All night long, I lied awake. The things that had happened earlier were now whirring around in my head, keeping me awake. Shit, I really need to sleep, I thought. I have classes tomorrow.. But while one part of my brain tried to relax, maybe think of jumping sheeps, the other fighted against it, screamed the boys names, played up scenes from the day and kept repeating their voices.
I ended up being stuck in my own sheets, only because I had been turning around, unable to lie still. When I had tangled myself out of my mess, I sat up in the bed and sighed. How were I suppose to sleep after something like this? Two of my friends had just got their hearts broken because of me, and three others were now about to fight over me. What if I had ruined their friendship? If they were all to date me, would they become strangers to each other, and stop talking? And what about Bim? What the heck were I suppose to do with her, or even worse, say to her? How would I start? How would she take it? I suddenly had a horrible thought. If I told her, would she cut herself? Probably, I thought. And if I didn't tell her, and she somehow found out, she would.. probably cut herself. Shit. Either way, I would loose. I would be the bad guy, I would be the one who made her cut. What if she commited suicide? What if no one would ever know the real reason why she did it, and at the funeral, I would be sitting there, with the worst gulit ever?
No, stop it, I thought and took a deep breath. Is it hot in here? I stood up, and walked back and forth. My hands couldn't stop shaking. Am I having a panic attack? I needed to get out of the room. The fastest I could, I jumped in some random clothes and closed the door behind me. I breathed slowly in and out. What is going on? I thought and started running down to the cafeteria. Some people were still up, even though the clock showed 3:12am.
I walked down the stairs, and sat down. My hands covered my whole face, as I was slowly breathing in and out. Take it easy, Kath.. I kept telling myself.
I came to the conclusion that I was just stressed out about everything that had happened today. I had never done anything like this. I was mommys and daddys angel, always making the right choices.
There was another side of my though, the party-girl I had become after I had started to hang out with Sarah. My parents didn't like her, they said she had bad influence in me. But Sarah was just so different from every other girl at school. The girls there were all fake, blonde and knew every Justin Bieber-song by heart. Sarah had dark, thick hair, and deep, brown eyes that could see through everything and everyone. Don't get me wrong, she wasn't exactly the opposite of the girls at my school, she did like to party and was obsessing over idols too. But she was also so.. real. So genuine and kind-hearted. She was also the one who could make me laugh, no matter what. I smiled only by thinking about Sarah, how much I missed her. If I hadn't met her, I probably wouldn't even had the courage to apply to the college I was now sitting in. I would've remained the sweet little angel, the shy girl with the amazing voice.
I took a break from all the thinking, and picked up my phone instead to call someone, anyone. Since I was already thinking about Sarah, I typed in her number and prayed that she would still be awake. The signal kept going. On the forth one, the line broke and someone answered.

"Hello?"

It was Sarah. Thank God, I thought in relief.

"Sarah! It's me, Kath."

"Oh, Kathy!"

Sarah sounded happy.

"What's up? Why are you calling so late?"

"I.. I.. nothing. I just miss you."

"I miss you too.. How's life as a super-star?" She asked.

I giggled. Her voice filled my stomach with warmth.

"I'm not a super-star yet. I don't even know if I'm ever going to be.. I mean, I was so confident when I got here, but now.. Everyone in this building is so good at singing, they give me chills. I'm just.. one of them, you know. One of hundreds people that wanna be an artist. I didn't think it would be this hard.."

Somehow, Sarahs silence made me see a picture of her in my head. I pictured her face to be very confused, and that was why she didn't say anything.

"Kath.. Is that really it? Feeling a little competition? You used to love it! Is there something else that has happened? Or, has.. someone happened?"

Niall, Louis, Harry, Zayn, Liam, Bim. All these six names immediately popped up in my head.

"No, no not at all." I hurried to say.

I could see the smirk on Sarahs face.

"Really..?"

And the second after she asked me that, my eyes casually flew over the room, and landed on a small terrace I had some history on. It was the terrace that I found Zayn smoking on a few days ago. And now, I saw someone standing out there. I hoped of the bottom of my heart it was Zayn.

