It was really second nature to me, for my eyes to automatically zero in on her no mater where we were.

I watched her as Cameron nodded towards me, my heart thudding in my chest. She was with him, they were talking, which was more then I could say for us.

She turned slowly and my breath caught in my throat as her eyes locked with mine. It had only been since this morning but already I missed her.

She looked at me for a few seconds before spinning around and ordering something from the bartender.

Wonderful.

She now needed to drink just to be in the same room as me.

“I told you she was here.” Niall shouted over the loud music at me.

It was true, he had been the one to come to the conclusion after Michael had called him to invite us all out. I had originally declined but when Niall had said he thought Dawn might be here with Cameron I quickly changed my mind.

I wasn’t going to sit back and let someone else win anymore. I was going to put up a fight now because I was running out of time.

“Yea.” I took a deep breath and began to walk towards Dawn and Cameron where they sat by the bar.

Cameron’s eyes stayed glued to me as I approached and I looked right at him. I wanted him to know I wasn’t giving up.

He leaned in to say something to Dawn who snapped her head at him and appeared to be pleading with him while she clutched his arm. Before I even made it within feet from them he was gone.

“Er... Dee.”

She kept her back to me as the man behind the bar placed two small shot glassed in front of her. She quickly reached for one and threw her head back to take the shot before repeating it with the second.

Sighing I placed my hand on her bare shoulder, she spun around finally and looked at me.

“What do you want Harry?”

I scratched the back of my neck and bit my lip. I wasn’t really expecting her to respond so harshly but I should have. She was still angry at me.

“I wanted to make this right.” I pleaded. “I just wanted to say I’m sorry.”

She licked her lips and stared at me before looking back at the bartender and holding up a finger. “One more please.”

She was obviously looking to get smashed tonight.

“Maybe you should lighten up on the drinks?” I suggested. It wasn’t like I would really be able to talk to her is she was piss drunk.

“Maybe you should learn to tell the truth.” She countered snatching the shot glass and tossing her head back once more. “I need to not think tonight Harry. Give me one night of not having to deal with this. Tomorrow I have to, weather I like it or not but tonight I don’t, so leave me alone.”

She pushed away from the bar and wobbled a bit as the alcohol must have set in.

“Where are you going?” I asked, worriedly, my hands reaching out to catch her if she fell.

She threw her hands in the air and waved them around as she smiled goofily. “To dance.”

And then she was gone, stumbling her way to the others.

Gripping my hair in frustration for what felt like the millionth time that day I spun around to the bartender that Dawn had been ordering from and placed my own order for a shot, then followed that one with another and a few more after that.

If she was going to get drunk and not think about this tonight then so was I.

As soon as I was satisfied with the buzz I had I left the safety of the bar and wandered over to the booth in the back that everyone was seated around.

I already knew Dawn wasn’t there but I was a bit surprised to find Cameron seated sipping from a beer. I half expected him to be off with Dawn dancing.

Louis must have read my mind because he leaned in and nodded out onto the dance floor. “She’s out there with Danielle and Liam.”

I turned and instantly spotted the two girls dancing with each other out on the floor while all the men around them stared. Liam wasn’t too far away watching over them as they both appeared a little on the tipsy side, not that I could really say much. All the alcohol didn’t stop the urge I had to go knock out a few of the shady guys watching Dawn.

Didn’t they know she was mine?

Without conscious thought I found myself walking onto the dance floor. Everything was moving in a blur the way it did when you’ve had a few drinks.

My hands, on their own accord, reached out until they were planted firmly on either one of Dawn’s silk covered hips.

My palms tingled as it gripped the warm flesh and my heart soared when she turned her head to smile drunkenly at me. I pulled her closer to me causing Danielle to pout at the loss of her dance partner but she quickly smiled again when Liam joined her.

“Dance with me.” I murmured into Dawn’s ear.

She nodded and dropped her head onto my shoulder, her back to my front as she swayed to the beat. “This doesn’t change anything.” She warned.

I knew the only reason either of us were like this was because of the drinks we both had. I wouldn’t be so bold now and she wouldn’t be so willing to forget that she was angry at me.

The song switched and Dawn smiled with half lidded eyes at me, lifting her head off my shoulder. She quickly spun around and began to roll her body to the beat as 50 Cent started to rap in the back ground.

I gripped her hips a little tighter, not really caring about the situation we were in anymore or the fact that I was sure she still hated me, even if that notion was buried under the haze in her inebriated mind.

Right now she just wanted to dance and forget and in that moment it didn’t matter to her, or me really, that I was the main reason for her wanting any of that in the first place.

It really was amazing how quickly a few shots could change a person’s mood or outlook on their current situations.

Right now we were just two people dancing, rather closely and in my case poorly.

I was beyond turned on by the way she moved her body against mine, almost like she was teasing me on purpose, as a punishment for what I had done.

I honestly wasn’t aware I had moaned in her ear until I saw her eyes shoot open and a smirk slid over her drunken lips.

The way she was looking at me made me wonder if she even realized it was still me. Maybe she was so drunk she couldn’t even connect the dotes anymore.

