Something Hard To Find (Harry Styles
Senior Year.
I'm not one of the populars. I doubt anyone knows who I am at school. I go to Bridgevale High, also known as TORTURE.
~Cambrilynn~
First day of senior year. Time for eight more months of invisibility. Great! I'm sitting on my bed already dressed for school. I have my song journal out, writing a new song.
(Original: Everything Goes Black by Skillet)
Chasing these shadows around this darkened room
I've laid here so long I don;t even want to move
I need a minute now to heal
I need a minute now to remember how to feel
Whenever you're gone away
The darkness hides the day
Whenever you're gone the bleeding won't stop
It hurts till you come back
Everything goes black
Everything goes black
I close my book and place it in my bag, heading downstairs to say goodbye to my mom and sister, then walk out the door,pulling down my long sleeves while I walk to school.
_____
I make it to school and place my books in my locker, and look at my schedule for my first class. Advanced History. Great. I make my way to the third floor and to the advanced history room. I've had the same teacher for advanced history for four years. I've always sat in the back of the room. As I make my way to my usual seat, I see that a boy is sitting in it. I walk closer to him, and as he looks up I am greeted with curly hair and sparkling green eyes. He looks at me. "May I help you?" he asks.
"Oh, ummm. That's the seat I usually sit in... But it's okay I'll just sit in this one." I say, sliding into the desk next to him, trying not to make eye contact. I see him staring at me through the corner of my eye, but he remains quiet. I close my eyes, feeling an asthma attack starting. I jump when I feel a hand touch my shoulder. I open my eyes to see none other than those emerald green eyes looking at me concerned.
"Are you all right?" he asks me, his eyebrows furrowing in confusion.
"Yeah." I say, out of breath. "Just dandy."
"Are you sure? I'm Harry by the way."
"Yeah... I'm Cambrilynn."
"That's a pretty name."
"Thanks." I say, and turn away from him as the bell rings. I pull my song bookout of my bag and go back to the song I was writing this morning, thinking of more lyrics. After about five minutes, the next verse comes to me.
I reached out for you when I needed you to be here
All alone chasing these shadows
I don't want the pain, but I'd rather hurt than not care
It's so long, you've been away from here
I need a reason now to hear
I need something to believe in
I need a reason now to remember how to feel
Whenever you're gone away
The darkness hides the day
Whenever you're gone, the bleeding won't stop
It hurts till you come back
Everything goes black
Everything goes black
As I'm about to write the next verse, I get interrupted by harry. "What's that?"
"Nothing." I say as i struggle to put it away, turning my attention back to the lesson.
~~~~~ skipping to the last period of the day~~~~~~~
I walk into eighth period, music. I take my seat at the front of the class and pull out my book again. I start to think of more lyrics for my song, when the teacher interrupts.
"Class, I'd like for you to welcome your new classmate, Harry Styles. You can sit next to Ms. Henderson." I watch as Harry comes and sits next to me for the second time today, then turn my attention back to the teacher. "The first assignment for you all is to write a song. It can be about anything. I trust you all to finish it by the end of class, and be able to share your lyrics and their meaning in front of the class by the end of the period. Get started!"
I figured I would just use the song i'm writing now. I go back to thinking about more lyrics.
Give me something to believe in
I still believe in you
But if you're never here and I'm left alone
Tell me what am I supposed to say
Whenever you're gone away
The darkness hides the day
Whenever you're gone, the bleeding won't stop
It hurts till you come back
Everything goes black
Everything goes black
Everything goes black
Whenever you're gone everything goes black.
Finished. I wait till everyone is finished and the teacher starts calling people up. "Cambrilynn, how about you go first?"
"Sure" I walk uo to the front of the room and read my lyrics, and when I finish I start to explain them. "I wrote this song about my older brother. He's in the army, and I wrote it to express how I feel when he's overseas and I worry everyday about him." I continue telling about my song, and when i finish, I look up to see people who don't care, who are all on their phones, and my expression drops. Until I see Harry. Who has a tear in his eye. I walk back to my seat quietly.
