Meant to be

Harry and i were laying in his bed and i took out my yellow notebook were i wrote the highlights of the day. I was searching for a pen or something to write, i left the room and Harry was reading my stuff but i didnt care I knew I could trust him anything. Plus i write either in Spanish or Spanglish.
"Got one" i said and Harry was looking at me with that sparkle in his eyes.
Harry had the notebook at the back part, where i write my quotes or how i feel.
"I love this one" he said pointing the bottom of the page.
Why do we have emotions? I honestly dont get it, an emotion changed us a day and another emotion changed us a whole life.
I smiled at him and held his hand. We were reading some stuff and when Harry wasnt looking I turned the page and wrote...
May 2, 2013
Im in Belgium and going to Amsterdam.
'And when I shall die, take him and cut him up in little stars, and he will make the face of heaven so fine that all the world will fall in love with night and pay no worship to the garish sun.-Juliet'
That was my favourite Romeo and Juliet quote, i think being with Harry and the fact of me being his girlfriend made me even more cheesy every day.
It was already 7:00 pm, Harry was sleeping and i crossed my legs and sat next to his beautiful head holding my notebook.
"I wish i could draw you." i whispered. "But even if i draw you perfectly i cant express the love i feel for you, i cant express every detail you make me feel or your touch. I just... cant believe you are here and laying next to me." I sang the few words and giggle a bit.
I cuddled next to him and he kissed me on the cheek.
"Im just the underdog who finally got the girl." Harry shuggred and i couldnt stop laughing, this was so Harry.
"Yeeeeh, sure." i chuckled and Harry kissed my forhead.
"Im going to get changed, this is going to be a long trip." i said and headed to the bathroom.
"Not thaaaat long." Harry said smiling.
I changed to some comfy pijamas shorts and a black tanktop, i put my hair in a bun and ran to Harry's arm.
"Harry im freeezzzinng" i said hugging him tight.
"You want to turn the AC off?" he said putting my hair on the back of my ears.
"Nope." i shooked my head and he giggled a bit.
We were cuddling without speaking and i felt an awkward silence, it felt strange because that never had happened before.
"What are you thinking babe?" i asked Harry and he wasnt looking at me.
"I talked to Luke the other day about you know.. us" Harry muttered a bit. "And he told me that..."
I started to freak out, what the fuck was happening.
"Babe, that was days ago you-" i looked at him but he cut me off.
"Im not breaking your heart okay Samie? You have no idea how much i like you- you erm complete me." he said and i felt my eyes getting all watery.
"Aw baby." I held his face with my hands and kissed him slowly. "And I know you arent, I trust you."
Harry had a huge grin on his face, his cutes dimples filled my eyes with joy. He kissed me and held my waist tight, the kiss was getting faster and faster, I could feel every single touch, every single kiss was different.
His lips brushed my cheeks and he continued kissing my neck making me smile a bit. I ran my fingers through his hair and he was still kissing my neck. Harry kissed me again and we started to make out, my arms wrapping around his neck and him putting his hands on my hips. I ran my hands up and down his shirt covered chest. He tugged on the bottom of my t-shirt, pulling it up over my head. I did the same with his and threw it aside with mine. He started kissing me again, reaching behind me and unclasping my bra. Thank god this night i was wearing matching underwear.
He rubbed my boobs and I let out a sigh of pleasure, my fingers running through his hair. He started to untie the drawstring into my shorts, stopping to look up at me for permission. I lifted my hips up and he pulled them down my legs. I did the same with his sweatpants and noticed the huge bulge in his boxers. I reached over and started rubbing it, a quiet moan escaping out of Harry’s mouth.
i made harry moan wtffff
“H-Harry?” I said, running my fingers through his hair again and looking at him in the eyes.
“Yes, babe?” He said, smiling at me.
“I think, um, that, um, I want to go to the next level.” I said. He furrowed his brows at me, not convinced at all. Why would i say next level, ugh.
“Please don’t do this cause you think I’ll leave you if you don’t. I would never try to pressure you into something like that.” he said with a cute smile, aw he was perfect.
"I need you." i said grabbing his hand
