Can't handle life
Can't handle life part 1
MY POV!
Holding a flower in my hand and tears in my eyes I just found out my great grandma and grandpa have passed on. I'm standing by there grave wishing there time didn't come yet but it did, they suffered for to long but I didn't want them to leave me. I guess it's just life, but they shouldn't have left at this time. Just so much crap was happening at the same time. Parents got into a divorce, three of my friends left me for no reason, great grandparents died, and always being disappointed. There was a lot more but I don't want to relive the memories. I've always been a big fan of one direction but I knew I would see them in concert or meet them, plus why would they want to meet me... I mean I'm nothing but a failure to everyone I disappoint everyone.
*a couple weeks later*
i got up one morning ready to face the day. I moved to a big city to get away from reality for a little bit. I mean I'm 18 I'm a loud to move out of the house. So I moved to the big city. I'm on the 16th floor of my apartment so every night when it's dark I would go on the balcony and stare at the city. Seeing the city lights lighting up the night sky. Now I'm going to get ready for the day. I go take a nice shower and put on a nice blouse with flowers on it and white pants, I also put on some nice sandals and my hair In a sock bun. I take my long stringed purse and put on a light coat of mascara on my eye lashes and my aviator sunglasses over my eyes. I put on my clover necklace and a nice purple bracket that had my name printed on it. After I was done getting ready I walked out of my apartment, locked the door and went to the elevator to bring me down stairs and so I can't go outside the building! As I was walking down the sidewalk I heard five voices that I knew! I thought to myself " can it!" "It can't be!" "Oh my god it is!" "It's one direction!" I just kept walking hoping that they will notice me. I was happy. But then that moment end when I got a text saying that "your not wanted, go kill yourself and go to hell you bitch I hope you die a painful and ugly death" I stopped dead in my tracks and covered my mouth. Soft sobs were coming out of my mouth and I fell to my knees. I hear footsteps speeding up faster and faster coming straight to me. When I looked up I saw the boys Liam, Harry, Louis, Zayn, and the one and only Niall standing right in front of me with worried looks on their faces.
NIALL'S POV!
Me and the lads were walking down the street of a big city, of course you know me I didn't remember the name! We were talking and laughing. No fans were near us. It was pretty much like the street was dead except for this one girl that looked about 18 walking in front of us. A little further then us. All I see when I look straight is her stopping dead in her tracks bringing her hand to her face and she has her phone in the other hand. we hear soft sobs coming from her and see her fall to her knees. I was the one who started running to make sure she was okay. The other boys just follows me until we reached her. When she looked up to see who was by her I saw her beautiful hazel nut eyes because she took off her sunglasses to wipe the tears. I asked her if she was hurt and nodded her head yes. I asked her where she was hurt and she said her heart. She was talking about a text she got from some random person. That person told her that she wasn't wanted and for her to go kill her self and go to hell and for we to die a painful and ugly death. I gasped at the text and let the other boys read it. I took the girls hands and helped her up but she was a little weak in the knees from falling so I put my arm on her waist and was helping her walk to her destination. She was so skinny and so small around her stomach that I felt so sorry for her. She is just so beautiful I can't see why she is doing this to herself. I just had to ask "are you eating?" All she did was look up at me and say in between sobs. "N-no I can't" I looked shocked when she told me she couldn't eat so I asked again "why not, if people are telling you that you look fat don't listen to them you have to eat, when was the last time you ate?" She sighed and said "it's been a month maybe longer but I can't eat because of my life has been nothing but terrible..
To be continued.....
Holding a flower in my hand and tears in my eyes I just found out my great grandma and grandpa have passed on. I'm standing by there grave wishing there time didn't come yet but it did, they suffered for to long but I didn't want them to leave me. I guess it's just life, but they shouldn't have left at this time. Just so much crap was happening at the same time. Parents got into a divorce, three of my friends left me for no reason, great grandparents died, and always being disappointed. There was a lot more but I don't want to relive the memories. I've always been a big fan of one direction but I knew I would see them in concert or meet them, plus why would they want to meet me... I mean I'm nothing but a failure to everyone I disappoint everyone.
*a couple weeks later*
i got up one morning ready to face the day. I moved to a big city to get away from reality for a little bit. I mean I'm 18 I'm a loud to move out of the house. So I moved to the big city. I'm on the 16th floor of my apartment so every night when it's dark I would go on the balcony and stare at the city. Seeing the city lights lighting up the night sky. Now I'm going to get ready for the day. I go take a nice shower and put on a nice blouse with flowers on it and white pants, I also put on some nice sandals and my hair In a sock bun. I take my long stringed purse and put on a light coat of mascara on my eye lashes and my aviator sunglasses over my eyes. I put on my clover necklace and a nice purple bracket that had my name printed on it. After I was done getting ready I walked out of my apartment, locked the door and went to the elevator to bring me down stairs and so I can't go outside the building! As I was walking down the sidewalk I heard five voices that I knew! I thought to myself " can it!" "It can't be!" "Oh my god it is!" "It's one direction!" I just kept walking hoping that they will notice me. I was happy. But then that moment end when I got a text saying that "your not wanted, go kill yourself and go to hell you bitch I hope you die a painful and ugly death" I stopped dead in my tracks and covered my mouth. Soft sobs were coming out of my mouth and I fell to my knees. I hear footsteps speeding up faster and faster coming straight to me. When I looked up I saw the boys Liam, Harry, Louis, Zayn, and the one and only Niall standing right in front of me with worried looks on their faces.
NIALL'S POV!
Me and the lads were walking down the street of a big city, of course you know me I didn't remember the name! We were talking and laughing. No fans were near us. It was pretty much like the street was dead except for this one girl that looked about 18 walking in front of us. A little further then us. All I see when I look straight is her stopping dead in her tracks bringing her hand to her face and she has her phone in the other hand. we hear soft sobs coming from her and see her fall to her knees. I was the one who started running to make sure she was okay. The other boys just follows me until we reached her. When she looked up to see who was by her I saw her beautiful hazel nut eyes because she took off her sunglasses to wipe the tears. I asked her if she was hurt and nodded her head yes. I asked her where she was hurt and she said her heart. She was talking about a text she got from some random person. That person told her that she wasn't wanted and for her to go kill her self and go to hell and for we to die a painful and ugly death. I gasped at the text and let the other boys read it. I took the girls hands and helped her up but she was a little weak in the knees from falling so I put my arm on her waist and was helping her walk to her destination. She was so skinny and so small around her stomach that I felt so sorry for her. She is just so beautiful I can't see why she is doing this to herself. I just had to ask "are you eating?" All she did was look up at me and say in between sobs. "N-no I can't" I looked shocked when she told me she couldn't eat so I asked again "why not, if people are telling you that you look fat don't listen to them you have to eat, when was the last time you ate?" She sighed and said "it's been a month maybe longer but I can't eat because of my life has been nothing but terrible..
To be continued.....
Okay I will :)
8/15/13