
“But, we’ll be seen!” He said and I shrugged
“Better do it anyways!” He smiled widely, grabbing a pair of large denim jeans, a white t-shirt and a black leather jacket. He also grabbed a big green windbreaker and put it over me when I was finished dressing up. It hit the middle of my thighs where the shorts didn’t cover up. I slipped my hands inside of it, thankfully giving him a kiss in the cheek and he held my hand, pulling me outside his house ad into his car.
Okay, so this is going to be hard. Sure, McDonald’s is always a very, very good thing, but in front of multiple people who will probably tell the press I’m with Niall… Suddenly, McDonald’s seemed unappealing. I never thought I was ever going to say that in my life, but I might get along with it anyways since I suggested it. Plus, people saw us together before and I had no problem, so why bother now?
When I noticed we were outside of McDonald’s already. Outside, where the people can’t see us, the sky is covered with a thin layer of grayish clouds. That didn’t stop the kids to run around the park, their mothers worried something might happen to them. I took a deep breath and Niall opened my door. I got out of the car and he closed the door, slipping a hand around my shoulders.
“I always wanted to make the world know you’re mine!” I blushed and he kissed my cheek softly.
I noticed a few glares from the mothers outside towards us, whispering. I rolled my eyes to them. Seriously, what’s the problem that he has tattoos? GET OVER IT!
The automatic doors opened and me and Niall got in. Perfect! This is full of teens and all of them are looking at us. I immediately blushed, even more than I was before and Niall smiled when I hid my headin his chest.
“You wanna turn around?” He asked
“No, just keep walking like everything’s normal and I don’t have a full McDonald’s looking at me!” I giggled nervously
“Please don’t be nervous! It’s going to be fine!” He said and I gave him a nod, biting my lips nervously.
He held my hand and pulled me towards the counter that was full of people. We looked up to the menus to choose one. I was in heaven. Just from looking at the images I’m immediately more relaxed. I gave a loud sigh and Niall looked at me.
“Can I be cheesy?” He asked and I frowned, nodding “If you were a burger at McDonald’s you would be a McGorgeous!” I laughed out loud, drawing everyone’s attention.
The guy behind the counter smiled sweetly at me, hearing what Niall had said and I blushed, again. I think I must spend more time blushing than I actually expected to. Niall pulled me more close to the counter and asked me what I wanted. After we said what we wanted and the order came, we sat in a table in the corner.
I took a bite in my burger, moaning out of pleasure. Niall smiled at me.
“I heard that sound somewhere else! Where was it? Oh yes, yesterday, in my room, laid in my bed while…” I cut him off by grabbing a bit of ketchup and put it in his shirt “Johanna!” He grumbled, faking annoyance “You know, I should do the same!” He said, grabbing ketchup with his finger
“No! Don’t! Niall don’t!” He leaned towards me “Bad boy! Niall…” He put the ketchup all over my face and I couldn’t stop laughing. This is what I like about us, playful relationship!
My lips were full of ketchup, my left cheek too and so was my left jaw. While I was flouncing to keep him from getting me dirty, he grabbed my arm and pulled me to him, and, because he had more strength and me, the only method I had to run away from it was to move my face. Now, I look like the McDonald’s clown. I grabbed more ketchup and put it on Niall’s nose, coloring it all without his consent of course. But I managed to do it. He rubbed his nose in my top and I let out a low pitched scream out of happiness and annoyance at the same time. But I was too busy with laughing to even get mad. I rubbed my cheek on his, making him get dirty again and he smiled happily, kissing my lips quickly and taking half of the ketchup with him, licking his lips in front of me.
I rolled my eyes and smiled happily. Then it hit me, he just kissed me in public. Oh no, there’s going to be a problem. It became so natural the fact that he kisses me that I don’t even notice it, except for the constant butterflies in my stomach or my racing heart. I felt all the blood draining from my face. Niall widened his eyes
“What’s wrong? Are you feeling okay?” He asked
“You just kissed me in public!” I said and he nodded
“Weren’t we supposed to make it official or something?” He asked, frowning
“Yes, but…” He cut me off
“Let it be Princess, we don’t need to hide from nobody! I’m not weak anymore!” I gave him a nod.
It’s not him I’m worried about. It’s me. What if I’m not strong enough to take all the gossip and I leave him?
No, stop thinking about that Johanna, you won’t leave him. You know why? Because you love him It doesn’t matter if your mom won’t approve, you love him and that’s what matters! You love him, remember that!

Notes

Hope you guys like it. Sorry for taking more time to update! School and stuff! Anyways, enjoy!
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