The rest of the day kind of went by in a blur. Harry and I laid in bed watching tv and talking about ourselves. He said him and the boys had a 2 week break before they headed on tour again. He asked me how school was going and I told him it was good. We were on our fall break though, so I wasn’t missing any school while being with him. I was kinda nervous to talk more about school, because I didn’t want him to find out about me going to London. Thankfully, he got a phone call that stopped the conversation. “It’s Louis, I gotta take this.” And he walks into the bathroom. While he’s in the bathroom, I start walking around the room. I decide to go put on a different t-shirt of his because I feel weird wearing the same clothes. I go to his suitcase and pull out a hoodie instead. It’s not long enough to cover my legs, but it’s so comfy. I walk over to the bed again and lay down to wait for Harry to see what we’re gunna do next. He walks out and looks at me. He starts laughing. “What’s so funny, curly?” “Oh, just the fact that you’re wearing the hoodie backwards.” “Oh.. well, it’s comfortable this way. You should start wearing it like this, curly!” “Don’t call me curly.” He warns. “And what are you gunna do if I do..?” “Tickle you.” “Not if you can’t catch me, curly.” And I start jetting around the room. We go at this for 5 minutes until I pause to catch my breath and he grabs me by the waist. He picks me up and lightly throws me on the bed. He climbs on top of me and leans in to kiss me, so I think. He whispers “payback time” against my lips and starts tickling me. “STOP, HARRY. STOP IT.” I choke out between laughs. “Say the magic word.” “PLEASE. PLEASE. HARRY, PLEASE STOP.” “That’s not the magic word, silly.” I decide to lean forward and kiss him to shut him up. He stops tickling me and deepens the kiss. It turns out into a makeout session and next thing I know, the hoodie is off my body. Things are going good until Harry’s hands move from my stomach to my thighs.. I get a flashback from the night at the club when the guys tried to rape me. “Next thing I know I feel a pair of hands violating me. Since I’m in a dress, the hands slip up my thighs.”I start crying. “Love, what’s wrong? Did I hurt you?” He gets off me and starts rubbing my shoulders. He probably thinks he hurt me. It’s not his fault. I need to tell him. I open up to speak but I can’t find the strength to. I start crying again and Harry lays me down. He knows I need time to pull myself together. He kisses my forehead and whispers, “I’d never hurt you, love.” And walks out of the hotel room. I can’t believe I started crying. He didn’t force me to do anything. What if every time a guy touches me I think back to that night? Oh my gosh. I’m so screwed up.
I hear a buzzing noise and open my eyes to see that it’s dark. I look around the room and see that it’s empty. I reach for my phone and see that Sunny’s calling me.
“Hello?”
“Hey darling! Are you okay?! Harry got Tristen’s number from Niall and called her and said that you freaked out while you guys almost had sex. He said he doesn’t understand why. He doesn’t remember hurting you or forcing you to do anything. Carter, he’s a mess right now.”
“Oh my gosh Sunny.” I start crying over the phone.
“Sweetie, is it because of what happened at the club a while back?”
“Y-yes.” I choke out.
“Babe, listen to me. I know that was a horrifying experience for you. I could never be as strong as you have been with the situation. Knowing me, I’d freak out if any guy even LOOKED at me if that happened to me. But, anyways, Harry would never hurt you. He tried to ask Tristen if she or I knew why you would freak out like this and we had to say we couldn’t tell him, that you would tell him yourself when you’re ready to. I know it’s not gunna be an overnight process, but maybe telling Harry what happened will be a part of you overcoming your fear. And then he’ll be more sensitive towards you.”
“What i-if he th-th-inks I’m a freak?”
“He won’t. Carter, you should have heard how heartbroken he sounded when he was talking to us.”
“I don’t know Sunny. I d-don’t want to get hurt. I just wa-want a fling before I leave for L-l-london.”
“I know for a fact now that you mean more to him than just a fling. You need to open up to him.”
“Okay. I will. But I’m not ready to tell him about London y-yet. Th-thanks Sunny. I love you.”
“No problem babe. Now stop crying and go find Harry. Oh, he said that he would take you home whenever you want. So take your time. Love you.”
I hang up the phone and get up to wash my face. I can’t get caught up with Harry. It’ll hurt too much if I do.
I put a towel around my waist, making it look like I’m heading to the pool. Maybe people will believe that. I walk to the elevator and head to the lobby. Once I enter the lobby, I head to the restaurant first to see if he’s there. Nope. Not there. I walk outside to the pool area and see that it’s empty. It feels so warm outside, it’d be the perfect time to late night swim. I walk back inside and walk up to the reception area. “How may I help you?” “Um, I was wondering what other activities you have here?” “Well, besides our 5 star restaurant, we have a pool area, a spa, and a 24 hour gym.” “Okay, thank you.” He has to be at the gym. I start walking and realize I don’t even know where it’s at. I turn back and ask the receptionist where the gym is at. “The gym is in a building separate from the hotel. Just walk out to the pool and keep walking straight ahead and you’ll see a building. That’s the gym.” “Thanks!” I head out the pool area and continue walking straight. I see a building ahead. I approach the building and see that it has a sign that says ‘Bay Club & Marina Hotel Gym’. Yep, I’m at the right place. I open the door and see a few working out. I start walking around. They have a few rooms. I start checking them and arrive at one that is closed. I open the door and see Harry and a girl. Harry is sprawled out on the floor and the girl is leaning over him. They both look up and see me. “Carter, what are you doing here?” Harry asks while sitting up. The girl is touching Harry on his waist and she puts her arm around him. I can’t bear to look at this anymore. I run out of the room and towards the lobby.
I walk to the reception desk and ask for the number of a cab service. I pull my phone out to call the cab service. “Yes, I need a cab at Bay Club & Marina Hotel in San Diego now. How long will it be?” “About 10 minutes.” “Okay, I’ll be waiting out front.”
I head to the lobby bathroom and look at myself in the mirror. These last 2 days were perfect. I was starting to feel like I was in a fairytale. Get a grip of yourself Carter. It was bound to happen. He’s a guy. Guy’s want sex. He wants sex. I rejected him so he found someone better. I use the bathroom knowing that the drive back home is going to be awhile. I realize I have no money to pay for the cab. Shit. I redial the cab service and cancel the cab. Now what am I gunna do? I have no money for a cab. Sunny’s car isn’t fixed until tomorrow. I can’t go face Harry and ask to take me home or to stay the night until Sunny comes and gets me tomorrow. I walk out of the bathroom and check the lobby to make sure Harry’s not there. The coast is clear. I walk out and head over to the pool side. I text Sunny and tell her to come get me as soon as her car is fixed tomorrow. I lay on a chair and undo the towel around my waist and use it as a blanket. This is gunna be a long night.