When You Let Your Heart Win
"I am." I looked over at her, just to see her practically glaring at me. "How can I be rude if I'm not speaking to him, Teddy?"
"He didn't do anything wrong, Louis." She huffed as the land line started to ring.
"If that's me mum again, we're taking it off the hook and turning off our phones." I groaned and watched her get to her feet.
"She wants to know how you're adapting, babe." She said as she stood behind my chair and patted my shoulder. "Please talk to him. He literally did nothing wrong. He just pushed me back to you. Like always."
"I know." I sighed as she leaned down to kiss my cheek then went to answer the phone quickly before whoever was calling hung up.
Is it okay I hate it whenever she's right? I'm being a pansy arse and ignoring Niall whenever he brought her back to me. Stubborn Louis cannot win. And I don't want him to win, but he most likely will.
"Babe, Shayla's awake!" Teddy called from, I'm guessing, the living room.
"Alright." I called back, placed my hands on the arms of the chair and went to push myself up, but Perrie stopped me.
"I got her." Perrie smiled, sprinting out of her chair and running towards the bedrooms, making me sit back down and continuing to listen to the conversations that were going on.
"Watch out, mate, you're next." Liam laughed at Zayn.
"I think we both know we're going to be at least married before I get her pregnant." Zayn smiled.
"Not everything goes as planned." I mumbled and turned my head just as Perrie walked back into the dining room, where we all were sitting, eating and talking. Basically just relaxing and prepairing for tour that was about three and a half weeks away.
"Oh my Godness, you just slept, baby girl, how on Earth could you still be tired?" Perrie baby talked to Shay and sat back down between Zayn and Harry.
"She's three days old, she does that." Niall snorted.
"Shush." Perrie snapped then went back to her nice, baby talking voice. "Are you hungry, little girl?"
"Shit, she should be. I'll make her a bottle." I jumped up and started for the kitchen
"Eleanor isn't breast feeding?" Sophia asked as she sat between Liam and Niall. Sorta shocking me that she spoke to me. She's an awful quite person. It's strange to know Liam fancies her because of how outspoken he is and she's… well clearly not.
"She tried at the hospital, but she said it hurt too much." I shrugged. "It can't hurt that much can it? Like Teddy…"
"Whoa!" Liam held his hand up and placing his beer back down onto the table, cutting me off and causing laughter, but quite laughter so nobody would make Shay scream. "Keep the bedroom tatics in the bedroom."
"We weren't in the bedroom before you lot arrived." I winked then went to walk out of the room again until…
"She could always pump." Harry said, making everyone turn to look at him. He was picking at a vine of grapes on the platter in the middle of the table, not realizing we were staring at him, before his instincs kicked in and noticed eyes were on him, he looked around. "Is it weird I know that?"
"Yes." Niall laughed loudly, but shut up quickly whenever Perrie sent him a death glare.
"I hang out with Lou and Tom too much." He shrugged. "But yeah, why doesn't she just pump?"
"I don't know, why don't you ask her?" I threw my hands up and finally walked into the kitchen to get Shay her bottle. Nobody really wants to hear her scream. That little girl has a good set of lungs on her.
"Mate, how is this kid yours?" Liam called loud enough for me to hear him, just as the microwave beeped, telling me Shay's milk was heated at the right tempterture.
"Yeah, she's so cute." Perrie squealed like a little girl.
"What are you trying to say?" I asked putting the top of the bottle on and started to shake it, making sure it was pure milk and not clumps, as I walked back into the dining room.
"She's cute." Perrie looked at me.
"Your not." She smiled.
"Thanks." I laughed as I handed her the bottle then went over to Shay's nappy bag and got her a burp cloth. "I hope she spits up on you."
"Love you too." She laughed, arranged Shay and started to feed her as it fell silent and all eyes went on the two.
It's strange to know one of us has a baby now. It's even stranger to know I'm the one that has the baby. My life couldn't get any stranger even if I asked or wanted it to.
"Hey." Teddy jumped out of nowhere and wrapped her arms around my neck all before shoving her face into the crook of my neck.
"Hi." I laughed and turned towards her some. "Was that my mum?"
"No." She shook her head and pull back to look at me, a prominent smile on her face.
"Who was it?" I smiled, just because she was. She looks happy and that's all I want, so how can I not smile?
"My doctor from LA." She whispered.
"And?" My smile sorta falling.
"I'm okay." She whispered inching closer to my face. "I need to relax and stay stress free if we ever…"
"Oh my God, that is hilarious." Zayn laughed catching our attintion.
"What?" I asked looking over at them.
"She just farted so loud, mate." He continued to laugh, the others joining in because of him being so fasinated by it. "She makes us look like amatures."
"Oh my God." Teddy giggled, making my attention to go back to her.
"You sure?" I asked grabbing her arm as hers still laid loosely around my neck.
"No holes." She smiled. "I'm a healthy little bird."
"Good." I smiled, my hand that wasn't holding her wrapped around behind my chair to grab her waist and spun her onto my lap. "Told you you'd be okay."
"Yeah." She rolled her eyes.
