Kaycee's POV
I may be ditching school, and classes all the time, but I'm not stupid. I know that if I'm drugged then my life's gonna end in months.

But my only goal is to find the bastard who did that to me. I was surrently standing infront of the hospital's bathroom mirror, staring at my pale reflection.

My eyes grew shade darker, it wasn't icey blue anymore. My skin was tin times paler, and I had red lines in my eyes.

I felt so weak, I barely carried my self from the bathroom to the bed, and from the bed to the bathroom.

The gang would always come after school to check on me, but one day, I'm 100% that they will walk in on me and see me lying in bed. Without a move.

I walked back to the bed, and opened the small notebook that Zayn gave me, he said to write all of my feelings here, it would make me feel better. But I don't know.

The doctors said that they are trying to figure out how to get the drugs out of my body, but I already lost hope. I'm dead.

I opened the small notebook since I had nothing to do.

3 March, 2013
I've been drugged, and I don't know who did it. But I defiantly know that I'm dead, I've been saying this a lot, but no one believed me. Zayn would always say "Hold On, Pain Ease.". But I knew that everyone knows that I'm gonna die, I'm a waste of time anyway, I shouldn't have been born. That's why I'm dying now. Some doctors says that maybe they'll do an operation, that 50% will accomplish and 50% I'm gonna die. But I don't care, I'll die one way or another. I feel weak, so weak, like never before. I'm not Kaycee Smith anymore, I've grown innoncent and sweet because of a boy, plus, I never felt weak like this after my parents death. I wish they were with me now, they died with unknown reasons. They just leaves the house for a trip, and they never came back. I stayed the night crying my eyes out.... How do you feel when you're left alone? Broken? Sad? Angry? All? Yup, all of it. And more. I'm just gonna tell you that I'm better off dead.

Kayceexx

I closed the small notebook, and placed it in the wooden small table beside me. The only sound I hear was the peeping machine, many tubes were attached to my body. I even sleep with an oxygen on.

You expecting me to cry now? No, I'm not crying. I already cried my sleepless nights and that's gone now, I'm not gonna cry over something so silly, like my death.

I decided to sleep until Zayn and the rest come, and as soon as my head hit the pillow, I drifted of to sleep.

Zayn's POV
"So your coming today?'' I asked Perrie as we all walked out of school "No." she replied simply heading of to her car.

Something was off about Perrie these days, I honestly think that she drugged Kayc. Oh shut it Zayn, that's impossible.

Lou Niall and Danielle and Scarlette were in detention, yup. That's funny.

They were throwing there food across the cafeteria, that's why they are in detention now.

So me and Harry are going, Liam can't come today, El's mom wants her for some reason. So it's just me and Harry.

***

"Kaycee." I said as I opened her room door, to find her sleeping in the bed. Her skin was paler than ever, she once told me that she felt weak.

I saw the small notebook I gave her. I honestly gave it to her to read it after she write, you may ask: Why? Well because she won't tell me anything she feels. She would fake smile, and she's a lot quiter now, she's not the Kaycee I fell in love with.

So the book was my way to see what she's hiding.

"Hey let's see what's in the notebook." Harry whispered. Yup, it wasn't just my plan, everyone knew it.

I sat in a chair while Harry sat in the edge of the bed.

***

"That's horrible." I whispered to Harry as I finished reading what she wrote. He responded with a nod. "Yesterday, when I came to visit her, the doctors said that if the drugs reached her kideny then they are gonna get it off."

I nodded, feeling very sorry for her "So that's why they are gonna do the operation tomorrow, so it won't reach her kidney." Harry added, and my eyes nearly got out of its place.

"But she might die!" I whispered shouted "In the two situations, she might die mate, she's not 100% dying, I'm sure the operation will go good, believe me." he gave me a small smile and I returned the gesture.

Kaycee's POV
I opened my eyes to be greeted with green and hazel ones. I serouisly felt bad that they are trying to make me happy but I wouldn't budge, so today I'm gonna show them that I'm ok. Which is not true.

"Hey, Bradford bad boy." I giggled and they both gave me weird looks before smiling "Hey, blushy face." they said in union, and I giggled again.






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