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When You Let Your Heart Win

Chapter 67

Louis' POV

"Hey it's Teddy. I can't ge..."
"God dammit!" I yelled slamming my phone down onto the table.
"Do you have any idea where she would of went?" El asked.
"I called Perrie and the boys, she hasn’t called them." I snapped at her.
"So am I." I grumbled and put my face in my hands. "All of this because of a fucking doctors appointment? That she wouldn't let me go in? What's so bad about it?"
"What was the doctor's visit for?" She asked in a slight whisper.
"If..." I stopped and lifted my head and actually looked at her. "If she was pregnant."
"Maybe she is." She shrugged.
"And she wouldn't tell me right away?" I snorted. "Yeah, okay."
"Maybe you're not the father."
"Teddy wouldn't cheat on me." I shook my head and got to my feet. "She's not you."
"She's human, Louis." She scoffed. "Things do in fact happen."
"When would she have the time to cheat?" I asked her. "I'm with her all the fucking time!"
"How about when you're at the studio?" She practically laughed. "Or at an interview where she doesn't go to? Maybe she’s shagging around since she’s been here. That is plenty of time to go get pregnant."
"If she's pregnant, it's mine! She wouldn't do that!"
"Just think about it, Louis!" She yelled. "She's pissed at you for getting me pregnant, maybe she's trying to even the score."
"Do you even hear what you are saying?" I laughed at her. "Teddy isn't a whore. She. Is. Not. You!"
"She spread her legs the second she had you to herself!” She yelled. “She’s a whore!”
"Funny thing is, I made the first move! I kissed her. I pushed her up against the bathroom door. And I fucked her in my mum's shower!" I yelled getting in her face. "If anyone here is considered a whore, a slag, anything, it’s us.” I motioned between us. “She didn't start this. I did. I'm not even sorry I did. I got the best girl in this whole fucking world and that is ruining it." I pointed down at her stomach.
"So you'd rather I got an abortion?" She asked like she was in shock.
"I wish I wasn't so stupid and was more careful." I laughed. "Now I'm tied to you for the next 18 years of my life."
"You don't have to be in her life, Louis!"
"I'm not a piece of shit, Eleanor!"
"Yes you are! If you didn't 'fuck her in your mum's shower' we'd be a family right now! We wouldn't even be having this discussion! Teddy would be God only knows where and we'd be happy."
"You honestly think if me and Teddy didn't hook up in Doncaster, we wouldn’t sooner or later?" I laughed. "What does it take for me to say I love her more than anything? I love her more than you. Ever. Sooner or later we would've broken up and sooner or later I would've gotten together with Teddy. It's just how it is."
"So you think you and Teddy are meant to be?"
"Even if I'm having your baby and she's pregnant with some other bloke's?"
"She's not pregnant by someone other than me!" I growled.
"She's a whore. Don't be surprised."
"Get out."
"Get your shit and get out."
“Where am I supposed to go?” She squeaked.
“I don’t fucking care.” I growled. “Call Max, call Lani. Get the fuck out.”
“I literally have nowhere to go, Louis.” She went wide eyed. “I’m in Doncaster. The only people I know that live here is Teddy and your parents.”
“Like I said, call Lani or Max.” I looked at her with no emotion. “Don’t bother calling me mum, because she’s going to be hearing about this the second you’re out that door.”

"@Louis_Tomlinson: people out and about in Doncaster, find Teddy for me, please? Xxx"

"@emmyloveslouboo: @Louis_Tomlinson she's at the park. Me and my friend are talking to her."

"@Louis_Tomlinson: @emmyloveslouboo where at in the park?"

"@emmyloveslouboo: @Louis_Tomlinson the fountain"

