I had a lot on my mind. Which is becoming more usual than it should.
Homecoming was a week and a half ago, and my oh my had things changed.
Louis won Eleanor over at homecoming, which was super awesome. So they are dating now, or at least a thing. I've talked to her a couple of times and she is very intelligent and adorable. I don't see how you can't love her. On top of that she is gorgeous. I need to stop befriending prettier people..
Another uprising couple that was really changing things around Preston was Zayn and Perrie. After what happened at the dance, they had really become something that everyone was watching. And it actually started changing things. Football players were always nice to Perrie and any of her friends, including myself. I would get waves from guys I didn't know, but they seemed to know me as "Perrie's friend," but hey as long as they weren't hating on me and what I love, I couldn't complain.

Another thing that helped that was the Harry and Kelsey breakup. The cheerleading team didn't bow down to every wish of Kelsey, because without Harry she didn't have much power. And the fact that Harry was acting happier and nicer to people wasn't helping her out. Because a lot more people were starting to not like Kelsey, which of course filled me with glorious amounts of joy.

The one thing that was going terribly though right now, was Niall. I never did find him that night after the dance. I called and texted with no answer. He said he wasn't feeling well and just went back to his dorm and went to sleep. Of course I didn't completely believe him, and I asked Louis and he said he didn't know anything because he was out with Eleanor the majority of the night. I wanted to ask him more in depth about what happened, but he seemed to not want to talk about it. At all. Ever. So I was stuck with hardly talking to him and very vague text messages for the time being, until he decided he wanted to man up.

But in this time of confusion, mine and Harry's relationship seemed to grow. I would tutor him often for our biology class, because he was absolutely terrible at it. We shared laughs and songs mostly though. And yes, he started getting into his own groove and started giving me songs, which were pretty spectacular.
Despite my sadness with Niall, I couldn't help but find joy in being with Harry.

"But why is an okizawayway thing needed?"
"Harry, it's called an Okazaki fragment." I said and laughed at him.
"Whatever, but why is it needed? I don't get why we have to learn another term if it isn't relevant."
"But it is, because the DNA can't transcribe unless it's moving from the 3 prime end of the strand to the 5 prime strand."
"Can we please take a break?" He asked.
"Yeah, it has been a straight half hour, a break is well deserved."
We were in the library, and the only ones for that matter. It was about 6 so I guess everyone was out to eat. It was nice that Harry finally lightened up, and wasn't an ass to me. Or anyone hardly. Plus, we didn't have to keep our friendship on the downlow. So we could just hangout, and it wasn't weird or anything.
"So, how is Mr. Niall?" He asked without looking up from his phone at me.
"Oh you know he's... fine."
"Wow, that sounded very sure." He said with a slight chuckle in that sarcasm.
"Well, we haven't really talked or hung out since homecoming. He is very distant." I said.
"Hmm, maybe you guys should break up." He said, straight-faced.
"Wow, you are so subtle." I said laughing at him.
"Can't blame me for trying." He said.
"Well, I know things will work out with Niall. It's just getting him to talk to me."
"Good luck with that. He is stubborn at times."
"I know that."
"Alright, just trying to help."
It was quiet for a minute. I wondered how I actually would get Niall to talk to me. He had been so distant, even to Louis apparently. I didn't really know what to do at this point.
I was in the middle of my train of thought when I heard the door shut.
"Hello?" I asked.
"It was probably just the janitor, don't worry about it." Harry said.
"Yeah.." I trailed off.
"Look, I can tell that you're down about Niall. I don't like seeing you this way. Do you want me to try and talk to him?"
"That's very sweet Harry, but he hates your guts. I don't know how well 'talking' would actually work with him."
"It's better than nothing." He said.
I knew that Harry wanted to help, but I didn't want this turning into some big fiasco. But at the same time, what if it worked? And was it a chance I was willing to take?
"I guess, if you want to, be my guest." I said.
"Alright, now we're talking. I'm finally getting to that good friend status." He said. We both had a slight giggle.
"Thank you Harry, it means a lot."
"Anything for you."
And with that, he walked out the door.

