So, I have to apologize for how long I have been lagging on updating. I just haven’t had motivation. I don’t mean the motivation to write, I mean the motivation to do anything. I’m so behind on my homework that my grades have slowly been dropping. Luckily, I’ve worked hard these past two weeks and they’ve gone up. It’s just that, I’ve been hit with the realization that anyone can pass away without us seeing it coming.
Last week, I was informed that someone in a class of mine had passed away. I didn’t know a ton about her, but, we did talk once in a while and paired up for in class work. The day they announced her passing, I was shocked.


Why so young?


Driving home, I thought about everything surrounding death... And arriving at home… I broke down crying.


It’s a terrifying thing to go through, and, just the fact that I talked to this person, that I saw her, that she sat in the same class as I did, that she was going through the same high school experience as me, just for her to… Lose it all… It got to me. I didn’t even expect it.
This isn’t the first time (sadly…) that kids in my school have passed away. Some passed by natural causes, accidents, gang related issues, and even… Taking their own life…


I talked this person, and I felt horrible… Just thinking about how hard it must be for anyone that knew this person… Especially the family. There was a whole future ahead for them…


I don’t want to say how this person passed, but, I do want to say one thing;
Appreciate the people around you.
You never know when someone will slip from your life, and you really do have to make the best out of it all. Don’t leave each other on a bad note…


Another thing I have to say is directed to you all;
If you have problems with anything, whether it be family related, friends, bullying, relationships, anything at all; Go to someone. Talk to them about it.
If you don’t know anyone you can really go to, then hey, I’m here. I may not know you, you may not know me, but if it means you can vent out your feelings and really get some advice, then by all means message me!
It’s sad seeing so many young people pass in such little time and just feeling horrible about it. Maybe some of you even know this feeling yourself….

I’m sorry if you thought this was an update. I’ll try as soon as possible to update both my stories. I just really want to get my mind cleared and do well in school. If others, who have definitely gone through worse, can do it, then I can too.

You’re all amazing.
You’re all unique.
You’re all beautiful.


-Smile <3