Perfectly Imperfect

hey guys maria here again coming to u with chapter 2 yay anywho i was really hoping to get more reads and stuff and maybe even comments pretty please tell me how u feel about this book truthfully dont say oh its really good update because i dont fall for that type of crap i mean serouisly tell me the truth anywho sorry if there are any mistakes i will edit them when i have the chance. thanxs again.

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Its been two weeks. Two whole weeks since i started cutting myself i have scars on both my arms now. Louis still thinks i havent been cutting but i know sooner or later hell find out. My brother Harry yes as in Harry Styles the most popular guy in school sisters wit the most pathetic girl in school. He is ashamed to have me as a sister. I know because he told me that straight to my face.

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" I hate you harry so much give me my phone back u always ruin my chances when i want to go on a date.

"Shut the hell up hes just gonna leave u anyways shit i bet u hes glad u aint his sister because i sure as hell am not glad to be ur brother ur worthless trash" with that he threw my phone to the floor and smashed it i hate him so much is all that went threw my head.

Flashack ends****

I didnt realize a tear fell until it hit my journal that layed infront of me.I looked down i hadnt realized i was writing at the top it said

SUICIDAL LETTER

then the words i didnt even know where there i reread them over and over but it stopped halfway this is what it said.

Dear mum,dad,everyone,

Im sorry. At least i think i am . Im not sure what i feel right now. I feel......NUMB or maybe its my sliced wrist. You probably werent expecting this... or maybe you were. But yeah, Mum. Im sorry for not eing the perfect daughter you wanted. Dad, Im sorry for breaking your promises.........All of them. Im sorry for everything Iput u both through I guess Ill move onto my friend now. Zayn,Thank you for making me laugh and forget things even for 5 seconds. Thanxs for being like another older bro-

And thats when it stopped it was true the letter was true. Everything was true im not a perfect daughter and i broke all my dads promises and well Louis i disobeyed him and well he is like my older brother hes there when i need him threw hard times and i love him for that.

The past days at school more hate keeps coming. More names. More pushing me up against my locker and the funny thing is my brother is there and he watches and laughs at my weakness so i hate him dearly and i do hope he knows that.

I was walking down the hallway and all i see are people staring at me laughing shouting words from one ear i hear them shouting.

"cunt"

"slut"

"whore"

bitch" from the other i hear them say.

"ur beautiful"

"dont worry there worthless"

"stand up for whats right" But i was wrong none of those words were coming to me it was my IMAGINATION. why does everyone hate me i thought."because your a worthless piece off trash your brother even said so"that stupid sub concious, sometimes i wish that she can dissapear and go into someone elses head. but no shes stuck with me for my entire life. I ignore the rude comments and walked to my locker. Just to be pushed up against it my bully Nathaniel.

"hello there rebecca how has my bitch been" he spit in my face.

"thank you" i said he looked confused

"bitch is a dog,dogs bark, bark is on trees, trees are nature, and nature is beautiful thanxs for the compliment" ....wow wat the fuck was that please tell that did not come out of my mouth but it did i was scared. his hand connected to my face a stinging sensation come across the spot where there was soon to be a bruise i fell on the floor from the impact he started kicking me in my stomach.

" Thats enough" someone growled but Nathaniel didnt care he kept kicking me i knew there were going to be bruises everywhere.

"I SAID THATS ENOUGH!" the voice yelled pulling Nathaniel off of me i started crying everybody didnt seem to care why would they im a loser. I looked up to see who it was i couldnt believe my eyes why the fuck would he

SAVE ME

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