Revenge On Eleanor Calder (Coming back this Winter)

Louis' P.O.V

"I'm half a heart without you. . . I'm half a man at best," I manage to sing in a low tone.

I'm not even singing, more like whispering with a tune. But the crowd seems to make up for my absence of singing with their voices sounding out the song nicely. I stand here firm with my hands holding onto each other tightly and my eyes looking around at the guests. At every other person accept the one that lies before me, Eleanor. In the corner of my eye I see Alison and Hannah pass out white roses to each guest quietly.

Well Louis, this is the end of a chapter in my life. I really did think that Eleanor would always be my life. The whole book, but no. She is just a chapter. A character in my story that some how came my way. What can I say. . .it was just the fault in our stars. The stars of our very own yet mine is dull, and her still shines.

"Thank you," I hear a loud weep cry out.

I look to my right finding my mum bawling into Mark's arms. His eyes are closed as he comforts my mother with kind words, and patting her back. I swallow hard witnessing the rest of my family members crying as well as Eleanor's and friends. Daisy holds onto the bottom of my mother's dress with blood shot eyes and tears falling quickly. The guys/band are crying as well, Simon, Jake, Chloe, Hannah, Alison. . . just everyone. Liam I suppose is trying to hold himself up strongly with holding his breath and having his tears fall.

Out of the entire crowd. I seem to be the one not to cry. I can not. I will have to live through this moment, and cry it out later. Later when I am all alone, at home with no one to say any shit of sympathy to me. I want to go and hold Daisy, I want to tell my mum everything will be okay somehow, I want to lie to the band and tell them that there is no need to cry.. I want to comfort everyone that meant something to Eleanor. I want to jump in that coffin and wake Eleanor up. But I can't. I am frozen in place right now having my heart race at such a pace that the crowd starts to spin. My air ways are tightening and the floor is moving under my feet. My feet start to shake.

I am about to collapse. I know it. Looking for something stable to hold onto, I make my way to the podium where the priest stands. Pushing some people out of the way, I force the priest to the side with a violent shove with my hands having him give me a questionable look. But I really don't care, instead I hold on tightly to the stand and stand as straight as I can. I feel so weak, so tired.

Finally Alison reaches to me and hands me a red rose just like the one Eleanor now holds.

"Lord I beg of you to bless her in the name of Jesus, your one and only son," I hear the priest whisper in a prayer with his head bowed and his eyes closed.

I swallow looking down at the hole dug into the Earth. The hole for her so-called resting place.

"I'm half a man at best,with half an arrow in my chest I miss everything we do. . . I'm half a heart without you" I finish singing with the crowd.

Then the men from before return and lift Eleanor's body up to show the crowd once again. Before I know it I'm watching as they lower her body away. Lowering her away in a coffin down in the Earth and never to return.

"There she goes," I whisper to myself.

She's leaving me. Not by choice, but by fault.

With the thump of the casket, I wince closing my eyes and making a fist at my side. That sound of her hitting the ground informs me that it's over. It is all over, and she is going to be covered and gone forever.

Everyone now starts to through their white roses in, one-by-one. I await having no realization what it is that the crowd is singing.

Once I get the hang of it I join in, watching the shiny, black, and gold coffin get covered with pure white roses.

"Cause right now everything is new to me. You know I can't fight the feeling, and every night I feel it. . .Right now I wish you were here with me." I sing softly putting my heart into it.

When I re-open my eyes I see John, and Susan Calder are tossing their pink roses in. Once they do, every eyes turns to me. Way to make me feel nervous guys.

I clear my throat taking a few steps towards Eleanor's grave looking down below. I inhale deaply and look around at the bodies around.

-Flashback-

Louis' P.O.V

"You can't always let the negatives get to you Lou," Eleanor's dry voice says in a low tone.

I walk towards her with the lemon tea in my hands and sit beside her. She may be sick, but she still looks beautiful.

"May be so, but there is just so much of it. It's like I have to listen you know," I say back to her.

She scrunches up her nose making a face so I pass her the tea.

"Yes, but it doesn't matter. Remember you make over three million girls, and sometimes boys around the world smile Louis." Eleanor speaks after taking a sip of her tea.

I cough, and she sneezes afterwards making us both laugh. Putting the blanket on the both of us she smiles.

"Oh yeah? And how do you know that?" I question.

"Well, I'm one of those three million." El says proudly with a wide smile.

I move down to kiss her on the nose, "Thank you," I whisper in her ear having her giggle.

"But I'm not all the reasons of why you should live Louis. You should live for your family, your friends, yourself, yo-"

I cut her off abruptly ,"My girlfriend. . ." I add.

We laugh together, but I stop as soon as my cough kicks in.

"But really Lou. I shouldn't be your everything when there's more out there," El reasons.

I nod not taking in her words at the moment,"Sick buddies," I give her my fist to bump.

El laughs and takes her hand from under our blanket to fist bump mine.

"I love you Louis Tomlinson," Eleanor says to me. Never having her eyes leave me.

-Flashback Ends-

Louis' P.O.V

" I love you Louis Tomlinson, I love you Louis Tomlinson, I love you Louis Tomlinson, Louis Tomlinson,I love you, Louis Tomlins-" Eleanor's words echo in my head.

I breath in holding out my red rose above her casket. My eyes open looking down at her. I close my eyes again. Blackness clouds my pupils.

Words welcome themselves into my mind.

"Louis meet Eleanor, Eleanor meet Louis. I have a feeling you two will be very good friends, good friends. . .good friends," Harry says loudly as he forcefully hugs the three of us together.

"Hi I'm Eleanor. . ." her words shyly spoke.

"You won't believe what happened at work today."

"You're mainly the reason why I wake up every morning."

"Can I call you Loubear? Loubear, Loub-,"

"What if we have twins like your mom!"

"I don't really want a big wedding if I ever do get married."

"You're crazy Louis."

"I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you."

As her words of love echo in my head, I let go on the rose. I hear the thump of the flower, but I never dare to open my eyes.

"I love you Eleanor," I whisper.

" I love you Louis Tomlinson, I love you Louis Tomlinson, I love you Louis Tomlinson, Louis Tomlinson,I love you, Louis Tomlins-"

My eyes begin to water with her words in my head, and I now left go of the pain. Allowing my first tear to fall. The warm breeze blows my musky hair, and my one tear becomes cold upon my chilled skin.

Everyone has picked up dirt from the ground and scattered it around her which puts a pit in my stomach. Hell.

I bend down slowly grabbing one handful of dirt. I stand once again and look down at Eleanor Calder with my fist full of dirt held above her.

My first shakes and two more tears escape their way from my soul. With that I uncurl my fingers allowing the dirt to cover, my dear, dead girlfriend. I freeze in place and bring my dirty hand back at my side.

I hear a clearing of someone's throat out of all of the weeps.

"There will be. . .appetizers in the garden house. Thank you," I hear Hannah announce in a low tone. So low that I don't think everyone heard.

Everyone gives her one look of sympathy before walking away and towards the garden house.

Everyone accept my band members and Susan. Susan looks at me and gives me a small smile before turning on her heels and walking away.

"You may go," I tell them.

They all seem to look confused, but Liam shares something with them that makes them saunter away.

With that I get squat down and sit on the ground next to Eleanor. I look around taking a few breaths and look down at her.

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"You're going to be the reason why I live on Eleanor Jane Calder," I say to her with a true smile.

Oh and she will.

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