"Hey, Sarah.. I.. I gotta go.." I stuttered and quickly started to walk towards it.

"Whoever you're going to meet now, say hi from me. And if he's hot, give my number. Bye Kath!" Sarah said and hung up.

Always classic, I thought and approached to the terrace-door. I looked out, the terrace-door had a big window of course, and my guesses turned out to be right. Out on the terrace, a skinny, blackhaired guy with a thin leatherjackat stood and smoked a cigarette. I could, despite the darkness, see that the nose, and those plump lips belonged to Zayn. I gotta talk to him, I kept thinking.
I don't know what got over me, but suddenly, I opened the terrace-door and got out. The first thing that I felt on the outside was the wind that roughly grabbed my hair and my clothes and tried to bring me to the ground. Zayn noticed me when I accidently tripped and basically was lying in front of his feet.

"Wow, are you okay?!" He shouted and brought me up on my feet again.

"Yeah, I'm fine! I just need to talk to you!" I shouted in his ear.

He nodded and slowly took another blow at his cigarette. I don't think he got my point, I wanted to talk to him, inside. But he just stood there, carelessly blowing in his cigarette.

"Like, now, maybe?!" I shouted.

"Yeah, sure. Talk!"

I was shocked. Why was he acting so idiotic, when I was the one who really should have been acting mad? I felt very upset, he had hurt me by not even trying to see things from my perspective, he couldn't even give the idea a chance. That kind of said by itself how much he really cared and loved me. My own thoughts were starting to piss me off.

"Fine. Let's talk here!" I shouted. "Why can't you trust that I'm doing the right choice?! Huh? Why can't you let me prove to you, that this can work?! I'll tell you! It's because you're a stubborn jerk! That's what you are!"

Zayn just nodded, and took another sip of his cigarette. He was not only a stubborn jerk, he was a stubborn jerk who was ignoring me!

"So that's the game you're paying, huh?! I can play that game too!" I shouted. "You know, I've been with idiots who called themself boyfriends, so I know the rules! But since you won't date me, I guess that tells a whole lot about how you feel about me, don't you think so?!"

Finally, Zayn reacted. He took a final drag from the cig and then shoved it to the ground.

"Kath, I'm not playing any games! I'm not following any rules, I'm just not ready to be in a relationship that involves four other guys too! I have a career to focus on, you know!"

I sighed in frustration. What could I say to change his mind? I was after all in love with the stubborn jerk I had in front of me. I needed him. His smile made my whole world spin out of control. I suddenly walked up to him, and brought my hands up to his face and they enveloped his cheeks.

"Please, Zayn. If I can't be with you, I'll go crazy.. I want you so bad.."

"Don't.. Just, don't.. I fall for this crap so easy, please stop.."

I grinned. Finally, I had found his weakness.

"But I feel a connection between us.. I've loved you since day one, Zayn.. Please, please, please do this.. For me?"

He sighed and tried to avoid my eyes. But I was only a few inches from his face, so it was almost impossible.

"Show to me how much you love me." I whispered. "I need you, I need you to function."

I realized that I was not saying all these things so he could date me for fun, I meant all of it. Zayns lips flickered. Then he slowly shook his head while he was smiling.

"I can't believe I'm saying this, but.. Okay."

I jumped up in his arms, and hugged him the hardest I could. He hugged me back. What a feeling!

Notes

Hi guys! Wow, two chapters on one day.. It's sad that it's so rare these days.. But hey, I did it! So now, the only one who is not in this game is Louis. God, there is so much in this story that will happen.. Things you won't believe and things you probably will hate me for writing. This story will end bad in many ways, but also many good. So I hope you stick around for more chapters, and be patient with me. It's just so much school-stuff going on. Well, goodnight. Love, A.

So, what do you think is going to happen with Louis?

Of all the guys, who makes the best couple? Zath, Nath, Lath, Lith or Hath? Haha, just made that up, but why not, lol,