3 days to fast
Chapter 11
Emily's POV
i wake up wrapped in the warm duvet of the bed and turn on my phone 1:37 pm I'm starving but i better just keep it to myself i don't want Niall lashing out at me again.
Flashbacks to earlier today replay like movies in my head.
"what do you want me to say because i have nothing to say."
fresh tears to replace the old ones start to form in my eyes.
"and never have to see your stupid face again. "
i can no longer hold it in tears stream down my face once again as i sit up unwrapping myself from the duvet and get out of bed i head over to the bathroom an look in the mirror. How did he manage to do it i have never let anyone into my heart like this and this is what i get pain and suffering my hairs a mess and my eyes are red tears staining my shirt and pants leaving my cheeks soaked like puddles on a sidewalk. I look down at the counter at my mascara, i could take away the pain in my heart if i cut myself and replace it with pain in my wrists. I've never cut myself because I've never felt the need this i the first time I've ever felt this empty and unwanted. I grab the mascara and break it open and pull out the razor. I sit down against the wall of the bathroom. Just as i start pulling the razor through my skin the door to the RV opens.
SHIT!
i toss the razor in the garbage bin and try my best to hide the newly formed cut thats is now dripping blood on my arm by turning around my wrist and shoving my hand as far down into my pocket as i could barely covering my wrist so the cut wasn't visible. I can hear Niall sit down on the couch and turn on the tv i take the opportunity to open the cabinet next to the mirror to look for some band aids or something maybe a few of those and it will stop bleeding. Looking through the cabinet my wrist hits a box of tissues on the corner causing me to let out a screech of pain followed by me pulling my wrist back and knocking several items on to the floor that now has a good sized puddle of blood on it. I hear the tv cut off and Niall stand up groaning. I try to close the door and lock it but he puts his foot in the door.
"Niall I'm fine theres nothing to worry about go back to the couch."i say
"let me in emily,Now !" He says back
" No leave me the fuck alone! You don't care about me so stop trying to act like you do." I say more tears rolling down my cheeks and onto the floor as well with drops of blood slowly trickling off my wrist.
"Emily if you don't let me in right now ill let myself in!"he replies
i still don't let him in pushing against the door with all my strength when the door barges open pushing me back into a wall. Niall looks at me confused to why i wouldn't let him in then looks at the floor his eyes widen and his mouth drops open to the point where it looks like his jaw will rip off. He walks up to me and grabs my wrist making me wince in pain he loosens his grip and turns my wrist over. A tear falls freely down his face. Why was he crying he hates me. He reaches into the cabinet and pulls out gauze and medical tape.he wraps the tissue like material firmly around my arm before taping the two ends together which slows the bleeding before he looks back up at me tears running down his faces before he engulfs me in a hug. I push him away.
"what the hell Niall don't tell me thats you hate me then try to hug me!" I shout at him.
"I'm sorry i didn't mean it i was just in a Bad mood because in the hospital while you were asleep i was watching the news and paparazzi spread a rumor saying that i got you pregnant which is the only reason I'm hanging around with you."
" Why the hell would they think that?" I question maybe he doesn't hate me after all.
"I don't know but its pushed me over the edge." He replies i look up into his eyes of which his are looking directly at my lips i take no time to lean in and kiss him he pauses for a minute before he starts to move in sync. He pulls away and smiles before saying
"i guess im forgiven?"
i nod my head while he carries me over to the couch as he goes back into the bathroom and cleans the blood off the floor. Im just glad things are fixed.
i wake up wrapped in the warm duvet of the bed and turn on my phone 1:37 pm I'm starving but i better just keep it to myself i don't want Niall lashing out at me again.
Flashbacks to earlier today replay like movies in my head.
"what do you want me to say because i have nothing to say."
fresh tears to replace the old ones start to form in my eyes.
"and never have to see your stupid face again. "
i can no longer hold it in tears stream down my face once again as i sit up unwrapping myself from the duvet and get out of bed i head over to the bathroom an look in the mirror. How did he manage to do it i have never let anyone into my heart like this and this is what i get pain and suffering my hairs a mess and my eyes are red tears staining my shirt and pants leaving my cheeks soaked like puddles on a sidewalk. I look down at the counter at my mascara, i could take away the pain in my heart if i cut myself and replace it with pain in my wrists. I've never cut myself because I've never felt the need this i the first time I've ever felt this empty and unwanted. I grab the mascara and break it open and pull out the razor. I sit down against the wall of the bathroom. Just as i start pulling the razor through my skin the door to the RV opens.
SHIT!
i toss the razor in the garbage bin and try my best to hide the newly formed cut thats is now dripping blood on my arm by turning around my wrist and shoving my hand as far down into my pocket as i could barely covering my wrist so the cut wasn't visible. I can hear Niall sit down on the couch and turn on the tv i take the opportunity to open the cabinet next to the mirror to look for some band aids or something maybe a few of those and it will stop bleeding. Looking through the cabinet my wrist hits a box of tissues on the corner causing me to let out a screech of pain followed by me pulling my wrist back and knocking several items on to the floor that now has a good sized puddle of blood on it. I hear the tv cut off and Niall stand up groaning. I try to close the door and lock it but he puts his foot in the door.
"Niall I'm fine theres nothing to worry about go back to the couch."i say
"let me in emily,Now !" He says back
" No leave me the fuck alone! You don't care about me so stop trying to act like you do." I say more tears rolling down my cheeks and onto the floor as well with drops of blood slowly trickling off my wrist.
"Emily if you don't let me in right now ill let myself in!"he replies
i still don't let him in pushing against the door with all my strength when the door barges open pushing me back into a wall. Niall looks at me confused to why i wouldn't let him in then looks at the floor his eyes widen and his mouth drops open to the point where it looks like his jaw will rip off. He walks up to me and grabs my wrist making me wince in pain he loosens his grip and turns my wrist over. A tear falls freely down his face. Why was he crying he hates me. He reaches into the cabinet and pulls out gauze and medical tape.he wraps the tissue like material firmly around my arm before taping the two ends together which slows the bleeding before he looks back up at me tears running down his faces before he engulfs me in a hug. I push him away.
"what the hell Niall don't tell me thats you hate me then try to hug me!" I shout at him.
"I'm sorry i didn't mean it i was just in a Bad mood because in the hospital while you were asleep i was watching the news and paparazzi spread a rumor saying that i got you pregnant which is the only reason I'm hanging around with you."
" Why the hell would they think that?" I question maybe he doesn't hate me after all.
"I don't know but its pushed me over the edge." He replies i look up into his eyes of which his are looking directly at my lips i take no time to lean in and kiss him he pauses for a minute before he starts to move in sync. He pulls away and smiles before saying
"i guess im forgiven?"
i nod my head while he carries me over to the couch as he goes back into the bathroom and cleans the blood off the floor. Im just glad things are fixed.
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