Teddy's POV

"Seriously?" I groaned throwing my head back.
"Thanks girls." What?
"You told him I was here?" I snapped my eyes open and looked at the two girls I was talking to.
"You need someone to actually talk to and who's better than the guy you're madly in love with?" Ally, one of the girls I’ve been talking to, smiled.
“She’s right, who’s better to talk to than me?” Lou teased, which made me look at him and smile. “See, I got you to smile. We’re off to a good start.”
“You’re an idiot.” I laughed and shook my head as the Ally and Tessa got up.
“It was nice talking to you.” Tessa smiled.
“Yeah, and sorry I told Louis you were here, but you do really need someone to talk to. It’s none of our business what’s gotten you so upset, so talking to us wouldn’t help much.” Ally smiled.
“Thank you.” I whispered with a small smile before they backed up some, waved and left me alone with Louis.
“What happened?”
“I don’t want to talk about it.” I shook my head as I pulled my knees up onto the stone wall we were sitting on and wrapped my arms around my knees.
“Are you pregnant?” He whispered as he sat behind me and wrapped his arms around me and laid his chin on my shoulder.
“N-no.” I replied and my voice cracked. “Not anymore.”
“I don’t want to talk about it.” I whispered.
“I had a miscarriage.”
“That’s not what I wanted to hear, but it’s okay.” He tried to lighten the mood and make me feel better with my favorite smile of his. “We can try again.” He spoke softly, but I just shook my head. “Or whenever you’re up for it.”
“I might not be able to have kids.” I whispered very quietly.
“I might not be able to have kids.” I whispered laying my head on my knees and looked at him from the side.
“You said might.” He sighed and squeezed me. “There’s still a chance.”
“When your doctor says that you may not have kids, that usually means you got a very slim chance.” I snorted.
“Stop.” He said squeezing me again. “We’ll figure something out.”
“Just go.” I whispered.
“What? No. Why?” He sat up straight and spun me around. “Teddy, they said might. Might. You still have a chance. We still have a chance. I’m not giving up on that and I’m sure as hell won’t let you either.” And now I am sobbing. “Fuck, babe, I’m sorry.” He frowned and pulled me in for a bone crushing hug.
“I lo-love you.” Please explain to me how I have tears left.
“I love you.” He whispered and kissed my hair. “You know something?”
“Wh-what?” I hiccupped as he pulled back. “Even if you can’t have kids, doesn’t mean we can’t try all the fucking time.”
“Of course.” I laughed. Like actually laughed.
“There’s my bear.” He smiled at me and pushed some of my hair behind my ear. “Stop leaving me, will you?”
“I’m sorry.” I frowned. “I don’t mean to. I just… you’re too perfect and it’s so strange to know you did something wrong.”
“That should tell you I’m not perfect.”
“Yes you are.” I rolled my eyes. “Don’t fight with me. I’m extremely moody. I’ll kill you.”
“Okay.” He laughed and grabbed my hand and stood up. “Let’s go grab a bite and get you home.”
“Okay.” I nodded and took my free hand to wipe my face. “God, I’m so glad I didn’t wear make-up.”
“Why not stop wearing it period?” He asked dropping my hand and pressing up against the stone of the fountain and wipe the rest of my tears away.
“Don’t even try to convince me to throw away my make-up.” I scoffed.
“I wasn’t, but babe, you seriously do not need it.” He smiled and kissed my nose. “You’re beautiful.”
“Yeah, I bet I’m so gorgeous right now.” I rolled my eyes.
“You’re gorgeous every second of everyday, so yes. Yes you are gorgeous right now.”
After we had dinner at Burger Jim’s, we came back to see the house empty. Now I know for a fact it does not take this long for my parents to eat a meal. So I started to panic a little, so I pulled out my phone and went to text me mum, but she already texted me saying that after dinner, they went to the movies, so we had the house to ourselves. Plus Eleanor. The happy mood I just got, quickly deflated, but whenever I realised the house was dark and quiet. I got slightly confused. “Where’s Eleanor?”
“I kicked her out.” He responded like it was nothing. That’s not necessarily a good thing.
“Where is she staying?” I asked and watched him walk past me.
“I don’t care.”
“Louis?” I grabbed him arm before he got too far from me.
“Teddy, drop it.” He said looking at me. “She’s gone. We don’t have to deal with her.”
“Until Shay comes.” I whispered.
“Until then, I don’t want to see her.” He nodded coming back to me and placed his hands on my waist. “In the meantime, I need to get you back.”
“I’m getting you back, Bear.” He whispered pulling me in so close every part of our body was touching. “I’m not losing you because I couldn’t read how serious you were.”
“Okay.” I smiled. He’s got me, but I want to see what he’ll do. It’s a bitchy move, but I just want to know what and how he’ll pull it off.
“I’ll do anything.”
“Okay.” I said again.
“I’ll lick your mum’s toes if I have to.” He smiled as I let out a laugh. “See, I’m making you laugh even whenever you want to hate me.”
“I don’t hate you.” I shook my head.
“Remember that text you sent me after our sex tape got out?” He raised an eyebrow at me.
“Because I thought you leaked it.” I fought.
“I’d never do that to you.” He shook his head. “I’m not that spiteful.”
“Breakups are spiteful.”
“We’re not broken up.” He responded seriously.
“I’m not letting you breakup with me, Teddy.” He cut me off. “When people are meant to be together, they don’t allow the other slip through their fingers. I’m still gripping you tightly.”
“Oh.” I looked down, trying to hide a smile from him, but it’s hard not to smile whenever he lays his heart out.
“I’m surprised you don’t feel it.” He whispered tilting my head back up and laid his forehead onto mine but kept his eyes on mine. “I’m pretty much melting my bones to yours.”
“I’m glad I don’t feel that. That shit sounds like it hurts.”
“Only whenever one isn’t in it as much as the other.”
“I…” I stopped and closed my eyes. “I’m sorry.”
“I’m sorry I pushed you away.” He whispered sliding his hands back down to my waist.
“You’re fighting.” I shrugged. “That’s all I wanted.”
“I’ll never stop either.”
“Okay.” I nodded. Tired of talking. Tired of crying. Tired of everything period. I just want him. “I’m going to go lay down.”
“Oh… uhm right.” He cleared his throat and let go of me while taking about five steps back and leaned on the back of the couch. “Uh, I guess I’ll just go to my mum’s for a little before I go back, uhm, go back home.”
“Or you could come upstairs with me.” I whispered watching his face light up.
“You sure?”
“I want to fight.” I whispered feeling my eyes well up whenever he relaxed and laughed with a smile.
“Really?” He asked a little pitchy.
“As much as I like being on good terms with my parents again, I miss being able to sleep for more than a hour every other hour. I miss… fuck, I just miss you.” I laughed as my tears fell. “I’m literally the stupidest person ever.” I started to cry harder, which made him run into me and place his hands on the side of my face and wipe away my tears, like how he did in the park. “I keep thinking you don’t want me. I’m so stupid.”
“Baby, if anyone of us is stupid, it’s me.” He said as his chin started to quiver a little. “I should've just fucking married you, instead of doubting how you actually felt.”
“No, I’m glad we didn’t get married.” I shook my head and his shoulders dropped some. “I want to do it right. I want a beautiful engagement ring and a long engagement and a beautiful wedding with all of our closest friends and family.”
“You’ll get that.” He smiled. “I promise.”
“But I don’t want to get engaged now.” I whispered and he looked at me like he was confused. “Okay, I do, but I want to whenever we’re absolutely ready.”
“Please tell me that this conversation is working it’s way into saying you’re coming home.” He breathed heavily.
“We can leave tomorrow.” I smiled.
“Thank fucking God.” He sighed and cupped my face. “Can I kiss you?”
“If you don’t, I’ll send my father after you.” I laughed. “He’s only being nice because I threatened his penis.”
“I bet that shut him up quickly.” He laughed.
“It did.” I nodded.
“Men don’t like when their goods gets threatened.” He shrugged. “I understand where he’s coming from.”
“He can’t make anymore.” I raised an eyebrow at him.
“I’m sure he still can. Your mum’s probably the one who can’t.”
“Will you stop talking about my parents’ body parts that make children and kiss me already?” I asked getting a little irritated after I realised he still has yet to kiss me, even after I gave him the okay.
“Of course.” He smiled and pulled me into him and kissed me softly, but at the same time rough. I never understood how much I missed him, how much I missed this and finally getting this until now and it’s making me feel so much better about our future. together. “Uh, fuck.” He pulled back and put his forehead to mine.
“What?” I asked as my eyes stayed closed and my forehead pushed to his a little harder.
“Who knew I’d get a boner just kissing you for two seconds.” He laughed as I smiled opening my eyes and grabbing his collar and pulling him into me, and I must of pulled too hard, because we ended up pushed up against the staircase railing. “Fuck, Teddy, don’t.”
“I didn’t do anything.” I smiled running my hands down his chest.
“Still wanna go lay down?”
“With you, yes.” I nodded and gasped whenever he slid his hands down to my bum and squeezed before hauling me up his body.
“You’re not wearing underwear.” He breathed heavily and pinned me back against the railing, making me feel every part of him. “Maybe I should just go.”
“Why?” I pouted looking at him.
“I don’t want to get back together and shag.”
“Because I want to do everything right.” He groaned laying his forehead onto my shoulder. “Plus you’re parents will be home…”
“Take me up those stairs right now before I cut your penis off and use it as my personal dildo.” I growled.
“Didn’t we just talk about not discussing cutting off baby makers?” He smirked.
“We did, but I want you. Inside me. In my bed. While my parents can potentially catch us feel each other.” A smile placed on my lips as I kissed his lips, up his jaw and whispered in his ear.
“Fuck.” He shuddered as I felt him twitch between my legs. “I can’t. Teddy, I want to do this right. Whenever everything is resolved.”
“Take me upstairs and make love to me, baby.”


