I had never had one of those knee weakening, firework inducing, life changing kisses and truthfully this kiss wasn’t one of those either, but I would be lying if I said it didn’t spark something.

A squirming feeling in the pit of my stomach, my heart beating just a little more quickly, maybe. But it was Harry I was kissing and my mind was screaming at me to stop it.

With a gasp I pulled away bringing my fingertips to my lips.

I felt all the eyes in the room on me but the only ones I could focus on were the green eyes staring questioningly right back into mine. What in the hell had just happened?

“Well then.” Louis gloated, sounding pleased with himself.

Oddly enough as I tore my eyes from Harry’s they landed helplessly on Liam. He stared at me for a moment before I saw the recognition in his eyes.

“Um... yea...” I said trying to hide my awkward reaction.

“Dawn?” Harry asked tilting his head so he was in my line of sight. He looked scared and strangely hopeful. I pushed all thought out of my head. I was still a little too drunk to deal with this right now.

“That was... a really dumb dare Louis.” I finally spoke. Louis raised an eyebrow at me with his smirk still in place.

Liam, who was still watching me cleared his throat. “We are almost in Salt Lake City and we should probably gather our things for when we get to the hotel.”

He would never know how grateful I was to him in that very moment. Without a second glance I shot up from my spot, feeling Harry’s eyes on me the whole time, and walked out of the back lounge reminding myself to walk at a casual pace so as not to draw too much attention.

I half expected Harry to follow me out, so when I heard the door open and close behind me I tensed.

“That was a dumb idea.” Liam’s smooth voice spoke.

I turned to him, wide eyed and confused. “I ... they... “ I didn’t know what I was trying to say but by the look Liam was giving me, he knew what I meant.

“They are too drunk to notice.” Liam comforted.

“Louis?”

“He just thinks he made Harry uncomfortable. He has no clue.”

I sagged, supporting my weight on the bunks to my right. My hand rubbed my face. “Everything is going to change now isn’t it.”

“Dawn,” Liam spoke, waiting for me to look at him before continuing. “Everything has been changing for a while now.”

I opened my mouth to speak and then shut it. I wasn’t really sure I knew what he was talking about but I had to admit this tour has been much different then any of the others.

And as if to give me a reminder of one of the reasons why, my phone began to vibrate in my pocket.

I snatched it out and looked down at the smiling face flashing up at me. Suddenly I felt awful.

Looking at Liam I brought my phone to my ear. “Hey Cam.” I breathed out.

I felt utterly horrible about the mixed feelings I was having and although I answered, for a split second I almost ignored the call.

“Hey sunshine. Michael is bugging the bus driver and it looks like we are all pulling over for a gas station raid. Do you think maybe I can persuade you to hop on our bus?”

He was being all sorts of enticing with his husky voice and normally I would completely melt but again I hesitated. Liam looked at me in question, almost like he knew I was being put on the spot and he also wanted to know what I was deciding.

“Um.. actually Cam I was-” I trailed off as Harry snuck into the room. Liam looked from me to him. I let my eyes sweep Harry’s face. He looked like he really wanted to ask me something. That scared the crap out of me. Before I could even think I answered Cameron. “You know what, yea. As soon as we stop I’ll sneak over. I’ll see you in a little bit.”

I was such a coward.

I tried to pretend I didn’t see the disappointment on Harry’s face at my words, but honestly right at that moment I needed to be away from him to sort out all the bewildering thoughts in my head.

Cameron responded happily saying he would be waiting. When I hung up Harry looked away from me, slipping his hands into his pockets.

“So you’re going over there after all.” He asked.

I looked to Liam, not sure if I did because it was now very uncomfortable with him standing there or because I was hoping he would help. Either way all he did was shrug and leave the space in what seemed to be an escape for his life.

I looked down at my hands, my fingers picking at my nails a much better view then the saddened face of my best friend.

“Um, yea. I kinda miss him.”

There was silence, when I finally built up the courage to look at him he looked almost angry.

“Of course you do. Well, have loads of fun, yeah?”

He didn’t even give me time to respond as he practically shoved by me. I was frozen as I watched him exit the bunk room and escape into the vacant front lounge.

I didn’t move from that spot until I felt the bus stop. When I made my way to the front, Harry was already gone. I supposed he had gotten off the bus to walk around.

As soon as I was off the last step I was pulled into a pair of masculine arms.

“I missed you, sunshine.” Cameron’s lips next to my ear made me shiver. I instinctively smiled at the feeling of warmth and giddiness he brought to me.

“Hey babe.”

“Oh my god. Thank you for keeping him busy. If I had to hear how much he missed his girlfriend one more time I might shoot his ass.” Michael said as he walked past, his arms loaded down with all sorts of candy and junk food.

“Girlfriend?” The familiar husky voice spoke from behind me. I spun around to find Harry holding a bag from the gas station shop.

