Off The Rails

Waking up I remembered the events of having sex with Zayn and then sleeping next to Niall. As I woke up though I was alone I looked around though and saw a note on the side.

‘Hey Trinity
Last night was great just spending time with you, sorry you will be waking up alone. Had to go to the studio would of woken you but Louis warned us all to never do that...anyway come meet us at Nandos at 2pm it is literally just down the road.
See you then
Niall xoxo

I couldn't help but smile, reading the note once again I looked at the clock on the wall seeing it was already 1pm. So I quickly got out of bed and headed straight for the shower making sure I was quick. I dried my hair followed by putting on a bit of make-up, looking at my phone it was now 1:40. All I had to do was pick out an outfit, jeans and a crop top with a pair of high tops I was ready. Running down the stairs and heading out of the door my phone began to ring. Looking at the screen I hesitated to answer but I had to I wanted to know what she had to say.

'What?

Well hello to you to

Look I am just on my way to meet Louis and the lads what do you want?

Just wanted to know how things are going

Oh its going amazing you know I love being in a house full of strangers, you know I didn't even know Louis had a girlfriend. So everything is perfect I hardly know my brother, the area and I have to stay here because my so called mum gave up on me so everything is going great!'

I didn’t realise how much anger and upset I was holding in until I hanged up and wiped away a couple of tears. Turning down the street I saw Nandos in the distance walking closer I saw Louis standing outside with a girl who I am guessing is his girlfriend.

"Trinity you alright? Have you been crying?"

"I'm fine mum just phoned and wound me up but I’m alright, who this then?"

I turned my attention to the girl she was very pretty but looked a bit nervous to be standing there. Looking back to Louis I waited for him to answer me.

"This is my girlfriend Eleanor, and this is my sister Trinity"

"Hello it's very nice to finally meet you"

"You to"

"Louis talks a lot about you, apparently you are a very good dancer"

"and choreographer!" Louis added

"Urmm yeah I used to be I don't really dance no more... anyway should we eat"

Louis looked at me with pure shock but I shrugged my shoulders and pointed in the direction of the entrance. I forgot Louis didn't know I stopped dancing he was never told because his career just sky rocketed. I can understand why he was in shock I mean it was such a huge part of my life but after what happened I swore I would never dance again.

"Trinity come sit here"

Looking around I matched the voice with the person Niall was beaming from ear to ear, you couldn’t help but just feel so happy around him. I smiled in return and took my seat next to him, as I took my seat he rested his hand on my leg softly squeezing it at the same time.

"So what do you want?"

"The wrap sounds good to me"

"Nice choice"

Niall and Harry went up and ordered our food whilst the rest of us just chatted amongst ourselves.

"So going out again tonight"

Zayn said moving closer to me if that was even possible, he had this little smirk spread across his face. This made me blush causing me to just drop my head slightly.

"Yes of course, have we just met?"

Laughing at my response caused Louis to focus his attention on to us curious on what was being talked about I guess.

"What you two laughing at"

"Nothing"

Zayn replied moving away from me slightly so he wasn’t too close to cause any suspicion.

"Right Trinity tonight you going to stay in yeah"

"Your joking right, no I am going out"

"Okay well then Zayn you want to go with her again or I wi-"

"No sure I will take her again"

"Okay thanks mate and back by 12 tonight yeah"

"No one you cannot just drastically cut the time down everyday"

"Okay fine one but just alcohol no drugs ok"

“We will see”

Soon Niall and Harry came back from ordering and took their seats once again. Conversation flowed between us all but soon me and Niall was in our own little bubble having a little chat about anything and everything that popped in to our minds. Soon our food arrived and the conversation died down slightly, I couldn’t eat much this wasn’t surprising to me I have never been able to stomach much. I am always just so full up on alcohol and drugs food never comes in to the equation really. I looked up to Louis and knew then he didn’t have a clue what I was dealing with yet again so many secrets I have kept from him. You see I suffer with anorexia as well just add it on the long list of problems. I am so used to hiding my pain and illnesses but today I knew there will be questions asked, I left my tablets at home and I could feel the food making a repeat. Excusing myself as quickly as possible I got to the toilets as quickly as I could soon bringing everything back up. Wiping my mouth I flushed the toilet and that’s when I heard my name being called out.

"Trinity are you okay, it’s Eleanor"

"Yeah I am fine"

Standing up I walked out of the toilet and saw Eleanor standing there looking at me. Looking in to the mirror I couldn’t hold back the emotions right now, I felt tears about to escape my eyes. Coughing I wiped my eyes and Eleanor walked over to me pulling me in to a hug. I wasn’t used to this but I actually felt like it was helping me in a weird way.

"What’s wrong?"

"Everything I’m so fucked up"

"How about we leave go to your room and you can talk to me if that will help"

"No it's alright I will be fine I'm going out tonight and I will drink away my problems like always"

I left the toilet heading for the table grabbing my bag quickly ignoring the questions coming from Louis. I ran out of Nandos and back to the house, I couldn’t help it no more the tears began to fall. Heading up the stairs I could hear footsteps following me and my name being called out and before I could shut my door to my room Louis jumped forward. Nothing was said whilst he caught his breath but he soon closed the door behind him and joined me on my bed.

"Why are you crying?”

I didn’t say anything instead I just looked down at my feet hoping he waqs just going to leave me alone. I knew this was wishful thinking though and he wasn’t going to give up.

"Trinity you need to start opening up to people"

"What just to have them chuck me away because I am too much work"

"Trinity nobody is going to do that"

"Mum did"

“I won’t trust me please”

“Lou I just want to be on my own please”

“If I leave you now you come talk to me when you are ready yeah”

“Yeah”

“Promise”

“Lou please”

“Fine you know where I am”

With that Louis jumped up from the bed and walked out of my room closing the door behind him. I saw this as my chance I got up and decided to get changed in to something more club like clothes. Some shorts and a crop top will do and pair it with some heels. Sorting out my make-up I walked out of my room looking around making sure no one would see me. It seemed no one was around so I managed to get out of the house and in to a taxi without people knowing.

"Where to Miss"

"Reflects please"

He pulled away and soon I was knocking back vodka shots like there was no tomorrow. It may be early but to me alcohol is allowed anytime of the day and by the looks of is some people had the same Idea as me.

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