Will It Last?
chapter 17
El's POV
"How long have you been there?" I asked him. "Since you started singing you really are wonderful you now." he said slowly walking toward the stage. "I didn't ask you go away." I said watching him as he walked up the stairs and onto the stage.
"No El I won't go away this time you need to hear me out." he said now facing me on the stage.
"Then I will just leave." I said and turned around.
Seconds later he made me stop by hugging me from behind. I froze in his arms. I had to admit it felt nice to feel him hugging me again.
"Please" was all he said in my ear.
I weighed my options. I wasn't in my numb mood after singing and he knew it. I wanted to hear him out but every time we were with each other now he ended up getting slapped.
I sighed "Fine" I said and he let go and turned me to face him.
He had on the biggest smile in the world, like I just gave him a noble peace prize or something.
"Come sit." he said and started walking off the stage to the seats. I followed him and hesitantly sat next to him.
"So i'm still here talk." I said.
"Um ok well first of all i'm sorry. I was drunk and I didn't even realize what I was doing." he said.
"You're not old enough to drink though" I said instantly becoming suspicious.
"Well yeah I know I kinda did it illegally." he said ashamed and looked down.
"So yeah anyway I feel so bad El I miss you. I really do love you." he said now looking at me again.
Ug why does he have to keep saying that. If he loved me he wouldn't have slept with her. He is such a ass.
"Stop saying that it's not true." I said.
"Yes it is El. I promise. What I did with that girl it didn't mean anything, I don't even know her name." he exclaimed.
It didn't mean anything? Wow he is lower than I though. So sex doesn't mean anything for him anymore. See for me it is special. I've only done it a couple of times with a guy who I thought loved me but it ended up he just broke my heart. Apparently Niall and him have a lot in common. So this made me really angry I mean come on he couldn't even have learned her name?! Ug boys I swear they make me want to become a lesbian sometimes. But I would never do that I ain't that type. So it was no surprize when I slapped him in the face. See I told you someone he always ends up getting smacked.
"Ow" he said.
"So what sex means nothing to you?" I said.
"No no El thats not what I meant." he said trying to fix this.
"Well thats what you said so i'm glad we didn't do it." I said and got up.
"Wait El don't go" he tried.
"Bye Niall." was all I said before turning on my heels and walking away.
Dang it why did this have to hurt so much. It was like Dave all over again. And I only dated Niall for a couple of weeks. I dated Dave for 2 years! Gosh boys are worthless they always end up breaking your heart. But dang it I will not cry! I refuse to cry over him. He won't get that out of me. I should be happy that I am not wasn't with him so he couldn't hurt me more than this. And you know what I have decided to be happy. I will show him that I am over him. So I walked back to me and Lizzy's room to see her and Liam on her bed having a make out session. I cleared my throat and they jumped apart from each other.
"Umm sorry El." Liam said and looked down.
"Yeah I didn't know you would be back so soon." Lizzy said.
I could tell they were being careful around me. They were trying not to rub it in my face that they had a perfect relationship when I didn't.
"Hey it's ok you guys are in love I get it." I said and gave them a truthful smile.
Well I am being my happier self now so I don't mind. I could tell they were confused yet happy that I was being happy.
"Well i'm hungry I just came to see if Lizzy wanted to come get something to eat with me. Liam you wanna come?" I said.
"Um sure." Liam said.
So we all got up and went to the tiny cafe. When we walked in we saw Niall sitting with the other boys at a table. Lizzy immediately tensed and her hands went into fists. Liam grabbed her hand to make sure she didn't do anything stupid. I grabbed her other hand and looked at her.
"Lizzy it's ok. Calm down." I said.
She looked at me funny like she expected me to be upset too.
"But he, aren't you mad?" she asked me.
"Nope its ok Lizzy." I said.
"Ok?" she said and relaxed with a confused expression.
We all walked up and got some really yummy looking food.
"So theres a free table." Liam said.
He looked at the other boys table for a second with longing in his eyes. I could tell he wanted to sit with his friends but wouldn't leave Lizzy and izzy wouldn't leave me.
"No." I said.
"What? then where do you want to sit." Liam asked me while him and Lizzy looked at me with confused expressions. I just walked over to the other boys table and sat down across from Harry. Liam and Lizzy trailed behind me still confused.
"Hi boys. Hi Niall." I said giving them all a huge smile just as Liam and Lizzy sat next to me.
They all mumbled hi's back clearly confused as why I chose to sit here.
"I hope you don't mind us sitting here." I said still smiling.
"No no not at all. You guys are always welcome we missed you!" Louis exclaimed.
"I missed you too my little carrot." I said to him.
Of course even I watched their video diary's. Everyone does. So he is now my little carrot.
We ate and talked the whole time. No one asked about why I wanted to sit there but I could tell they were all happy that the normal me was back. But I don't know about Niall. His face was still a little red from when I slapped it but it was fading. He didn't talk at all throughout the whole time and when we were done he just got up and left. He didn't eat anything either. Well whatever it's not my problem any more.
