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When You Let Your Heart Win

Chapter 32

Louis' POV

"Hey it's Teddy. I can't get to the phone at the moment or I just don't want to talk to you. Leave a message if it's important. Byeee!"
I have been getting the silent treatment from Teddy for the past two days. Either she's exhausted, stressed over classes or something's wrong.
Don't think like that, Louis. She's in Uni and Uni is stressful. She'll call whenever she gets the chance. Hell she might be taking a nap or lost her phone.
She's fine.

Two Days Later

"Hey it's Teddy. I can't get to the phone at the moment or I just don't want to talk to you. Leave a message if it's important. Byeee!"
"Urgh!" I yelled ending the call and falling back onto the bed.
Four days. I have not spoken a word to Teddy in four days. 'Going mad' isn't the correct phrase to explain what I'm going through right now.

"@Louis_Tomlinson: people in London, have any of you seen Teddy this past week?"

I have to start somewhere.
As I looked through my mentions regarding Teddy, nobody has laid eyes on her. Even people that see her daily on campus haven't seen her.
Anxious meter goes up even more.
"Still no word?" Lou asked walking in with Lux.
"Nope." I sighed.
"She's fine."
"You've talked to her?" I asked sitting up quickly.
"No." She shook her head and I laid back down. "If something was terribly wrong, we'd know. She's probably stressing over her shitty professors."
"That's what I said, but Lou, it's been four days." I empathised. "She hasn't texted or called me, updated Facebook or Twitter. It's not like her."
"Have you thought maybe she's tired of you?" Harry snickered walking in and jumping down beside me.
"Harry, don't say that." Lou growled. Bless her.
"I was joking." He lightly laughed. "But like we've been telling you, she's fine. If it was an emergency, you'd be the first to know."

Three Days Later

"Hey it's Teddy. I can't get to the phone at the moment or I just don't want to talk to you. Leave a message if it's important. Byeee!"
Voice mail. Again.
"Babe? It's me. Again. Where are you? I haven't heard from you in a week. I'm starting to get worried. Okay I'm way past worried. Please call me. I love you." I said into the phone then hung up and sighed heavily.
"Still haven't talked to her?" Niall mumbled with a mouthful of food.
"No." I shook my head staring at my phone. Just hoping and praying it'd ring and it'd be her. "She's listening to my messages." I half smiled.
"How do you figure?" Liam asked.
"Her mailbox isn't full." I sighed rubbing my face. "Are you sure none of you have talked to her?"
"I swear I haven't, mate." Harry shook his head as the others agreed.
"I won't be mad or even tell her." I'm getting pathetic.
"Mate, we wouldn't keep something like this hidden this long." I don't know weather to be happy or even more worried after that...
"Zayn, what about Perrie?" I asked with a slight tad of hope jumping through. "She'd always run to her?"
"I'll ask her." He said pulling out his phone and texting her.
"She's probably stressed about school, Lou." Liam tried to calm me down.
"She hasn't even texted me." I said running my hands through my hair. "We're not in a fight, so I don't know what's wrong."
"Perrie hasn't talked to her, Lou." Zayn said as he looked up from his phone. "Have you tried your mum or maybe even her parents."
"Her parents are the last place she'd be." I snorted as I scrolled through my phone and dialled my mum.
"Have you talked to Teddy in the past week?" I rushed, not even saying hello. Mummy's boy, gotta wait.
"No, love I haven't." She replied. "What's going on?"
"I haven't gotten ahold of her and I'm starting to get worried." I sighed slumping in my chair.
"Hun, she's probably partying at Uni." She laughed.
"For a full week where she can't even text her boyfriend?" I asked with a slight growl.
"Do you want me to drive over to check on her?" God bless my mum.
"Please?" I asked. "I would but it'd take half a day for me to get there."
"Let me get my things and I'll get on the road."
"Thank you, mum." I thanked her.
"I'll let you know whenever I get there."
"Thank you, thank you, thank you." I repeated over and over again. "I love you."
"I love you, too."
"Bye." I said then hung up. "My mum's going over. She'll call me whenever she get's news."
Let the two hour wait start now.

