Soulmates: Gotta find my destiny

“YOU UNDERSTAND NOTHING!!” I yelled.

“What do you want me to understand? That you’re an irresponsible eighteen year-old young woman, that stays all day in bed at your computer, never gets to study, never goes out, and that you don’t even have friends?! That’s what you want me to understand?! Cause I understood it”

Okay she does.

“SEE? YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND MOM!!! YOU KNOW NOTHING!!”

Yeah, my mom and I are pretty much like fighting, again! It’s the third time this week and it’s only Thursday..

“SO EXPLAIN TO ME? WHAT’S THE THING I DON’T UNDERSTAND?”

“Ugh! Leave me alone!” I said rushing to my room and closing the door behind me

I threw myself to my bed and started crying to my pillow. I am so lonely now, my mom was right, I don’t even have friends, all those bitches in school are so fake that makes me sick. And my only true friend moved out of town, wow! Great luck Sophia, great luck…

I continued crying for like an hour until my cry ended up in a little sob. I had a lot of things to think about, I really needed to do something for myself; I really needed to get out of bed and pursuit my happiness.

I was there thinking to myself, wondering what I was gonna do, when my mom slightly opened the door

“We need to talk.” She said much more relaxed

“Mom, please, I need my space, I need to think of so many things” I told her

“You can tell me, sorry about what happened, I was really pissed out, this week has been so stressful for me, you know it. I really didn’t mean what I told you. “ Her words were honest, but I knew she was right, I was really wasting my life doing nothing.

“You were right mom, I really need to do something for myself, I really need to find me, please can you leave me alone with my thoughts? “

She nodded and closed my door behind her.

After staring to my ceiling for like what seemed years, I opened my laptop and logged into twitter, hoping that it would distract me from the real world.

'Can’t believe that 2 yrs ago, april fifteen, I stood and queued at 5 am at croke park for the xfactor auditions . Times flies by ! And dreams do come true ! '

A random girl had retweeted Niall’s tweet. We’re in October now, but reading that tweet, made me thought of a lot of things.

He’s always there for me, I don’t know how, but every time I’m feeling down, lost or broken he does something to cheer me up. He just randomly pops in my computer, in the radio, in the TV. In anyway possible to make me smile.

We’re so alike, I’d always thought that I am like his feminine version; we were also born the same day! And I really needed to meet him, he would be my perfect soul mate or at least, the best bestfriend I could ever have.

And then the idea just popped in my head. 'I am going to meet him, that’s what I’m gonna do for myself, I’m gonna find this boy and be friends with him.'

I hopped from my bed to my secret money location, shit I just have 500 dollars; that will not help at all. I don’t know how but I’m meeting Niall this week.

I took my money, my purse, and packed some clothes in my backpack. It was small, so I could only pack 2 tank tops, 3 blouses and a pair of jeans, I was already dressed up; I was wearing my old blue jeans, a t-shirt, and my red converse. I did my hair in a bun and waited til my family went to sleep.

It was already 9pm when I fought with my mom, so right now it was like 11:30 pm. My mom goes to bed at 11 o’clock. So I think it time to sneak out.

I tore a paper page from my notebook and wrote a letter to my mom.

Dear mom,

Please, I don’t want you to freak out, but I figured out you were right, Im just wasting my life doing nothing, so I think it’s time for me to do something for myself, im gonna find my destiny.

Don’t worry about me, I’ll be fine. I promise. And I will be back at least next Sunday. I love you. Xxxx

Sophia

I left the letter in my bed and got out of my room, the lights were off, and I knew she was already sleeping cause her TV was off too.

I took out my house key, and when I was about to open the door.

Fuck.

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