"That was beautiful" Harry says to me.
"Thanks. I think you're the only person to ever listen to my lyrics and understand their meaning." I say,giving him a warm smiile. We sit there and listen to everyone elses, and Harry gets called up last.
He walks up to the front of the room."My song is called Good To Be Alive"(originally by skillet)
When all you got are broken dreams
Just need a second chance
And everything you want to be
Gets taken from your hands
We hold onto each other
All we have is all we need
Because one way or another
We always thank it’s you and me
This life could almost kill ya
When you’re trying to survive
It’s good to be here with ya
And it’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
I was lost and I was gone
I was almost dead inside
You and me against the world
It’s a beautiful night
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
Driving down this highway
Soaking up the sun
Got miles to go before we get home
And the journey’s just begun
We hold onto each other
You are everything I need
You feel like forever
You’re a second chance for me
This life could almost kill ya
When you’re trying to survive
It’s good to be here with ya
And it’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
I was lost and I was gone
I was almost dead inside
You and me against the world
It’s a beautiful night
It’s good to be alive
It’s beautiful night
Yeah, it’s all right
It’s good to be alive
This life could almost kill ya
When you’re trying to survive
It’s good to be here with ya
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
And it’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
I was lost and I was gone
I was almost dead inside
You and me against the world
It’s a beautiful night
It’s good to be alive
It’s beautiful night
Yeah, it’s all right
It’s good to be alive
"Yeah.. I don;t really have a reason why I wrote it. It just came to me." He said and came back to his seat.
"Wow, that was really good." I said to him.
"Thanks" We turned our head to the teacher.
"One last thing everybody, for the next month you will be partnered up with the person next to you to come up with a song together, and sing it for the class. That is all" I look over at Harry.
"Looks like were stuck together." I say, as we gather our stuff and head out of the building. 'Wanna come to my house so we can get started?" I ask him.
"Sure"
"Okay, it's a five minute walk, so let's get going." I say, and we start the walk to my house.
~Cambrilynn~
First day of senior year. Time for eight more months of invisibility. Great! I'm sitting on my bed already dressed for school. I have my song journal out, writing a new song.
(Original: Everything Goes Black by Skillet)
Chasing these shadows around this darkened room
I've laid here so long I don;t even want to move
I need a minute now to heal
I need a minute now to remember how to feel
Whenever you're gone away
The darkness hides the day
Whenever you're gone the bleeding won't stop
It hurts till you come back
Everything goes black
Everything goes black
I close my book and place it in my bag, heading downstairs to say goodbye to my mom and sister, then walk out the door,pulling down my long sleeves while I walk to school.
_____
I make it to school and place my books in my locker, and look at my schedule for my first class. Advanced History. Great. I make my way to the third floor and to the advanced history room. I've had the same teacher for advanced history for four years. I've always sat in the back of the room. As I make my way to my usual seat, I see that a boy is sitting in it. I walk closer to him, and as he looks up I am greeted with curly hair and sparkling green eyes. He looks at me. "May I help you?" he asks.
"Oh, ummm. That's the seat I usually sit in... But it's okay I'll just sit in this one." I say, sliding into the desk next to him, trying not to make eye contact. I see him staring at me through the corner of my eye, but he remains quiet. I close my eyes, feeling an asthma attack starting. I jump when I feel a hand touch my shoulder. I open my eyes to see none other than those emerald green eyes looking at me concerned.
"Are you all right?" he asks me, his eyebrows furrowing in confusion.
"Yeah." I say, out of breath. "Just dandy."
"Are you sure? I'm Harry by the way."
"Yeah... I'm Cambrilynn."
"That's a pretty name."
"Thanks." I say, and turn away from him as the bell rings. I pull my song bookout of my bag and go back to the song I was writing this morning, thinking of more lyrics. After about five minutes, the next verse comes to me.