Teddy's POV

Don't even ask what I've been doing for the past week. Because it's the same for everyday; staying in bed under the covers, hiding from everyone and everything. Even Louis. The one person who I want here with me the most. But I can't have him. Because of that damn tour he's on.
Ding dong. Ding dong. Ding dong
Someone's at the door. Oh God. No.
Who is that?
"Poppet, it's Jay!"
Oh... I love you, but no, go away.
"Love, you in here?"
'Here?' 'Here?!' Is she in the hou...
"Teddy? Poppet, what are you doing in the dark?" Jay asked as she turned on the light and walked slowly into the room. "Teddy?" She whispered sitting on the bed beside me and tried to reach out for me but before she could touch me, I flinched away. Quickly. "Love, it's just me." She spoke softly and slid the blanket down slowly and she gasped. "Teddy, who did this?!" She asked and as she continued to slide the blanket down until it reached my ankles. "Teddy, love, answer me. Please?"
"No." I whispered hiding my face.
"They'll go away." I sobbed into my pillow.
"Teddy, what happened?" She asked grabbing my hand. "Love, you're freezing. When was the last time you've eaten?"
"Since this happened." I whispered looking at her.
"What happened?" She asked pushing my hair back and frowned some more as she saw my bruised face.
"I was raped."

Jay's POV

"Louis, you need to get home."
"Why? Mum what happened?"
"Louis, I'm not telling you over the phone." I sighed and took a deep breath.
"Mum, what is it?" He asked as his voice got higher. "Is she okay?"
"In a sense." I fumbled. "Louis, it's bad."
"Like how bad?!" He yelled as I heard something crash from his end of the line. "Where is she?"
"She's in the shower." I whispered swiping my face. "Louis..."
"Mum, what happened?"
"Baby, she was raped."

Louis' POV

"Fuck!" I yelled and threw my phone acrossed the room. Shattering or not. I could care less right about now.
"Louis? Louis, stop!" Lou yelled grabbing my hands. "Paul!" She yelled over her shoulder then turned back towards me. "Louis, calm down. What happened?" She ordered as she grabbed my hands to stop be from wrecking the hotel suite we were in.
"I need to go home." I choked grabbing her wrists softly.
"Did your mum find Teddy?" She asked and I nodded. "Is she... Is she okay?" And I just collapsed to my knees and lost it. "Paul!" She yelled again. "Sh sh sh." She got to her knees as well and held me to her chest. "It's okay."
"No it's not." I somehow got out.
"What's going on?" Paul asked walking in with the boys.
"Get him a flight home."
"What? I can't."
"Paul, get him a flight home now." Lou growled.
"Alright." Paul sighed heavily and walked out the door.
"Is it Teddy?" Niall asked as the boys started to gather around.
"What's going on?" Harry asked walking over to me and Lou. "Louis?"
I can't speak. My mind and tears are just running enough. Who could do that to her? She's perfect. She's sweet to everyone, unless they pissed her off. She wouldn't be associated with a person like that.
"Louis, mate, please tell us what happened." Zayn pleaded, knocking me out of my thoughts. Sorta.
"Teddy... Bear..." I hiccuped. "She was ra-raped."

