Will It Last?
chapter 18
Niall's POV
I still miss El. I miss her so much it's like there is a hole in my chest that can only be filled by her. She had been so happy and care free since I saw her singing. She eats with me and the boys when ever she can. She isn't even bothered by me being there she even talks to me. I don't reply and if I do then I just mumble something. I can tell Lizzy is still tense around me through like she just wants to keep slapping me. We haven't had much time to see each other though since we have been practicing soooooo much. Today was the day we would perform and I was so nervous. I always get nervous before I we go on. Lizzy goes on then us then El. I haven't seen them yet though I wonder where they are?
Just as I though that they both came skipping in singing barney. They are so weird sometimes.
"Hello boys are you guys ready?" El asked us.
"As ready as we can be. I am so nervous!" harry exclaimed.
"Me too. But I love this song and I think I will be ok." El said confidently.
"Well i'm bout to go on I will be right back." Lizzy said and walked away.
"Why does she always leave right before she goes on?" I ask.
Liam and El look at each other and chuckle.
"What come on we want to be in on the joke." Louis whined.
"She has to do a pre-stage ritual before she goes on or she freaks out." Liam explained.
"Ohh ok well I guess that makes sense." I said.
I still was trying not to look at El. It hurts. It doesn't hurt as much but it still hurts. I know I will eventually get over her and when this is over I know I will forget about her completely. As I was thinking this they called Lizzy on stage. She walked over to us and we wished her luck before she went on. She was perfect, as usual and came off gleaming. She came over and we told her she was great. She wished us luck as it was our turn to go on.
"Good luck Niall." El said to me.
"Thanks" I said and tried to smile.
"Hey what about me." Louis whined.
"Haha good luck my little carrot." she said to him and poked his nose.
Then we all left and went on stage. We were awesome and the crowd loved us too. I felt like I could fly as we came off the stage. The girl said that we were amazing. We all wished El good luck and she went on stage. No one knew what song she was gonna sing because she didn't tell us. She sang "thinking of you" by kesha. I was surprized this wasn't the type of music she usually sang but she rocked it. Except I knew that she was singing it straight at me. ( GO LISTEN TO THIS SONG YOU HAVE TO PLEASE IMA TRY TO PUT THE LINK PUT IF IT DON'T WORK GO TO YOUTUBE AND SERCH IT THANKS! P.S. THIS IS THE AUTHOR.)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xz9f9Z6QJF4
She finished and came off stage. I knew that song perfectly explained how she felt about what happened. She didn't even look at me when she came off stage. We all told her she was great, well except for me. Then we all decided to go out and celebrate.
"You guys go ahead I don't really feel like celebrating right now." I said truthfully.
"Aw fine whatever be a party pooper. Niall the party pooper!!" Louis yelled playfully trying to make me smile but it didn't work. They all said bye and left. I just walked sadly back to my room and laid on my bed. I allowed myself to cry for a bit. I just I wanted her back so much. But I really screwed up. I don't think I can fix it this time.
I still miss El. I miss her so much it's like there is a hole in my chest that can only be filled by her. She had been so happy and care free since I saw her singing. She eats with me and the boys when ever she can. She isn't even bothered by me being there she even talks to me. I don't reply and if I do then I just mumble something. I can tell Lizzy is still tense around me through like she just wants to keep slapping me. We haven't had much time to see each other though since we have been practicing soooooo much. Today was the day we would perform and I was so nervous. I always get nervous before I we go on. Lizzy goes on then us then El. I haven't seen them yet though I wonder where they are?
Just as I though that they both came skipping in singing barney. They are so weird sometimes.
"Hello boys are you guys ready?" El asked us.
"As ready as we can be. I am so nervous!" harry exclaimed.
"Me too. But I love this song and I think I will be ok." El said confidently.
"Well i'm bout to go on I will be right back." Lizzy said and walked away.
"Why does she always leave right before she goes on?" I ask.
Liam and El look at each other and chuckle.
"What come on we want to be in on the joke." Louis whined.
"She has to do a pre-stage ritual before she goes on or she freaks out." Liam explained.
"Ohh ok well I guess that makes sense." I said.
I still was trying not to look at El. It hurts. It doesn't hurt as much but it still hurts. I know I will eventually get over her and when this is over I know I will forget about her completely. As I was thinking this they called Lizzy on stage. She walked over to us and we wished her luck before she went on. She was perfect, as usual and came off gleaming. She came over and we told her she was great. She wished us luck as it was our turn to go on.
"Good luck Niall." El said to me.
"Thanks" I said and tried to smile.
"Hey what about me." Louis whined.
"Haha good luck my little carrot." she said to him and poked his nose.
Then we all left and went on stage. We were awesome and the crowd loved us too. I felt like I could fly as we came off the stage. The girl said that we were amazing. We all wished El good luck and she went on stage. No one knew what song she was gonna sing because she didn't tell us. She sang "thinking of you" by kesha. I was surprized this wasn't the type of music she usually sang but she rocked it. Except I knew that she was singing it straight at me. ( GO LISTEN TO THIS SONG YOU HAVE TO PLEASE IMA TRY TO PUT THE LINK PUT IF IT DON'T WORK GO TO YOUTUBE AND SERCH IT THANKS! P.S. THIS IS THE AUTHOR.)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xz9f9Z6QJF4
She finished and came off stage. I knew that song perfectly explained how she felt about what happened. She didn't even look at me when she came off stage. We all told her she was great, well except for me. Then we all decided to go out and celebrate.
"You guys go ahead I don't really feel like celebrating right now." I said truthfully.
"Aw fine whatever be a party pooper. Niall the party pooper!!" Louis yelled playfully trying to make me smile but it didn't work. They all said bye and left. I just walked sadly back to my room and laid on my bed. I allowed myself to cry for a bit. I just I wanted her back so much. But I really screwed up. I don't think I can fix it this time.
10/12/13