When You Let Your Heart Win
"Are you awake?"
"Why?" I sighed rolling onto my back and looked up at the ceiling.
"I can't sleep when you're upset with me." He whispered.
"I'm not ups..."
"Yes you are." He cut me off. "I'm pissed at myself too."
"Do you understand where I'm coming from though?" I whispered rolling over onto my side and looked at him. "I'm sorry I made it seem like this was all about us."
"It's okay." He shook his head and pulled me closer to him. "And I do understand where you're coming from, I'm just… I just really don't want to lose you again."
"You won't." I whispered lifting my hand to his cheek and turned his face towards me. "Just be the man your mum raised you to be. That's all I want."
"Promise me something first." He whispered.
"When you feel like this is too much, tell me. Don't be like me and keep it locked in. I want to know how you're dealing with this."
"Okay." I nodded.
"Promise me, Teddy."
"I promise." I promised him and rolled onto him. "I promise to tell you how I feel about you having a family. I promise not to be you and keep everything bottled up inside. I promise not to leave you again. The only time I leave you, I promise it's because I'm on my death bed and you're still doing shows."
"Don't say that." He laughed pushing my hair back.
"I promise you I will love you til the day I die." I whispered laying my forehead onto his and closed my eyes.
"I promise you I'll love you til the day I die." He whispered as we both stayed still. "There's only you, Bear."
"And there's only you, boo." I smiled moving slightly so I could kiss him.
"I'll remember that."
"You better." I laughed at him. "I'll kill you if you don't."
"I love you." He whispered pushing me back so he could look at me. "So much it hurts."
"And I'll keep making it hurt." I teased and sat up. "Now…" I smiled. "How about you get these clothes off me?"
"Wha… no." He shook his head. "We can just go to bed."
"Do you think I'm going to let you sleep with a boner?" I smirked whenever he snapped his head fully up off the pillow.
"I don't have a bon..." He stopped whenever I slid my body down and rolled my hips on him and felt him stir slightly. "Damnit, Teddy." He sighed throwing his head back.
"You got a problem, boo." I teased laying down on him again. "What can I d…"
"Can you do?" He asked flipping us over so quick it took my breath away. "Hmm, baby?" Uh, baby. I hate him. "Let's get this off you, why don't we?" He spoke so seductively, my entire body shook, as he slipped his hands between my shirt and my stomach and slid his hands and my shirt up my torso so slowly, he knew he was turning me on within every millimeter he moved.
"Plea…" I stopped and gasped whenever my shirt was officially off and on the floor and his lips came in contact with the trail between my breasts.
"Please, what, Teddy Bear?" He asked, with I'm sure a prominent smirk plastered on his face as my back arched and I scooted slightly down the bed. "Where do you think you're going?" He laughed flinging the blanket off of us and got to his knees between my legs.
"You-you're teas-teasing. St-stop." I breathed heavily and looked up at him.
"Are you telling me you want these off?" He asked fingering the seam trail of my knickers between my thighs.
"Ye-yes!" I squealed.
"Do you still have your period?" He asked in a more serious tone than what he has been a moment before.
"Ye-yes." I pouted, on the verge of crying because he's a fucking tease.
"Okay." Okay? Really? Okay?! What does that even me... wait, why is he getting up?
"Louis?" I whined. Oh, slightly close to a sob. Keep it together, Teddy.
"You'll freak out if you mess up these bed sheets." He smiled walking back into the room with a towel, moved the bin by our bed closer to us and turned on the light on the nightstand before jumping back in between my legs. "Lift your bum." He demanded nicely, so I did, and he placed the towel underneath me. "High enough?"
"Ye-yeah." I nodded reaching for him, so I could kiss him, but he didn't come anywhere close to me. "Lou..."
"Relax." He smiled kissing the side of my knee as his hands grabbed the sides of my knickers and slowly, slower than when he was removing my shirt, moved them down my legs, that automatically shut. "Teddy, you're fine."
"This is just different for me." I blushed whenever he slowly prided my legs apart again.
"Remember back in LA?" He asked sliding his hands all over my legs as he placed them by his waist. "I told you that whatever comes from you is beautiful?"
"Yeah." I smiled.
"The only difference now is there's not water washing away your insecurities." He whispered moving his hand between my legs and I felt him grab the string of my tampon, making my body tense up again. "Relax, Bear. Take a breath." He coached as I did and in the middle of my breath, he pulled my tampon out and threw it in the bin. "See?" He smiled leaning over me. "Nothing to be worried about."
"I love you." I smiled with a small laugh and tried to pull him closer to me.
"I love you." He smiled kissing my nose before moving to open the nightstands draw and pull out a condom. "I'm not making the same mistake twice."
"What?" I frowned whenever he sat up and went to roll the condom over himself.
"I…" He stopped and looked up at the ceiling briefly. "Shit." He sighed. "I didn't mean it like that. I just want whenever we get pregnant for it to be at the right time and it being planned."
"Okay." I whispered looking down at his hands. One was on my thigh as the other was frozen holding himself with the condom halfway on before he pulled himself back together and moved the condom on fully.
"I'm sorry." He whispered leaning over me again. "I seriously say the shittest things at the worst times."