Next Day

Teddy's POV

"Love, you have to call the police."
"No." I shook my head as I sat curled up in a ball and looking down at my tea. "I don't even know who they are, what they look like."
"We can't just sit here." She softly said.
"What are we supposed to do?" I laughed. "Call the police and tell them 'oh two men, who I can't remember what they look like, dragged me into an alley and forced themselves on me until they had their fill and left me laying there.' Yeah, I'll get them thrown in jail all right. I'll get over all this as soon as that happens."
"I'm sorry." I cried hiding my face in my hands.
"It's okay."
"No it's not!" I yelled. "I'm taking my anger and resentment out on you and this isn't your fault. This is all on me."
"Don't say that." She shook her head. "This isn't your fault, Teddy. Those two are animals who need to rot in hell for the rest of their lives."
"But they won't." I whispered. "They're living their everyday life like nothing happened."
"Let's just go file a report." She offered. "You never know, these animals might of done or will do this to another, innocent girl."
"I can't." I shook my head. "I only know the names. Kyle and Jar. Maybe it's short for Jared or I don't know. I just want this to be over."
"It won't be if you don't get hel..."
"Teddy?! Mum?!" Louis' voice was yelled as he, I guess, walked through the front door and made me jump.
"Living room, babe." Jay spoke.
"Where's Bea..." He stopped mid sentence then was in front of me in a matter of seconds. "Bear?"
"Why are you here?" I whispered looking down, trying to hide my face from him and pulled my sleeves of my sweater down over my hands.
"Seriously?" He asked placing his hands on the side of my face gently, but I still flinched, and made me look at him. "Babe, I'm going to be here through everything."
"But the tour. The boys." I whispered.
"I don't give a flying fuck about that right now." He shook his head as his eyes stayed locked on mine. "You're my priority." Hearing him say that, made me cry. I hate this. I never cry in front of people. And here I go again.
"I'll go make you something to eat." Jay sniffled and walked away.
"Baby?" Lou whispered letting his hands fall to my sides.
"Don't." I grabbed his hands and pulled them away from my sides. He doesn't know how bruised I am and if he does, he'll loose it. I can already tell he's been crying and he didn't sleep at all on the plane. He's got to be almost as exhausted as I am. "I didn't want you to see me like this." I whispered dropping my gaze from him.
"You're still my beautiful girl." He smiled trying to make me look at him again.
"Beautiful doesn't mean having cuts and bruises on her face or bod..." Shit.
"What?" He growled.
"Nothing." I shook my head and glanced up at him.
"Bear?" He whispered, which made me look him in the eyes again. Looks like he's being tortured.
"You're going through hell and I don't know how to help you." He whispered as his eyes began to water. "I'm supposed to protect you and I didn't." He continued to whisper and his tears started to fall. "You've been back here for how many weeks and you got hurt."
"It's my fault." I stopped him.
"Nobody asks to get raped, Teddy!" He yelled but then went back to his broken posture. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't raise my voice to you."
"It's okay." I whispered whipping his face. "I hate when you cry."
"What'd he do?" He asked leaning into my touch.
"The guy who did this. Where was it? How bad did he hurt you?" He asked.
"There... It wasn't just a he, Louis." I whispered dropping my hand back to my lap. "There were two guys..."
"Fuck!" He yelled and threw his head down onto my lap and cried. "I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry."
"Stop." I whispered leaning down, as uncomfortable as it was, played with his hair and kissed the back of his head as his cries got a little louder. "Louis?" I bit my lip to stop my tears from flowing them self.
"I should of let you drop out."
"Don't do this." I begged lifting his head up. "This isn't your fault."
"Yes it is." He nodded looking me in the eye.
"No it's not." I shook my head and hugged him tightly. "I love you."
"I love you." He whispered against my neck and pulled me closer to him.
"Not too tight, please." I hissed from his touch.
"I'm so sorry." He apologised pulling back quickly. "I... Fuck, I didn't mean to."
"It's fine." I assured. "Just gentle touching until they go away."
"Food's ready!" Jay yelled from the kitchen.
"Babe... Can I ask you something?" He asked bringing my attention back to him.
"Did they..." He stopped and sighed heavily before he looked back at me again. "Did they useā€¦ protection?"
"No." I whispered and the pain that washed through him could make you cry for the rest of your life. "Your mum set me a doctor's appointment for tomorrow to check everything out."
"You haven't been to the doctors yet?" He asked surprised.
"No." I whispered. "I... I don't want to tell anyone about this."
"Babe, you have too."
"No." I shook my head. "I don't remember what they look like or who they are."
"We can't do anything." I shrugged and got to my feet and walked to the kitchen.
There's not anything anyone can do to get those two creeps behind bars.


because I don't want to die
or get my cookies eaten ;P
here's an update
and I actually teared up while I wrote and reread this
soooo PLEASE tell me what you all are thinking
I hope you all don't hate me
next update
(since the chapter is finished)
will be up sometime Monday
and why I said sometime
is because i'm going to a concert tomorrow
and I tend to go crazy
especially for who I'm seeing
(Crown The Empire. LEARN THEM! they're awesome and hot)
so yeah until then,
comment like crazy
okay, bye
loves yous


AAAHHHHH I love itttttt I can't wait to see what you come up with next!! Asss always you produce the most well written chapters and I'm so in love with this book.. oh did I say in love? I meant obsessed

LyssaMarie2447 LyssaMarie2447

Omg I literaly got an email from the website that you updated! Gonna read the story from the beginning now :) Thanks for making my empty 1D heart a little less empty!

OutofStyles OutofStyles

Still here babe!! Not on the site actively but I will come back to support and love on you!!! Muah!!and yassssssssss Louis new single is everything. I fell in love.

Mixedthoughtz Mixedthoughtz

I'll literally always be here lol this is my number 1 favourite story!!! I even recommended it to many of my friends and a few of them don't even like 1D but they absolutely love the story :) And call me a very hopeful optimist but there is a big part of me that believes we will have either one more tour or another album in a few years' time. But until then, this story holds me together

Much Love ~Liz <3

LyssaMarie2447 LyssaMarie2447


I'm trying to. I promise. I just changed everything around and got a new and better PC, so I'm hoping. I'm still in love with this story and Louis (even if he's back with Eleanor). I've been rereading this lately and it's such a good story line and I want to finish it for people that are still around, but I feel like I lost a lot and with them not even being a band anymore, but I promise I'm trying. hopefully around next week I'll sit my ass down and get to work.
But thank you for still being here. you're the fricken best.

luckylo luckylo