I bit my lip and let my hands slid from her hips up her back and pressed her closer to my body until I could feel every curve. I leaned in until my lips were just inches from her ear. “Do you have any idea what you do to me? How beautiful you are? How much I love you?” I finished by placing a slow kiss just under her ear.

If I had been sober I probably would have known better then to say that to her right now, but as it was I conceded to being piss drunk and apparently she wasn’t as far gone as I had thought.

It was like someone threw a bucket of cold water on her causing her to sober up instantly. It happened so fast my head was reeling from it. She stiffened in my arms first before placing her hands on my chest and shoving me back forcefully.

When I finally realized what was happening my eyes widened as I looked at her blank face.

She stared at me like that for a moment and just as I began to make a move for her she backed away. “That shouldn’t have happened.” She mumbled as she spun on her heel and weaved her way back to the others.

I stood there dumbfounded for a split second. What the hell had just happened?

By the time I had gathered myself and made it back to the table Dawn was already taking another shot from her spot next to Cameron.

My blood boiled at the thought of her running back to him. I waited until she looked my way before opening my mouth but I never got to say a word. She quickly turned back to Cameron and leaned in until she was practically sucking on his earlobe and spoke loud enough for everyone to hear. I wasn’t sure if that was intentional or not.

“We should get out of here.” She said.

Cameron looked at her then up at me with wide eyes. He almost looked confused by her words.

Jena, who had been standing beside me placed her hand on my shoulder as the words left Dawn’s lips.

I don’t know why I did what I did next. Maybe it was because I was sick of being ignored by the one girl I wanted the most, or maybe it was because I had downed more alcohol in the last hour then I really should have but either way one minute I was standing there and the next I had my lips pressed up against someone I would have never thought I would be kissing.

It wasn’t a particularly great kiss, I would probably label it as very sloppy and unskilled but I was drunk and angry and only doing it because I was very jealous.

It took all of three seconds for Jena to shove me away from her and level me with a death glare as she wiped at her mouth.

“What the actual FUCK Harry?!” She spat at me.

I just shook my head as she reached over and shoved me one more time before stomping away from the table, Niall hot on her heels.

I turned to look at Dawn again, I wanted to see her reaction. Somewhere in my intoxicated mind I thought that kissing Jena would be a brilliant idea. That Dawn would be so overcome with jealousy she would just forget about Cameron and her being angry and we would live happily ever after.

What I found was two empty seats where her and Cameron had been.

My eyes flew around the table, everyone shooting me stunned or disappointed looks. Zayn was the one who finally sighed pointed towards the doors, shaking his head the whole time.

I looked just in time to see Cameron lead Dawn out the door.

“Go you idiot. Stop her.” Louis shouted from beside me as he shoved me in that direction. I hesitated half a second before I was rushing out the door.

My eyes swept the exterior of the club passing over the few people scattered about outside until they landed on her.

Her body was slumped against the building her head bend down in her hands. It wasn’t until I was a few feet away that I realized she was crying and suddenly the buzz I had been feeling was gone.

“Dawn.”

She jumped at my voice and gasped while straightening up and roughly swiping her face before glaring at me.

“Come on Cameron. Hurry up.” She mumbled to herself as she looked away from me and into the darkness where I assumed Cameron had gone.

“Dee I’m sorry I wasn’t thinking I didn’t-”

“Shut up Harry!” She said turning back to me and squeezing her eyes shut. “Just shut up.”

I did as she asked. My heart thudding in my chest the whole time.

“I just wanted to not think tonight and then you came along and ruined that for me. I can’t not think about you when you’re standing right there.” She waved her hand at me. “You are all I can think about and I hate it. I want it to go away because I am so damn pissed at you...”

My breathing became short as I listened to her rant at me, but I stood my ground letting her say what she needed to. I owed her that at least.

“You want to know the crazy part?” She said laughing bitterly. I wasn’t a hundred percent sure I wanted to hear the next part. “I tried so hard to be in love with Cameron and he is so great and I should be in love with him but if you had just told me the truth, if you had just told me you felt something for me too, that you were in fucking LOVE with me when I told you how I felt instead of crushing me and telling me we should just be friends, I would have left him without a second thought. We could have had happily fucking ever after. But you lied to me and you made everyone else lie to me and it made me feel really stupid and I don’t know if I can forgive that just yet.”

My heart sank at her words. The thought that right now we could have been happy together and not in this disaster made me want to throw up at how stupid I had been all along. “Dawn-”

“You ready?“ Cameron said as he walked up looking down at his phone, when he looked up his eyes widened. Obviously he didn’t notice I was there.

My hands reached up into my hair in frustration as a growled left my lips.

Great just fucking great. He just had to show up.

“Yea. Let’s go.” She said to him pushing off the wall and walking towards him, not even looking at me.

“DAWN” I yelled. This wasn’t happening. This couldn’t be happening again.

“Leave me alone Harry. I don’t want to look at you right now. Go back to Jena.”

I stared at her back as she walked a little ahead of Cameron. I had nothing to say.

Cameron eyed me not saying anything but I could tell he was judging me. I couldn’t blame him. All I seemed to do was screw this up one way or another.

Notes

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