I needed to see Liam. After telling Harry Liams childhood-story, I suddenly just got the urge to confront him, and to push him into telling the other boys. Because no matter how much he would fight it, his horrible past would always be there, and would always be a part of him. He can't hide, I thought. And he can't hide it from his best friends, either. I knew that I had already betrayed his trust by telling Harry, but it was now or never.
I wasn't the kind of person who would force people into something, but now, when I felt the obligation to actually be that person, I couldn't waste any time. So since I didn't have his phone number, I needed to find him on my own. But it didn't take long until I spotted him, his pink shirt was lightning up the whole cafeteria.

"Liam, we need to talk."

He turned around, and I saw directly a sandwich in his hands. He chewed on a few bites before he could answer.

"That doesn't sound very good." He said.

"It never does." I smiled.

No, don't do that, Kath! I thought to myself. If I smiled, giggled or blushed, or would just be me for one second, he wouldn't take me seriously. I needed to show my concerned face in this.

"Okay, where do you wanna talk?" He asked.

"Let's go over there." I said and pointed at an pretty empty spot.

On our way over there, Liam ate up his sandwich, and swiftly wiped his mouth.

"So.. what's up?" He asked with his hands in his pockets.

I felt that this wouldn't be easy. I basically needed to convince him, if not force him, to blurt out his whole life, that he has been keeping a secret for all these years. It definitely wouldn't be easy.

"I.. I did something.." I started, as I looked down on the floor.

My worst fear now, was to meet his eyes.

"Something..?" Liam asked.

"Yeah.. Something, bad.. I wasn't.. suppose to do it.."

"Hey, babe. Tell me." He said after a step towards me.

"I.. I told Harry.."

"Told him.. what?" Liam said with furrowed eyebrows.

I realized that I wouldn't get it out of me if I held this slow pace. It was time to confess.

"I told him about your childhood, what you told me in the library." I said.

Liam instantly backed a few steps back. Out of his wide open mouth came nothing, and his eyes flickered around in the room out in shock. He was speechless for a long time. I could see that he was mad, really mad, but I also think that he didn't wanna scream at me.
Suddenly, he let his arms lay by his sides, and he looked at me with a very long, harsh gaze. I couldn't help but wonder, if he was more disappointed at me than mad. After his hypnotizing gaze, I felt kind of disappointed at myself too.

"How could you? You promised me, that it would stay a secret."

"I know, but I had to tell him! It was in a very important situation!"

"What could possible be more important, than a promise you said you would keep?!"

I had to admit it. I had seen Liam angry before, but not this angry. This was a totally new side of him.

"What about your promise?! You promised that you would tell the boys, but it has gone several days now, Liam!" I said loud, almost screaming.

Liam shooked his head.

"You.. you, of all people.. I trusted you!" He screamed.

"Liam, you can be upset with me, but you have to know, that he needed that information at the time!"

"When did you tell him?" Liam asked, ignoring my eyes.

"Earlier today, when me and Harry was on our way home." I said low.

Liam didn't know what to say anymore, or to ask. It was a good thing though, since I hadn't figured out how, or even if, I was going to tell him about Mark and his gang.

"I know that I was suppose to keep it a secret, but you have to admit that the boys don't deserve this. They have no idea of your past, so it's basically like they don't even know you. It doesn't matter how much you want to erase your childhood. It's still you."

Liam didn't answer. Then I had a crazy idea, that a joke would cheer him up.

"Well, now I've spared you a quarter of the pain and screaming you will go through when you tell them." I tried, but the reaction I received was not a friendly laugh.

"Don't you even dare to make this into a joke."

"No, I was just saying that Harry was very understandeble about it, and that.."

"I don't care!" He screamed.

Then, he walked away. Just passed past me, and further away. I didn't have the guts to turn around, I was afraid. As soon as Liam was gone, I bursted out in tears.


Kathleen: I'm scared, Sarah. I don't know what is going to happen now. Liam hates me, and so does Bim. What if they won't forgive me?
Sarah: They will, trust me. They are hurt, but they will forgive you eventually. I bet Liam is going to come any minute, to talk to you.

I was sitting in my room, lonely. After a few hours of catching up and talking to Sarah, I was starting to feel better, even though I was still sobbing a bit.
Suddenly, the door knocked. I looked up. Please don't let it be one of the guys, except Liam, I thought. I looked awful, and I didn't have time to fix myself. So I walked over to the door, praying that it wouldn't be the boys, Bim or anyone other.
I opened, and suddenly, how I looked didn't matter. It was Liam that was standing outside. His hands was casually in his pockets, and he looked up on me with a sad smile. It was the "I'm sorry, can we talk?"-smile. And I was more relieved than ever.

"Hi.." I said low, while slighty leaning against the door frame.

"Hi.. Can I.. come in?" He asked, as low as me.

"Yeah, sure, come on in."

Liam walked passed me, and into the room. The awkward feeling in the air between us came out on our actions, as Liam, a bit confused, sat down on my bed. I sat down next to him, what else was there to do? It was quiet for a few seconds between us, but when I finally was ready to speak out, Liam was too. So we interrupted each other, which made us both nervously laugh.

"I'm sorry, you go first.." Liam said.

"Okay.." I laughed. "Well.. I just wanna say I'm sorry. I've given this a lot of thought, and you are absolutely right. I shouldn't have told Harry, whatever situation I was in. I made a promise, and I broke it, and I am so sorry for that. I know that you can't trust me anymore, and that is understandeble."

Liam looked at me with the sweetest look. A look that was overwhelmed, and thankful.

"I'm also sorry for ambushing you, and telling you what to do. It's not up to me." I said.

Then Liam cleared his throat.

"No, it's not you who should be sorry. It's me. I was overreacting, and being dramatic. You were right, if you have broke a promise, where does that leave me? I am just as guilty as you, Kath."

I realized, that I was now giving him the same look.

"You had to tell him. You're barver than me, end of discussion. But I promise you.."

Liam paused to take my hands, and gently massage and rub them in his.

"I will tell them."

My eyes grew bigger.

"Will you?" I asked.

"Yes, I will. I'll do it today."

We had a long conversation, but eventually he left. After I closed the door, I looked at Sarahs and my textmessages. I started to type while giggling.

Kathleen: How did you know?

Notes

Hi guys! It took me very long to write this chapter, for many different reasons. I don't know if I will write one more tonight, but I might. Anyways, my friend just made a fanfiction. It would mean a lot to me and to her if you took a quick look at it! The name of it is "Just stay alive", and it is done by @livelifeandloveonedirection, so subscribe hers and vote! And you haven't forgotten about "The new start", right? Check that out too!!

Do you think Liam will keep his promise about talking to the lads?

Will Bim ever forgive Kath, like Liam?