
I Can't Help It
Chapter 22.
I woke up on Monday dreading today. I had to see Harry at school. It tears me apart knowing I hurt him. I didn't mean to. It wasnt a date. I was just out with a friend. Yes, I lied but that's because I didn't want Harry to suspect anything when I told him I was going out with Andy.
I flipped my covers off my body and made my way to my closet.
•••
" Who shit in your cornflakes this morning?"
I turned around to see Sandy with a puzzled expression on my face.
" What are you talking about?" I asked.
" seriously M? I can tell when your upset." She said.
" Yeah well I'm not."
I brushed past her and into first hour. I sat down and she quickly followed.
" What happened?"
" Nothing. Why do you think something happened?"
Before she could reply, Andy came up to my desk.
" Hey Maria." He said.
" Hey."
I really wanted him to walk away.
" I had fun Friday."
I didn't.
" Me too."
" We should do it again sometime?" He asked.
" For sure. Just text me when." I forced a smile. He bought it, and smiled back.
" Will do. See ya Maria." He turned and walked to his desk.
" Oh my gosh!" Sandy squealed.
" What."
" How come you never told me you went out on a date with Andy."
" It wasnt a date!" My voice rose, and a couple people turned around and looked at me.
" You all can turn around now." I shooed them with my hands. They faced back to the front with puzzled looks on their face. Just then Mr. Styles walked into the class room. My heart broke a little when I saw him. He looked just as beautiful as always. As if nothing ever happened. He skimmed the classroom, his eyes never meeting mine like they usually do.
" Open to page 430. You got a question packet to answer." He said. The whole class groaned as they pulled out their English books.
After working and and doing the packet after a while I realized I really had to pee. I looked up at Harry and saw he had his head down in work. The class was completely quiet, everyone working on their work. I gulped, the feeling coming again. I took a deep breath, before standing up and walking to his desk.
" May I use the bathroom?" I whispered. Harry looked up, and when his eyes met mine, I saw no emotion.
" Hold it."
He looked back down.
" Please? It's an emergency." I said. He sighed and slammed a pass on his desk.
" Hurry."
I took it and left the classroom and down the hall. When I got to the bathroom I did my business and washed my hands before leaning on the sink and looking at myself in the mirror. I looked terrible. No wonder Sandy asked what's wrong. I remember how emotionless Harry was when he looked me in the eye. How could he? My eyes started to sting and I realized a tear was rolling down my cheek until I quickly wiped it away and stormed out of the bathroom.
• Harry's pov •
I looked up as I heard the door open. It was Maria. She set the pass on my desk, not looking at me before heading back to her desk. Her face was red. I could tell she had been crying in the bathroom. It broke my heart as I watched Andy smile at her when she sat down. She smiled back and looked down at her wok. She really did ditch me for him. How could she? She lied. What she and Andy had done at the movies was past my knowledge, so I don't know if they made any physical contact. But no matter how many times she denied it being a date, she still lied. And now she was free. Free to go out with Andy.
I still don't understand why she couldn't have told me. I would have understood that she just wanted to hang out with him.
The bell rang and I watched her gather her things and leave. Andy caught up to her as she made it to the door way and she smiled at him as they walked out laughing about something. Her smile wasnt genuine. I could tell you that.
I flipped my covers off my body and made my way to my closet.
•••
" Who shit in your cornflakes this morning?"
I turned around to see Sandy with a puzzled expression on my face.
" What are you talking about?" I asked.
" seriously M? I can tell when your upset." She said.
" Yeah well I'm not."
I brushed past her and into first hour. I sat down and she quickly followed.
" What happened?"
" Nothing. Why do you think something happened?"
Before she could reply, Andy came up to my desk.
" Hey Maria." He said.
" Hey."
I really wanted him to walk away.
" I had fun Friday."
I didn't.
" Me too."
" We should do it again sometime?" He asked.
" For sure. Just text me when." I forced a smile. He bought it, and smiled back.
" Will do. See ya Maria." He turned and walked to his desk.
" Oh my gosh!" Sandy squealed.
" What."
" How come you never told me you went out on a date with Andy."
" It wasnt a date!" My voice rose, and a couple people turned around and looked at me.
" You all can turn around now." I shooed them with my hands. They faced back to the front with puzzled looks on their face. Just then Mr. Styles walked into the class room. My heart broke a little when I saw him. He looked just as beautiful as always. As if nothing ever happened. He skimmed the classroom, his eyes never meeting mine like they usually do.
" Open to page 430. You got a question packet to answer." He said. The whole class groaned as they pulled out their English books.
After working and and doing the packet after a while I realized I really had to pee. I looked up at Harry and saw he had his head down in work. The class was completely quiet, everyone working on their work. I gulped, the feeling coming again. I took a deep breath, before standing up and walking to his desk.
" May I use the bathroom?" I whispered. Harry looked up, and when his eyes met mine, I saw no emotion.
" Hold it."
He looked back down.
" Please? It's an emergency." I said. He sighed and slammed a pass on his desk.
" Hurry."
I took it and left the classroom and down the hall. When I got to the bathroom I did my business and washed my hands before leaning on the sink and looking at myself in the mirror. I looked terrible. No wonder Sandy asked what's wrong. I remember how emotionless Harry was when he looked me in the eye. How could he? My eyes started to sting and I realized a tear was rolling down my cheek until I quickly wiped it away and stormed out of the bathroom.
• Harry's pov •
I looked up as I heard the door open. It was Maria. She set the pass on my desk, not looking at me before heading back to her desk. Her face was red. I could tell she had been crying in the bathroom. It broke my heart as I watched Andy smile at her when she sat down. She smiled back and looked down at her wok. She really did ditch me for him. How could she? She lied. What she and Andy had done at the movies was past my knowledge, so I don't know if they made any physical contact. But no matter how many times she denied it being a date, she still lied. And now she was free. Free to go out with Andy.
I still don't understand why she couldn't have told me. I would have understood that she just wanted to hang out with him.
The bell rang and I watched her gather her things and leave. Andy caught up to her as she made it to the door way and she smiled at him as they walked out laughing about something. Her smile wasnt genuine. I could tell you that.
Notes
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