The next afternoon, I was eating lunch with Danielle and Liam on the patio by the dining hall.
"Do you think it would actually work? I mean if he talked to him? Do you think your little group of friends will finally reunite? Because honestly, I just want to see that again. I can tell you all miss it." I said to them.
"I mean, it's hard to tell." Liam started. "There's a lot of beef between them. Both sides are stubborn, and it's been four years of just not liking the other side, you know? So I think it could either be really good or really terrible."
"I think that we just will have to see what happens honestly." Danielle said.
Louis and Eleanor walked over to our table at that point.
"Hey guys!" Louis said really excitedly.
"Hey!" We all said back.
He and Eleanor sat down next to us, Eleanor didn't say much, but then again she never does. She's just very quietly sweet like that.
"So, what are we talking about over here?" Louis said.
We all got silent. Should I tell Louis that Harry was going to try and talk to Niall? Or do I not tell him and risk our friendship?"Oh just how we ca't believe that bananas aren't a fruit. They're an herb you know." Liam said.
Oh innocent Liam, you gotta learn how to cover better..
"Alright, that's bullshit." Louis said and laughed. "For real, what are you guys talking about."
We all kind of looked at each other. We knew there was no getting out of this. i took the lead on it.
"Well, you know how my relationship wit Niall has been ver distant lately.." I started.
"Yess.."
"Which by the way, has he said anything to you about me or why he is being this way in the first place?" I asked. It thought I might as well try to get that question in there if I could.
"...Nope. Not that I can recall." He said.
Okaaaaayyy Louis...
"Well anyways I was with Harry yesterday and-"
"Oh yes, that will make your relationship SO much better." Louis interrupted.
"I don't need your sass right now. This is serious."
"I'm just saying. Maybe if you spent less time with Harry and more time trying to fix things with Niall, then maybe you wouldn't be having this problem to begin with."
"Alright, you and I both know I can't do that. Harry is still my friend ven though you don't like him."
"I don't just 'not like him'. I hate the guy Reyna. And so does Niall, he was a shitty person then and he still doesn't fail to be a shitty one now." I could tell this was going to get heated between us.
"You don't even really know him Louis. When is the last time you have really talked to the guy? He could have completely changed and you wouldn't even know." I said to him.
"You are absolutely right. But I don't want to know him, I simply don't give a fuck."
"Then how come you stay friends with Liam? Hmm? He's friends with both of you guys, but you never freak out on him for this!"
"That's different. He isn't dating my best friend and also being friends with the person he hates who is also- by the way- in love with you." Louis said.
"You and I both know he keeps his cool. He want to make it better between you guys and he respects my relationship with Niall. But you wouldn't know because you're stubborn ass won't give him the chance."
"You know what Reyna? Everything was perfectly fine before you came this year. The sports people did their thing and we did ours. No conflict, we knew our place. But then you had to come here and try to make amends with us. And that's when things went to shit. You started dating Niall but Harry was also in the picture which isn't cool." Louis said, very frustrated at this point.
"Well then isn't that great? Maybe it was time for some change around here. Look at you and Eleanor! You guys are so happy and together now. I know I didn't help with any of it, but it didn't happen until I got here did it? And what about Perrie and Zayn? They're together now and so happy. Why can't we just see past the differences of our talents?" I started to raise my voice at this point.
"Because it simply doesn't work that way! You need to choose. Harry, or us."
That's when it fell silent. Of course I couldn't just choose right there in that moment. I had too much to consider.
Not knowing what to do, I got up, and left.

I walked straight to the music hall and went into the first open practice room.
I plugged my Ipod into the speaker and started to blast "Think of You Later (Empty Room" by Every Avenue and just soaked in the lyrics

This might be my last chance,so maybe I should take it.
I just hope you're listening to everything I'm saying

The only thing I wanted at this point was Niall. I wanted him to walk into that room, put his arms around me and tell me that he missed me. I wanted him to tell me he was sorry, and that he didn't wanted to let me go. i just wanted to know that we would be okay. I couldn't help but start to cry at this point. I mean, my first serious relationship was going downhill so fast.
I heard a knock on my door, it was Perrie.
I motioned for her to come in, and she came in a little shyly.
"Hey, you look like you need a friend."
I didn't even say anything, I just walked up to her and hugged her and started to cry more.
"It's going to be okay.." She said patting my back.
"But what if it isn't? I don't even know what happened with Niall and why he won't talk to me and I don't want it to end but I really don't know what to do at this point."
"What you need is to tell him how you feel, because I promise if he knew that he was making you feel this way, he would want to help you out." She said softly.
"You really think so?" I said between my heavy breaths.
"Of course, let's go talk to him now." She said offering her hand out to me.
"But I look like more shit than usual." I said with a slight laugh.
"Oh hush, you look fine." She said.
We left the music hall and stated walking to the main lawn looking for him, and boy did we find him.

Everyone on that lawn had their eyes focused on the same thing- Harry and Niall.
"You are full of so much shit Harry. Why in the world would I listen to you? I think I know more about my relationship with Reyna better than you do." Niall said to him.
"Obviously not, because she is crazy about you and you are just letting her go because of some reason unknown to anyone." Harry retaliated.
"I don't think it's that unknown. I know what's been going on. Don't even lie Harry."
"What do you mean?"
"I head you and Reyna have been hooking up in the library while you guys are quote-on-quote 'studying'."
"WHAT? That is major bullshit Niall, I know you think I'm an ass, and yes I can be, but I would never do that to anyone. Believe you me."
"Whatever you say Harry, but I have an inside source that I find to be very trustworthy." Niall said.
Inside source? Who in the world would that be? Whenever we are in the library, no one else is there. Except, I did hear the door close the other night.. But who would do such a thing?"Niall, I don't know what's been going on, but please stop and just talk to me. I want to know what's going on." I interrupted.
He looked at me and could tell I had been crying. Yet, he still looked angry with me.
"There isn't anything we need to talk about Reyna. You and I both know what has been going on. You should have just gotten rid of me the moment you decided to be "friends" with this asshole. Have fun without me."
And he just walked past me without another word. I just stood there. Too shocked to cry, to sad to move.
"Wow, it's too bad he found out about your study dates with Harry huh?" A familiar voice whispered in my ear. It was Kelsey. She must have been the one who shut the door too loud and told Niall some big fat lie.
That. Bitch.

I had lost Louis and Niall that day, the two people I had grown so close to through music.
And now, all I had left was the music.