“Then, at least let me please you some more before we do it.” He said. I nodded and he moved back down between my legs, continuing what he was doing before. This time he went a little faster, making sure to touch every inch of me. He put two fingers in me this time, only making me hurt a little bit.
“Babe please, tell me to stop if you need me to.” He said, placing himself at my entrance. I nodded and he pushed into me a little. It didn’t seem so bad at first, until he pushed farther in and I could feel the pain coming on hard. I closed my eyes and tried to focus, tears spilling out of my eyes.
He moved it out slowly, then pushed it back in just as slow. The pain still stayed, but I just looked up at Harry and tried to focus on him more then the pain.After what seemed like forever, the pain started going away a little. I don’t think I could call what I felt now pleasure, but I knew one thing, the pain was slowly going away. “Oh, babe. You feel so good. I don’t know how much longer I can last.” Harry said, still going slowly.
He looked me in the eyes again and leaned down to kiss me. I wrapped my arms around his back and he made a grunting noise into my lips, letting me know that he was cumming. He pulled out and got up, throwing the condom away. He came back into the bed and pulled me into his arms, i slowly looked at his grogeous green eyes and then back to his bare chest and there it was 'and she has the brightest eyes.'
I kissed him for the last time and he smiled.
"Thank you for letting me being your first."
"I love you." i said and he kissed my forhead.
"And i love you even more."
We were laying there and i was lost again in my world of thoughts, im not a virgin anymore. I turned to see the clock and it was only 8:30 i could sleep right now, should i tell Sophie or?
I searched for my underwear and grabbed Harry's shirt.
"Going somewhere?" Harry smiled at me.
"You should sleep babe, you have a really hard job dont you?" i told him as if he was my baby.
"I could stay awake just to hear you breathing." He said looking at me and i for some reason i knew he mean it, i could tell by his eyes he was telling the truth.
"I love aerosmith too babe." I giggled and he kissed my hand. "Now sleep."
~
I knocked the front door and i didnt even knew who’s room was it but i didnt care. Nobody would open this damn door or?
I oponed the door slowly and saw Niall and Sophia making out.
“Hello?” i said and giggled a bit.
“Samantha how are you?” Niall pulled out of the kiss.
“Oh yes Luly?” Soph said grabbing her phone. “I wanted to tell you that Samie isnt a virgin anymore.” She faked my mom’s voice.
“OH MY GOD.”
Niall started playing ‘like a virgin’ by madona and i could feel my cheeks getting hotter and hotter.
“What?” i faked curiosity.
“We heard you guys.” Niall said wiggling his eyebrows.
“Shut up.” I smiled.
“Awww cant belive this girl.” Sophia hugged me. “Now go away, Niall and i are busy.”
“Stay safe you idiots.” I said smiling.
“You too.” Niall said and Sophia laughed.
I leave the room and started walking to the leaving room. I spotted Liam and Louis talking about something and watching the news or something.
“Guys?” i had to interrupt them.
“Ohh you guys are loud huh?” Lou said and this time i blushed.
“Shh Lou.” Liam tried to be polite as always.
“Where’s Zayn?” I smiled
“To the Left, to the Left.” Lou sang and i giggled a bit.
I started walking and i was feeling kind of deezy because of the bus, but then i finally arrived to Zayn’s room.
The door was quite open so i just came in and smiling. Zayn was reading something on his phone and he was quite concentrated.
“Oh hi Samie.” Zayn said looking at me with a smile.
“Hi “ I sat next to him and he locked his phone.
“What were you doing?” I said with a cheeky smile.
“Reading some tumblr posts.” Zayn smiled. “Those make me smile everyday.”
AWWW HE WAS SO ADORABLE.
“Aww that’s cute.” I said grabbing his phone.
“Yep, read this one.” He said and unlocked the phone.
I held the phone and it wasn’t even tumbr it was twitter, it was my twitter!
“bUT WHO DOESN’T LOVE ZAYN SRSLY?”
“I CANT STOP LOVING ZAYN!”
“ZAYN WHY SO PERF?”
“zayn its just so adorable I mean, look at his eYES AND THE WAY HE IS ALWAYS BEING SEXY I CANTTT.”
I couldn’t stop blushing , oh my god.
“Shut up.” I said and he was giggling a bit.
“Come here babe” he said and I hugged him.
“Oh my goddd im hugging Zayn Malik.” I faked well actually just say what I was thinking.
“Gahhhh” Zayn said and he couldn’t stop laughing.
We continued laughing at some other post and he even had saved a fanfiction. I expected this from Liam but from Zayn fucking mALIK NA AH .

Notes

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