I drag my suitcase, looking out the giant glass window, seeing the planes lined up in perfection.

"I'm going to miss you guys so much.." I say as I hug Lee and Elliott goodbye with one arm each. Elliott and Lee might have broken up but Elliott was sorta my friend...
"We'll Skype then?" Lee asks and I weakly nod, turning to Kat.

We silently hug each other, the only noise is of our sniffling tears.
We pull away and she holds out my hands, looking at me one last time.
"are you sure you don't want to come?" I ask again.
"no..I think our stupid...idiotic uncle needs my help." She laughs, with tears still falling.

I nod and give her a last hug.

"The last flight to New York is leaving in 5 minutes." the intercom says.

"bye guys, I'm going to miss you!" I say, rolling my luggage away.
"Text us to make sure you get there okay!" Elliott shouts as they leave from my sight.
"I'll be visiting soon!!" Kat calls.

i board the flight.

my heart is slowly drowning in sadness I can't stop thinking of Harry.
he was so nice..loving...sweet...

i miss his dimples, his smiles, his laugh, his cheeky personality...

I check my phone again...nothing.

the plane takes flight and I lay back, drifting into sleep.


******

i walk up to my hotel room, throwing my luggage on the floor and slowly walking to the mini kitchen.

i grab a water and sit on my bed, checking my Skype messages.


Kat-You forgot something while you where here...
i scroll down and see a picture of Harry.

He has tear stains, and his hair is ruffled in a mess, his eyes blood shot.

Kat-Cate...he misses you.

psuddenly anger wells up in me and I reach for my pillow, digging my face in it with my voice reaching high pitched screams.

i wipe my warm tears and lay back on my bed, looking at the ceiling.

"He wasn't good for me... He wasn't good for me... He wasn't good for me..." I repeat until I almost believe it.


Maybe...even if he was good for me...maybe I wasn't as good for him