"It's okay." I shushed and reached my hands up to touch him. "I understand what you mean."
"You promise?" He whispered grabbing my hands and pinned them to the bed above my head.
"Promise." I nodded getting all the more turned on by his actions.
"You're beautiful." He whispered looking down at me with the most gorgeous and generous smile while he pressed his hips against mine and pushed in me slowly. My body arching off the bed and up against his chest from the feeling of him and my lips turning into a smile, mimicking his own, as he started to move his hips slowly. "God, you're beautiful." He spoke so sincerely my eyes drifted close as his hips drove slightly harder. "Look at me."
"Look at me." He growled, making my eyes snap open and lock on his before he moved both of my hands into one of his and tilted my head up with his now free hand and began assaulting my neck and collarbone.
"Let me touch you." I pleaded twisting my hands, trying to get free, just to feel his grip tighten.
"Louis." I whined.
"No." He empathized and quickened his thrusts once more, causing me to moan and groan out loudly.
All I want to do right now is pull him further into me, run my hands over his back or just run my hands over his face and trace his lips, anything just to feel him closer, but he's being the control freak he is and won't let me, so I opted for using my lips. I hooked my leg as high up his body as I could, both of us crying out at the new angle and deeper depth, making his body lower closer to mine so I could lift my head and kiss and nip at his skin.
"Fuck, Teddy." He panted throwing his head into the crook of my neck, his grip on my wrists lessening, so I quickly drew my hands and clung to him, one hand around the tops of his shoulders and the other grabbing onto his hair as his hips started to grow increasingly faster, causing me to lose my bloody mind.
"Ge-get of-off." I somehow got out.
"Yes!" I yelled and pushed at him and it was with enough force he actually ended up sitting on his knees in front of me.
"The fuck, Teddy?" He panted as I quickly rolled onto my stomach. "What are you doi..."
"Shut up." I smiled to myself as he obeyed my order. "Get in me."
"What?" He asked, his breathing getting back to normal, but whenever I lifted my bum and spread my legs slightly, it started to grow heavy again. "Bear?"
"Show me what those hips can really do, baby." My tone was slightly on the begging side as I reached behind me for him and grabbed his hand to pull him to me again, but he surprised me. Instead of moving back between my legs, he lifted my bum up higher, my head still on the pillow, as he pushed my legs to the point where my knees were touching and hovered over me again, gripped onto my hips and thrusted back into me. The tightness, making me fist the pillow and scream out.
"Are you okay?"
"Yes. God, yes!" I laughed, completely out of my mind, and pushed back against him. "Please keep moving."
The growl that came from the back of his throat after those three words left my mouth, the best way I could explain it is abnormally animalistic. And it just fueled my fire even more.
I lifted up onto my hands and curved my back but his hands left my waist, grabbed onto my breasts and pulled me back against him. My back against his chest, his thighs hitting the back of mine so hard, it was sending off a loud clap.
"God, please don't stop." I moaned whenever he grunted. Signaling he was on the verge of coming.
"Jesus Christ." He panted letting his hands slide down to my waist, our bodies falling to the mattress and he drove faster. "Fuck, Teddy, please tell me you're close."
"N-no!" I bit my lip and held onto my orgasm.
"I hate when you do this." He grunted and pushed his right hand between me and the mattress and started to rub my clit. "You were never the best of liar, baby. The second I touch you, you clench and lose it." I hate him. He knows my body so well, it's maddening. "Come, Teddy. Don't fight with me, either."
By the time we woke up the next day, it was well after noon. Neither of us willing to move from each others arms, but knowing it was pretty much mandatory to get up and get to the hospital, we had to. At least we had one last night together.
As of now, we're in the shower. From last night we desperately needed it. We bathed each other. He washed my hair, I washed his. Whenever it got to cleaning my body, he was the tease he really is and hit all the right spots in all the right places, but with the time continuing to tick by, I knew he had to get out and get moving.
"Why don't you go by yourself?" I whispered placing my chin on his chest and looked up at him.
"What? No. Why?" He pulled back the slightest and looked down at me. "No. Come with me."
"I don't belong there, babe." I shook my head. "Be with them and spend time with your daughter."
"I need to wash Shay's clothes and prepare her room for whenever she visits." I smiled lifting up on my tiptoes to kiss him softly. "It's okay. Go snuggle with your little girl. I'll have dinner on the table by the time you get back."
"I love you." He smiled laying his forehead against mine.
"And I love you." I smiled. "You're really, kinda lovable, boo." I laughed and kissed him again. "Finish up in here and I'll get you something to eat quickly." I pecked him once more before moving out of his arms and got out of the shower.
"Hmm?" I hummed wrapping a towel around me as I looked back at him; he was sticking his head out and smiling at me with the stupidest grin on his face, which I'm sure I had the same smile on my own.
"I love you."
"I know, you idiot." I laughed and turned towards the mirror to brush it.
"No, babe." He spoke again. "I love you. I don't think you get it. You sticking by my side through everything and whipping my arse into place whenever it's needed, you're my rock. I just... fuck, I just love you."
"And I love your stupid, mad as hell arse as well, boo."
'I swear this is not the ending. Thoughts? Predictions?'
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