Kiss Me

Niall's POV
"Hey Charming," Junie mumbles as I stand up from my bed. I look at her in awe. I didn't think she wanted to see me. I need to apologize. I need to apologize before I lose her forever.
"Junie, I'm-" I start, then a sob catches in my throat. I swallow it down. "I'm so sorry. I'm so so sorry. June. I can't believe myself for what I did." As I say this, I slowly make my way over to her. Her face scrunches up as she fights back the tears I let fall. She ducks my gaze and looks at her feet. I hear her take a shaky breath.
"Juniper, I love you so much," I say, letting the immensity of my desperation seep into my voice and tears. She looks up at me briefly and I see she is crying now, too. I reach for her, but then think better of it and let my arm drop back down to my side.
"I love you too much to lose you because I was a stupid asshole at the bar," I say. She meets my gaze and surprisingly didn't look away, so I continue, "I didn't go to the bar with the intention of cheating. I just wanted a drink. But I got drunk pretty quickly. The girl started talking to me, and to be nice I talked back. She kissed me and my drunk mind took over while my sober mind screamed at me to pull away. I did just that-- after a while I mean-- I pulled back because I realized what I was doing." Junie begins to cry harder and looks down again.
Desperate to meet her beautiful eyes again, I drop to my knees in front of her and grab her hands. She has no choice but to look at me now, groveling at her feet.
"I love you more than I can bear," I say again. Her hands start to shake and I grasp them tighter. "I can't live without you. All these years I never had a girlfriend because all I wanted was you. I wanted to be with you, but I was a coward. I was scared you'd turn me down and I'd lose our friendship. I was afraid I'd end up without you. If I couldn't have you, I'd rather be alone, because nobody compares to you. You are perfect. You are my happily ever after. You are my princess. And I promise, if you give me another chance, I will be better than the Princes in fairytales for you."
She starts crying harder and her knees collapse under her. I brace her as she falls until she's on her knees in front of me, puffy eye to puffy eye, heartbreak to heartbreak. She meets my eyes and I can see how much I broke her. I see the little bit of trust she has left for me fighting from being crushed. I can see how much she loves me, but how hurt she is to see passed it.
"I want so badly to forgive you, Ni," She says as she sobs, gripping my hands like she thinks I'll disappear. "I want to forgive you and crawl into your lap and fall asleep there. But I'm so hurt. I'm so hurt it feels like my heart might give out. I'm not only mad at you, I'm mad at myself, too."
I gather her into me and hold her against me as she sobs into my chest. Her weak arms wrap around me like a vice and I rock her gently as my tears stain her beautiful blonde hair.
"Why on earth would you be mad at yourself, June?" I ask as she shudders. "You didn't do anything wrong, my love."
"I was stubborn and didn't end our fight. If I had, you wouldn't have had to go out and drink too much, and then you wouldn't have miss-thought and made the mistake you did. I am partially at fault for this," She says and I grip her tighter. That is so like her, to think she had anything to do with the breaking of her own heart. She is a saint.
"Junie, you did nothing wrong. I should have apologized for the fight but I was just as stubborn as you. Therefore the only issue at hand is my drinking problem and stupid decisions," I say and she chuckles sadly, pulling back a little.
"You did make a dumb decision," She says, meeting my eyes again. I sigh at their beaut. She has been crying nonstop since last night, and she still looks absolutely beautiful.
"Can you forgive me?" I ask, placing my hand on her cheek and rubbing it with my thumb, swiping away some of the tears. "I love you so much."
She sighs and smiles playfully. "Yeah I guess I can. You made a dumb decision, Charming. One that I shouldn't be so lenient on forgiving. But because I know you-- and I mean really know you, right down to your core-- I know you are better than the man you were last night. And that better man deserves a second chance."
I smile so widely I think my face might split in half. Junie mirrors my appearance as happy tears replace our sad ones. I wrap my left arm behind her back and place my right one on the side of her head. I pull her face closer, so our lips merely brush. She leans in more, but I pull back, smirking.
"Ni?" She whimpers, pulling back slightly to look into my eyes.
My thumb rubs over her cheek again as I say, "Ask me."
"Kiss me," She says breathlessly. I don't hesitate to close the gap.
The kiss is magical. It says everything we aren't able to put into words. It rebuilds our bond together. It resets the trust, and supports the love. Her mouth tastes like salty tears and broken love, and I kiss her harder to try and make it better.
When we finally pull back, we are both panting slightly. Our cheeks are flushed and our eyes swollen, but I don't think we could be more beautiful together than we are right now. I mean, maybe we could. Like on our wedding day someday. . .
Junie's stomach growls, breaking my thoughts, and we both start laughing.
"Have you eaten today?" I ask. She shakes her head.
"Me neither," I reply, pulling her to her feet as I stand. "Order Chinese for dinner?"
She smiles, a real smile. "And a pajama movie night."
I scoop her up bridal style and carry her out into the living area, wondering to myself how I could be any luckier to be the holder of such a beautiful heart.

Notes

AWWW they made up!!
thoughts on the chapter? I made it very dramatic for ya ;)
this is the third night in a row that I have successfully updated. . .GO ME YEAH WOO!!
Questions to ponder. . .
Should El and Junie start planning El's wedding festivities? Or should I do more lovey dovey/ touchy moments with the group?
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