"Dani what did you do?" I was shocked and scared all together
Why of all people was he the one to find me
I didn't answer him because I was way too scared to
"Are you going to make me ask you again?"
"N-no I... I'm sor-"
"Save it you bitch how could you disrespect me like this. All you are is an attention seeking whore no wonder you only have Delilah"
That hurt a lot even tho I know it's true
I was so scared I didn't know what to do
I looked back up and saw a fist coming strait towards my face
All I remember is unencrypted pain on my jaw and didn't know what to do
I'm always Harry's punching bag and I hate it so much but I know deep down he loves me and I love him too
I'm waiting for the day that this will all be over and I can be happy around him
I mean ya everybody probably thinks I'm so stupid to stay with him and not leave him but its my choice
I can get through this and we will be happy again I just know it
"save your tears bitch you'll need for them for later"
and with that he left to go downstairs with the others
I cleaned my bloody scars and pulled my pants back up
I found some makeup under the sink and put on some coverup to cover the now big bruise on my face
sometimes i want to know why is my life like this
It seams like its everyone's goal to hurt me inside and out
I've never had an easy life always helping family and delilah
Wheres the people to help me
I want to be happy again having a real smile not a fake one
not always putting on makeup to cover the bruises and scars
I found myself staring at myself listening to my thoughts which is never a good thing for me to do and I heard Harry yell up the steps
"DANI LETS GO WERE GOING OUT TO EAT"
I ran down the stairs finding harry waiting for me
"wheres the others?"
"in the car you better listen to me today and be good... got it?"
I looked down ashamed like I was 5 again being told what to do
"I SAID GOT IT"
"yes harry"
"good now get in the car before you make them mad"

-after car ride-

we pulled up to nandos and me and niall both looked at each other and sprinted out of the car into the restaurant leaving everyone behind
We sat at our normal table and we both diddent even need a menu we get the same thing every time
everyone else took there time and sat down
Harry was next to me and Delilah was next to Niall Louis was next to Liam in between Harry and Niall and Zayn was next to me and Delilah (If that makes sense... c;)
the waitress walked over to our table and kept looking down to the floor like she was upset
when she looked up she was shocked
"Hello my name is Sarah what can I get you all"
"Yes, I would like a water, please." Louis said with a cheeky smile.
Harry was the next to speak, "We will both have the same." he pointed to me as he did so. I continued to look down as I saw eyes bore into me. And I'm pretty sure they belonged to Delilah. Niall was completely clueless as he ordered his signature meal excitedly, like a 7 year old boy. After she got all of our drink orders down (and Niall's full order), I stared mindlessly at the menu in front of me. I felt a tap on my shoulder as Delilah caught my attention.
"Are you okay?" she mouthed. All I could do was nod. I felt a hand squeeze mine, hard. Not in a loving manner at all. I winced and continued to get lost in my own fearful thoughts of what will happen later that night.

- after dinner-

after we finished our meal we all hopped into the car and went to get frozen yogurt
Zayn was driving and I was sitting between Harry and Delilah in the back. Louis sat in the front seat, while Niall and Liam sat in front of us.
"So what sizes do they have?" Niall asked.
"Niall, buddy, you just ate a humongous burger that was the size of your face and you're still hungry?" Louis laughed as he said this, "man, you are a machine."
"I swear he's secretly American." I commented. I put on a fake smile and laughed a little to try and appear like I was having a good time... But with Harry beside me, the laugh was obviously a fake one.
It took about 7 minutes but we got to the frozen yogurt place and walked inside
well Niall ran cause he was filled with excitement
when we got in there was a bunch of ice cream machines filled with yogurt
I grabbed a bowl and filled it half way with vanilla and half with peanut butter fro yo.
I walked over to the topping bar and put hot fudge m&m's and gummy bears with sprinkles.
Harry walked up to the cash register with me and was about to pay, but looked at what I got and whispered in my ear.
"Are you trying to get fatter I mean look at that you might be worse than Niall." I quickly looked over at Niall and he got all fruit with his yogurt
and looked at mine thinking 'I really am getting fat'.
Harry payed for his and I payed for mine but I didn't eat it I just threw it away not hungry for it anymore.
I walked over to everyone and sat down next to harry snuggling up against his arm upset that I was being so stupid getting that.
then i heard Delilah talking to me "hey Dani wheres yours?"
thinking to myself 'lie to her you don't want her pitty'
"umm... a bug flew into it... I uhh I threw it away not really hungry any more."
I glanced at harry and he gave a slight nod accepting the lie I made
"oh ok"
Zayn spoke up this time "this was fun today we need to do this more often"
we all gave a slight ya
within 10 minutes they were all done with there yogurt and me and harry left.
it was only a 5 minute walk home so we left the fro yo place and just walked.
he grabbed my hand in a controlling way as we were walking and I got tripped by his foot
i could tell it made him mad when i fell on the ground
he crouched down next to me whispering making sure only I could hear him
"get up fatty before I get angry"
I quickly got up off the ground and was forcfully pulled by harry to the house
once we got inside the shoved me to the ground starting to kick my stomach repedatly not caring all the pain im in

~after a few minuites of abuse~

I silently went to my room closing the door and grabbed my keyboard
I rummaged through all my songs and found my faveroite one
I turned on my keyboard and put it on my bed sitting behind it slowly going ove some notes before singing

(not my song concrete angel by Martina McBride)

She walks to school with the lunch she packed
Nobody knows what she's holdin' back
Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday
She hides the bruises with linen and lace

The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask
Bearing the burden of a secret storm
Sometimes she wishes she was never born

Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel

Somebody cries in the middle of the night
The neighbors hear, but they turn out the lights
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate
When morning comes it'll be too late

[Repeat Chorus]

A statue stands in a shaded place
An angel girl with an upturned face
A name is written on a polished rock
A broken heart that the world forgot

[Repeat Chorus]

when I finished the song I couldent help but cry.
I let all my tears that I held in all day go free and I curled up with my pillow and just cryed myself to sleep like always.