"How long have you been there?" I asked him. "Since you started singing you really are wonderful you now." he said slowly walking toward the stage. "I didn't ask you go away." I said watching him as he walked up the stairs and onto the stage.
"No El I won't go away this time you need to hear me out." he said now facing me on the stage.
"Then I will just leave." I said and turned around.
Seconds later he made me stop by hugging me from behind. I froze in his arms. I had to admit it felt nice to feel him hugging me again.
"Please" was all he said in my ear.
I weighed my options. I wasn't in my numb mood after singing and he knew it. I wanted to hear him out but every time we were with each other now he ended up getting slapped.
I sighed "Fine" I said and he let go and turned me to face him.
He had on the biggest smile in the world, like I just gave him a noble peace prize or something.
"Come sit." he said and started walking off the stage to the seats. I followed him and hesitantly sat next to him.
"So i'm still here talk." I said.
"Um ok well first of all i'm sorry. I was drunk and I didn't even realize what I was doing." he said.
"You're not old enough to drink though" I said instantly becoming suspicious.
"Well yeah I know I kinda did it illegally." he said ashamed and looked down.
"So yeah anyway I feel so bad El I miss you. I really do love you." he said now looking at me again.
Ug why does he have to keep saying that. If he loved me he wouldn't have slept with her. He is such a ass.
"Stop saying that it's not true." I said.
"Yes it is El. I promise. What I did with that girl it didn't mean anything, I don't even know her name." he exclaimed.
It didn't mean anything? Wow he is lower than I though. So sex doesn't mean anything for him anymore. See for me it is special. I've only done it a couple of times with a guy who I thought loved me but it ended up he just broke my heart. Apparently Niall and him have a lot in common. So this made me really angry I mean come on he couldn't even have learned her name?! Ug boys I swear they make me want to become a lesbian sometimes. But I would never do that I ain't that type. So it was no surprize when I slapped him in the face. See I told you someone he always ends up getting smacked.
"Ow" he said.
"So what sex means nothing to you?" I said.
"No no El thats not what I meant." he said trying to fix this.
"Well thats what you said so i'm glad we didn't do it." I said and got up.
"Wait El don't go" he tried.
"Bye Niall." was all I said before turning on my heels and walking away.
Dang it why did this have to hurt so much. It was like Dave all over again. And I only dated Niall for a couple of weeks. I dated Dave for 2 years! Gosh boys are worthless they always end up breaking your heart. But dang it I will not cry! I refuse to cry over him. He won't get that out of me. I should be happy that I am not wasn't with him so he couldn't hurt me more than this. And you know what I have decided to be happy. I will show him that I am over him. So I walked back to me and Lizzy's room to see her and Liam on her bed having a make out session. I cleared my throat and they jumped apart from each other.
"Umm sorry El." Liam said and looked down.
"Yeah I didn't know you would be back so soon." Lizzy said.
I could tell they were being careful around me. They were trying not to rub it in my face that they had a perfect relationship when I didn't.
"Hey it's ok you guys are in love I get it." I said and gave them a truthful smile.
Well I am being my happier self now so I don't mind. I could tell they were confused yet happy that I was being happy.
"Well i'm hungry I just came to see if Lizzy wanted to come get something to eat with me. Liam you wanna come?" I said.
"Um sure." Liam said.
So we all got up and went to the tiny cafe. When we walked in we saw Niall sitting with the other boys at a table. Lizzy immediately tensed and her hands went into fists. Liam grabbed her hand to make sure she didn't do anything stupid. I grabbed her other hand and looked at her.
"Lizzy it's ok. Calm down." I said.
She looked at me funny like she expected me to be upset too.
"But he, aren't you mad?" she asked me.
"Nope its ok Lizzy." I said.
"Ok?" she said and relaxed with a confused expression.
We all walked up and got some really yummy looking food.
"So theres a free table." Liam said.
He looked at the other boys table for a second with longing in his eyes. I could tell he wanted to sit with his friends but wouldn't leave Lizzy and izzy wouldn't leave me.
"No." I said.
"What? then where do you want to sit." Liam asked me while him and Lizzy looked at me with confused expressions. I just walked over to the other boys table and sat down across from Harry. Liam and Lizzy trailed behind me still confused.
"Hi boys. Hi Niall." I said giving them all a huge smile just as Liam and Lizzy sat next to me.
They all mumbled hi's back clearly confused as why I chose to sit here.
"I hope you don't mind us sitting here." I said still smiling.
"No no not at all. You guys are always welcome we missed you!" Louis exclaimed.
"I missed you too my little carrot." I said to him.
Of course even I watched their video diary's. Everyone does. So he is now my little carrot.
We ate and talked the whole time. No one asked about why I wanted to sit there but I could tell they were all happy that the normal me was back. But I don't know about Niall. His face was still a little red from when I slapped it but it was fading. He didn't talk at all throughout the whole time and when we were done he just got up and left. He didn't eat anything either. Well whatever it's not my problem any more.
10/12/13