"When can we practice?" I smirked and wiggled my eyebrows.
"Whenever." She smiled looking away from me.
"Alright." I smiled leaning into her. "When can we start?"
"What?!" I growled as our conversation got interrupted just whenever we were getting to the good part.
"No sex talk at the table." Harry was full on pointing at us.
"How does he know we're talking about sex?" Teddy whispered, to herself mostly, in disbelief.
"We're not." I lied.
"Bullshit." Niall spoke.
"Alright, we were, but how do you know?" I asked looking around at my amused bandmates.
"Teddy is full on blushing." Perrie spoke without looking up.
"How do you know, missy? You're not even looking at me." Teddy scoffed and snuggled into me. The heat from her cheek seeping through my shirt.
"It just takes a .02 second glance to know, love." She teased as she took Shay's bottle from her and checked how much she's drank before giving it back to her. "What's going on?"
"Nothing." She pouted.
"She just got test results back." I laughed at her.
"What kind of test results?" Liam looked at us with wide eyes.
"Shit, you're not pregnant are you?" Zayn looked at us quickly.
"Wow, you're quite the baby maker, babe." Teddy giggled and patted my chest. "No, I'm not pregnant."
"Oh thank God." Niall sighed leaning back in his chair.
"Hey!" Teddy yelled slightly. "What's wrong with me being pregnant?"
"You're coming on tour with us, right?" He asked.
"I'm not letting her stay either way." I snorted.
"Of course, so having a pregnant Teddy on a tour bus with us wouldn't be fun."
"Hey!" She yelled again.
"Babe, he's got a point." I teased and patted the side of her thigh a few times.
"None of you know how I'd be when I'm pregnant. If I wasn't such a wreck when I wa… uhm, never mind." She stopped and looked down at her hands.
"Am I missing something?" Niall asked chewing on some crisps.
"Teddy…?" Perrie whispered.
"After Harry's birthday party, we were sorta drunk…"
"You two were plastered." Harry snorted.
"You weren't any better, mate." Liam laughed.
"Shut up!" Perrie snapped and handed Shay over to Zayn and walked over to us. "You were pregnant?" She asked Teddy and all she could do was nod her head and how quite the room got, let alone how quite Teddy got, it made me feel like a piece of shit, so I did, the little I could do, to comfort her. "What happened?"
"I did." I sighed and grabbed Teddy's hand. "Bear, you're fine now."
"That was a baby, you moron." Perrie slapped the back of my head.
"Don't slap him." Bear whispered. "It was my fault."
"Don't say that." I groaned. "If you blame yourself, throw some at me as well, I made you that way."
"Wait, we got off topic." Liam said leaning against the table. "What did you get tested?"
"If I had holes in my uterus." She whispered.
"Okay, now you were pregnant, but you had a miscarriage?" Sophia asked sitting a little straighter in her seat with a small frown on her face.
"Yeah." She nodded.
"What made you miscarry then?" Harry asked.
"I did." I said again. "I was the dick and I stressed her out."
"You're such an arse." Perrie scoffed and stood straight. "You're such an arse." She repeated and walked out of the room.
"Thank you for telling me something I already knew." I mumbled and looked back at my friends. They all looked shocked and Niall looked devastated and Harry, well he looked like he wanted to cry, but that's nothing compared to what Teddy looked like.
"So nobody's pregnant, right?" Sophia asked, making us look at her. I gotta give it to her, she has guts to speak up whenever this group wants silence.
"No." I whispered.
"Then, let's drink."
"We can't." Teddy shook her head and nodded towards Zayn, who now had Shayla over his shoulder and tapping her back softly, but hard enough to make her burp. "Someone has to stay sober."
"I will." Perrie came back in and sat in her seat, but kept her eyes away from me. "I don't drink, so why start now?" She asked but it was rhetorical, she wasn't looking for an answer.
"Then it's settled." Sophia smiled and got up, walked over to us, grabbed Teddy's hand and pulled her up. "Let's forget this dreadful conversation and take the edge off."
"Yes." She smiled. "Let's."
I'm not doing this to piss you all off
the shitty updating schedule I've been doing, I mean
but yeah, I wrote this quickly because I knew I needed to give you all something
so I think this is horrible
like more horrible than I usually think
and it's short
and it's basically just one scene which pisses me off, but it is what it is
but what do you think?
give me ideas for the next few chapters? I have like nothing
what do you want to happen within these next few chapters?
like before tour?
hell. what do you want to happen during tour?
do you think Perrie is gonna be a bad ass in the next chapter?
I'm literally debating if she should or not
and with Sophia.... I don't how she acts and I don't have much against her, so I'm going to have her be nice but at the same time be conceited little thing
there's some foreshadowing in this chapter
can you guess what it is? :D
I have tasks for you all
1) answer my questions I gave you up there
2) go see (or watch on Los Movies) The Fault In Our Stars and let's obsess over how perfect Ansel Elgort is (like I have been for the past week)
3) go per-order Crown The Empire's new CD on iTunes
4) go buy Ed Sheeran's brilliantly awesome new album