My mouth opened and closed a few times, no words coming out. It was never this hard to talk to Harry. Why couldn’t I just say what I needed to say?

“I’m not...” I looked at Cameron, I didn’t want to hurt him either by denying the slip so readily but we hadn’t exactly made anything official yet.

“Congratulations. I wasn’t aware you two were a couple.” Harry said bitterly. I wish I could just say we weren’t but I still couldn’t seem to find my voice.

Giving us one last look Harry shook his head and stomped up the steps of the bus. I wanted to follow him, I wanted to explain to him but doing that would lead to complicated, confusing things. Cameron was simple, I liked him, he liked me and their wasn’t a lot of un-deciphered, uncomfortable feelings involved. I liked simple. In the end simple hurt less.

So even though a part of me, and I would never admit how big that part was, wanted me to chase after Harry, I smiled up at Cameron and followed him as he lead me back to his bus.

In a lot of ways the two bands were very similar. Both consisted of a group of funny, ridiculously weird boys who didn’t really care what anyone thought of them. But were One Direction tended to be a little energetic, always wanting to mess around and play, the boys of Allstar Weekend wanted to just chill. They laughed at stupid random things and made inappropriate jokes the same way but they were a lot tamer. And right now, tame is what I needed.

“You look tired.” Cameron pointed out as we climbed onto the bus. Dillon waved at me as I stepped into the front lounge and Brent smiled before returning to whatever he was doing on his laptop.

“Oh hey Dawn.” Zach greeted as he stepped out of the bathroom. “You come to hang out with us?”

“Umm...” I trailed off. Really all I wanted to do was sleep.

“Actually Zach, we’re going to go to bed.”

“Oooooh.” Zach smirked wiggling his eyebrows suggestively.

I blushed and giggled, shaking my head. The other boys were always picking on Cameron anytime he made a comment about us doing anything remotely romantic.

“Get it.” Michael joked pumping his fist in the air as we past him to walk into the bunks room.

“Don’t be too loud. “ Brent yelled through the door as Cameron shut it.

Cameron sent me an embarrassed smile. “Sorry about them. They can be jerks sometimes.”

“No worries Cam. I practically live with a bunch of guys. I know how it is.”

He nodded and walked towards his bunk. reaching for my hand as he past me to pull me along behind him. “I hope you don’t think I’m just trying to... um, you know-”

“Get some.” I supplied with a smirk. My hand that wasn’t intertwined with his smacked his chest. “Shut up Cam. Let’s just lay down. We still have about an hour before we get to the hotel.”

He nodded, hopping up into his bunk and sliding over all the way so I could join him. As soon as I was snuggled into his side I felt his strong arms wrap around me and his soft lips gently nudge mine. I smiled as we just laid there, kissing quietly in the cramped space.

When he finally pulled away, he rested his forehead against mine and locked his eyes with mine. “About what Mikey said earlier...”

“Don’t worry about it Cam, really I’m not offended.”

He chuckled and kissed my lips chastely. “Not that. The thing about you being my girlfriend.”

My mind flashed back but not to what Michael had said, it flashed back to Harry’s reaction to what Michael had said.

“I know we’ve only been seeing each other for like a few days and really before that our friendship consisted of text messages but I really like you Dawn and I haven’t really felt this way about someone before. It’s hard to find people who get what I do and you do, so... I guess what I was trying to ask is if maybe, you know, you wouldn’t mind if people called you my girlfriend... me included?”

I pulled my eyes away from his. It was probably the sweetest proposition I had ever heard and if it had been yesterday I wouldn’t have hesitated to say yes. It was today, however, and I had just kissed my best friend and felt things and everything was a little funny right now.

On one hand, dating Cameron would be easy, clean. I liked him, a lot. He was sweet, considerate, and funny. Not to mention smoking hot. And if by some unforeseen reason we didn’t work out, sure I would be hurt but life would go on.

Then there was Harry.

I wasn’t even sure what was going on there. All I knew was that what I felt kissing him wasn’t something someone feels when the person you are kissing is just your best friend. That scared the shit out of me. We would be messy and complicated. Sure Harry was like my other half, but does that have to translate into a romantic relationship. Couldn’t we just be friends and soul mates?

Why did everything have to be so complicated all of the sudden.

I wish there was someway I could just uncomplicated everything.

And then I realized there was. My eyes shifted back to Cameron.

“Okay.” I whispered back.

The smile that graced his lips was almost blinding, and like all of Cameron’s smiles, it was contagious. Even as I felt like I was losing myself in my uncertainty, I couldn’t help but smile and giggle as he pulled me in for a kiss.

From the other room I hear wolf whistling, notifying me that Cameron’s band mates had been eavesdropping. We both chuckled as Cameron kicked the wall at our feet.

“Nosy asses.”

I giggled and kissed Cameron, but internally I was worried how I was going to tell Harry and how this was going to change our already changing friendship. I prayed it would help ease things, but somehow I doubted it would.