can you guess what's happening next? ;)

^^^^^^ sexy asshole alert ^^^^^^


AAAHHHHH I love itttttt I can't wait to see what you come up with next!! Asss always you produce the most well written chapters and I'm so in love with this book.. oh did I say in love? I meant obsessed

LyssaMarie2447 LyssaMarie2447

Omg I literaly got an email from the website that you updated! Gonna read the story from the beginning now :) Thanks for making my empty 1D heart a little less empty!

OutofStyles OutofStyles

Still here babe!! Not on the site actively but I will come back to support and love on you!!! Muah!!and yassssssssss Louis new single is everything. I fell in love.

Mixedthoughtz Mixedthoughtz

I'll literally always be here lol this is my number 1 favourite story!!! I even recommended it to many of my friends and a few of them don't even like 1D but they absolutely love the story :) And call me a very hopeful optimist but there is a big part of me that believes we will have either one more tour or another album in a few years' time. But until then, this story holds me together

Much Love ~Liz <3

LyssaMarie2447 LyssaMarie2447


I'm trying to. I promise. I just changed everything around and got a new and better PC, so I'm hoping. I'm still in love with this story and Louis (even if he's back with Eleanor). I've been rereading this lately and it's such a good story line and I want to finish it for people that are still around, but I feel like I lost a lot and with them not even being a band anymore, but I promise I'm trying. hopefully around next week I'll sit my ass down and get to work.
But thank you for still being here. you're the fricken best.

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