I reached out for you when I needed you to be here
All alone chasing these shadows
I don't want the pain, but I'd rather hurt than not care
It's so long, you've been away from here
I need a reason now to hear
I need something to believe in
I need a reason now to remember how to feel
Whenever you're gone away
The darkness hides the day
Whenever you're gone, the bleeding won't stop
It hurts till you come back
Everything goes black
Everything goes black
As I'm about to write the next verse, I get interrupted by harry. "What's that?"
"Nothing." I say as i struggle to put it away, turning my attention back to the lesson.
~~~~~ skipping to the last period of the day~~~~~~~
I walk into eighth period, music. I take my seat at the front of the class and pull out my book again. I start to think of more lyrics for my song, when the teacher interrupts.
"Class, I'd like for you to welcome your new classmate, Harry Styles. You can sit next to Ms. Henderson." I watch as Harry comes and sits next to me for the second time today, then turn my attention back to the teacher. "The first assignment for you all is to write a song. It can be about anything. I trust you all to finish it by the end of class, and be able to share your lyrics and their meaning in front of the class by the end of the period. Get started!"
I figured I would just use the song i'm writing now. I go back to thinking about more lyrics.
Give me something to believe in
I still believe in you
But if you're never here and I'm left alone
Tell me what am I supposed to say
Whenever you're gone away
The darkness hides the day
Whenever you're gone, the bleeding won't stop
It hurts till you come back
Everything goes black
Everything goes black
Everything goes black
Whenever you're gone everything goes black.
Finished. I wait till everyone is finished and the teacher starts calling people up. "Cambrilynn, how about you go first?"
"Sure" I walk uo to the front of the room and read my lyrics, and when I finish I start to explain them. "I wrote this song about my older brother. He's in the army, and I wrote it to express how I feel when he's overseas and I worry everyday about him." I continue telling about my song, and when i finish, I look up to see people who don't care, who are all on their phones, and my expression drops. Until I see Harry. Who has a tear in his eye. I walk back to my seat quietly.
"That was beautiful" Harry says to me.
"Thanks. I think you're the only person to ever listen to my lyrics and understand their meaning." I say,giving him a warm smiile. We sit there and listen to everyone elses, and Harry gets called up last.
He walks up to the front of the room."My song is called Good To Be Alive"(originally by skillet)
When all you got are broken dreams
Just need a second chance
And everything you want to be
Gets taken from your hands
We hold onto each other
All we have is all we need
Because one way or another
We always thank it’s you and me
This life could almost kill ya
When you’re trying to survive
It’s good to be here with ya
And it’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
I was lost and I was gone
I was almost dead inside
You and me against the world
It’s a beautiful night
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
Driving down this highway
Soaking up the sun
Got miles to go before we get home
And the journey’s just begun
We hold onto each other
You are everything I need
You feel like forever
You’re a second chance for me
This life could almost kill ya
When you’re trying to survive
It’s good to be here with ya
And it’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
I was lost and I was gone
I was almost dead inside
You and me against the world
It’s a beautiful night
It’s good to be alive
It’s beautiful night
Yeah, it’s all right
It’s good to be alive
This life could almost kill ya
When you’re trying to survive
It’s good to be here with ya
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
And it’s good to be alive
It’s good to be alive
I was lost and I was gone
I was almost dead inside
You and me against the world
It’s a beautiful night
It’s good to be alive
It’s beautiful night
Yeah, it’s all right
It’s good to be alive
"Yeah.. I don;t really have a reason why I wrote it. It just came to me." He said and came back to his seat.
"Wow, that was really good." I said to him.
"Thanks" We turned our head to the teacher.
"One last thing everybody, for the next month you will be partnered up with the person next to you to come up with a song together, and sing it for the class. That is all" I look over at Harry.
"Looks like were stuck together." I say, as we gather our stuff and head out of the building. 'Wanna come to my house so we can get started?" I ask him.
"Sure"
"Okay, it's a five minute walk, so let's get going." I say, and we start the walk to my house.
7/31/13