Will It Last?
chapter 14
Niall's POV
I knew that things would be bad when I saw El but I never thought she would flip out that much. She said that she loved me. Loved me as in past tense. My heart was broken. I love her so much. I can't believe I was stupid enough to do that to her. God I don't deserve her. She gave me a dvd and I didn't even look at till I was in the car waiting for the other boys. It says, this is how much I love you El!. I don't know what it is or why she gave it to me but I had a bad felling about it. The others boys came and got in the car. "Are you ok mate what was that about?" Zayn asked me. I didn't answer him I just looked out the window. I literally felt like my heart had just shattered into a billion pieces inside me and the piece were stabbing every other part of my body. I didn't even realized that I had started to cry. The pain in my cheek from El and Lizzy slapping me didn't even register. When we got there I found out where our room was and was there in a instant. I threw my bags down and thankfully there was a tv with a dvd player in the room. The boys had just now come in and were watching me hesitantly. "Niall what are you doing." Zayn asked me. "She gave this to me I have to see what it is. I have a really bad feeling about this." I said and went to put in the dvd. I sat on the couch and the other boys came to join me. A voice suddenly came on. You could tell that it had been through one of those voice changer things. "Here is how much I love you El." the voice said. Then it showed a picture of me and the blond girl from the other night. I could tell this wasn't gonna be good. Then it showed me and the girl grinding. "And here is what really happened." the voice said again. At first it just showed a bedroom. Then two people walked in. The girl had her legs wrapped around the guy and the were making out. Then the guy threw her on the bed. But when he did that you saw his face. It was me. That girl video tapped us. I was frozen I couldn't move. I was pretty sure I knew what we would see after that. Suddenly Liam paused the video and took the dvd out. He snapped in half and threw it away. I was still frozen on the couch. "Niall how could you do that to her." Harry asked me. I didn't reply. "Niall you need to tell her you are sorry. " Liam said. "She she doesn't want to see me. I don't blame her I wouldn't want to see me either. " I said. "If you call her you know she won't answer. So Niall text her she might read it." Zayn said. "O-ok" I said and grabbed my phone and started texting her.
El i'm so sorry I didn't mean to hurt you.
Please El just talk to me please. I didn't
mean for it to happen it just kinda did
please don't leave me. El I need you I
I love you. Please I know I am a ass and a jerk
and a bastard. But please take me back
I promise I won't ever hurt you again please El.
At least talk to me. xxNiallxx
I presses send and I hoped that she would read it. About 2 minutes later my phone started to ring. It was her. I tried not to get my hopes up as I grabbed my phone. "Fuck you. Stop texting her. Don't call don't text don't even look at her you filthy piece of shit. We both hate you and the ground you walk on so just leave her alone!" I heard Lizzy say on the other end and the hang up. I was stupid for thinking El would actually call me. She hated me and it was all my fault. I removed the phone from my ear and just looked at. I slipped on my shoes and got up and left. I didn't know where I was going I just knew I had to leave. I heard the boys calling after me but I ignored them. I just walked aimlessly around the building for a hour or so. I knew I couldn't go to El and Lizzy's room even though I really wanted to. I wanted to go and just take El into my arms and make all of the pain go away. But I couldn't because I was the one that caused that pain. I eventually went back to my room and I saw that the boys had stayed up waiting for me but I didn't care. I just went and laid in my bed. I was numb I couldn't really feel anything anymore. I heard them trying to talk to me but I just ignored them. I just wanted this to be a dream. I wanted to wake up tomorrow and be able to hold El's hand and walk to break fast. Then she would laugh at how much I ate. I felt tears run dowm my face. I didn't even bother to wipe them off. I eventually feel asleep thinking of El.
I knew that things would be bad when I saw El but I never thought she would flip out that much. She said that she loved me. Loved me as in past tense. My heart was broken. I love her so much. I can't believe I was stupid enough to do that to her. God I don't deserve her. She gave me a dvd and I didn't even look at till I was in the car waiting for the other boys. It says, this is how much I love you El!. I don't know what it is or why she gave it to me but I had a bad felling about it. The others boys came and got in the car. "Are you ok mate what was that about?" Zayn asked me. I didn't answer him I just looked out the window. I literally felt like my heart had just shattered into a billion pieces inside me and the piece were stabbing every other part of my body. I didn't even realized that I had started to cry. The pain in my cheek from El and Lizzy slapping me didn't even register. When we got there I found out where our room was and was there in a instant. I threw my bags down and thankfully there was a tv with a dvd player in the room. The boys had just now come in and were watching me hesitantly. "Niall what are you doing." Zayn asked me. "She gave this to me I have to see what it is. I have a really bad feeling about this." I said and went to put in the dvd. I sat on the couch and the other boys came to join me. A voice suddenly came on. You could tell that it had been through one of those voice changer things. "Here is how much I love you El." the voice said. Then it showed a picture of me and the blond girl from the other night. I could tell this wasn't gonna be good. Then it showed me and the girl grinding. "And here is what really happened." the voice said again. At first it just showed a bedroom. Then two people walked in. The girl had her legs wrapped around the guy and the were making out. Then the guy threw her on the bed. But when he did that you saw his face. It was me. That girl video tapped us. I was frozen I couldn't move. I was pretty sure I knew what we would see after that. Suddenly Liam paused the video and took the dvd out. He snapped in half and threw it away. I was still frozen on the couch. "Niall how could you do that to her." Harry asked me. I didn't reply. "Niall you need to tell her you are sorry. " Liam said. "She she doesn't want to see me. I don't blame her I wouldn't want to see me either. " I said. "If you call her you know she won't answer. So Niall text her she might read it." Zayn said. "O-ok" I said and grabbed my phone and started texting her.
El i'm so sorry I didn't mean to hurt you.
Please El just talk to me please. I didn't
mean for it to happen it just kinda did
please don't leave me. El I need you I
I love you. Please I know I am a ass and a jerk
and a bastard. But please take me back
I promise I won't ever hurt you again please El.
At least talk to me. xxNiallxx
I presses send and I hoped that she would read it. About 2 minutes later my phone started to ring. It was her. I tried not to get my hopes up as I grabbed my phone. "Fuck you. Stop texting her. Don't call don't text don't even look at her you filthy piece of shit. We both hate you and the ground you walk on so just leave her alone!" I heard Lizzy say on the other end and the hang up. I was stupid for thinking El would actually call me. She hated me and it was all my fault. I removed the phone from my ear and just looked at. I slipped on my shoes and got up and left. I didn't know where I was going I just knew I had to leave. I heard the boys calling after me but I ignored them. I just walked aimlessly around the building for a hour or so. I knew I couldn't go to El and Lizzy's room even though I really wanted to. I wanted to go and just take El into my arms and make all of the pain go away. But I couldn't because I was the one that caused that pain. I eventually went back to my room and I saw that the boys had stayed up waiting for me but I didn't care. I just went and laid in my bed. I was numb I couldn't really feel anything anymore. I heard them trying to talk to me but I just ignored them. I just wanted this to be a dream. I wanted to wake up tomorrow and be able to hold El's hand and walk to break fast. Then she would laugh at how much I ate. I felt tears run dowm my face. I didn't even bother to wipe them off. I eventually feel asleep thinking of El.
10/12/13