Forever and Always
Chapter 16
“I love the way you make me feel, I love it, I love it.” I sing as I walked in the hallway. I was on my way to the gym because I felt fat and I really needed the exercise. I couldn’t stop thinking of Harry and I notice that we fought a lot too. I really like Harry. He was sweet and loving but sometimes he can just be so dense and immature. I made my way to the gym and open the doors. But someone was there that I wasn’t expecting.
It was Harry.
I wanted to leave. The air felt heavy and suffocating but I didn’t want to be rude so I just ignore him and walked past him to the treadmill. I place my phone and towel on the bench and stood on the treadmill and started with a slow pace.
“How are you?” Harry asks. I was shocked because this was the first thing he told me ever since but at least he asked showing that he cares. I wasn’t ready to go easy on him so I start being mean to him.
“Why do you care?” I ask. “Last time I heard you just stood there and watched me die.”
“Holly, I’m sorry.” He says, hanging his head low. “I was stupid.”
“Yeah, you were.” I sneer. “So, what made you talk to me?” I ask, lifting an eyebrow. “Did someone make you?”
“I just wanted to. I felt bad about-“
“You felt bad about what? ‘Cause there’s a lot more to feel bad about.” I say. Harry was about to say something but I cut him off. “It’s fine. Save it. I need to go.” I hop off the treadmill and was about to drink some water before I leave but my phone started playing the song “Lucky” and it meant that someone texted me. I ran over to my phone and opened the message and it was from Kiera.
Meet me in Niall’s room in an hour.
I squint my eyes. She was already here? I take my towel and phone with me and walked toward the exit and before I was out of earshot, Harry calls out to me. “Holly!” he calls. I turn around and waited for what he had to say. “I still love you.”
I didn’t give him a response. I just turned around and walked away, wondering if I will regret this moment in the future.
When I reach my room, Ashton was inside waiting for me. He was shirtless on my bed and I walk over to him. “Hey. What are you doing here?” I ask.
He smiles, taking my hand in the process. “I need to tell you something.” He starts.
I tip my head forward. “Go on.”
“Well, I really don’t know how to say it in words so can I show it to you?” he asks.
I nod. “Sure?”
“If you don’t like it then just tell me to stop, okay?” I nod my head again. “Close your eyes.” He instructs. I did what I was told and I remained silent. I wonder what Ashton was talking about. Suddenly, his lips were on mine and I stay still with complete shock. When he draws back, I was amazed and I slowly open my eyes. “Do you feel me?” he asks. I didn’t answer him anymore. I just lunge at him and kissed him again, our tongues dancing. He fell on his back and I straddle on top of him while he skims his hands up and down my thighs. I didn’t know why I was doing this. My brain wanted to stop but my body screams to keep going. All of a sudden, Ashton pushes me off him so that he was on top of me, taking dominance. His lips left mine and travelled down my neck. His hands were playing with my shirt and he rips it off in seconds. We go back to our little make out session, his hands on my thighs and mine on his bare chest, suddenly, my phone started ringing and I instantly stopped kissing him and I answered it right away.
“Hello?” I answer out of breath.
“Holly!” Kiera shrieks. “Where are you? Get your ass here!” she shouts.
I cough. “Sure, I’ll be there.” I say, hanging up. I lie back down on the bed and sighed. I look over at Ashton, who was staring at me. “I have to go, Ash. I’m sorry but we’ll have to talk about this later.” I say, standing up. I look for my shirt and wore it before I grab my phone and left the room.
When the door was finally shut, I sigh and closed my eyes for a while before I open them and walked toward Niall’s room which was already hers. I knock on the door once, and Kiera answers it within seconds. I was about to say something when Kiera stops me and shows me the sapphire ring on her finger.
“Holy shit.” I curse covering my mouth. “You said yes?!” I jump with joy and hugged her tightly.
“Yes, I did say yes!” Kiera squeals back, jumping with me. When we were done, we head inside the room and started talking.
“So, how did it go?” I ask.
“It was perfect. He was perfect!” she shouts pacing back and forth.
“I’m happy for you.” I say with a warm smile.
“What about you and Harry? Me and Niall can’t have a wedding when you’re fighting.” Kiera states.
I squint my eyes. “Don’t worry about me and Harry, we’ll set our differences for both of you, okay? Just stop thinking about it. Think about your wedding instead, okay? Where would you want it to be? Who will be going?”
She pouts but she nods her head. “Fine. I hope Harry will think that way while Niall’s telling them about our engagement just about right now.”
“He is?” I ask. “Why didn’t you both just tell us at the same time and place?” She cocks her head but doesn’t answer me. “It’s about me and Harry isn’t it?” I ask and she doesn’t answer. “Kiera.” I say her name sternly.
“Fine!” she admits flailing her hands in the air. “Niall thought that if we announced it with you and Harry in the same room, both of you will like have this awkward relationship thing, okay?” she says, defending herself.
I sigh. “Ashton and I kissed.” I admit out of nowhere. “So, everything will really be awkward.”
Kiera stares at me. “You did?”
I nod. “I did.”
Suddenly, Kiera started shaking me while shouting, “WHY THE FUCK DID YOU DO THAT?!”
“I don’t know.” I admit with a whisper.
Kiera’s eyes soften and she looks down. “I don’t know what to say, Holly. I used to be that person and if I were still that person, I’ll know what to say.”
Suddenly, a tear rolled down my cheek. “Kiera, I’m scared everything won’t be the same.”
“Sshhh...” she soothes. She engulfs me in her hug and strokes my hair. “I’m sure Harry is thinking the same thing as well.”
*Harry’s POV*
When I left the gym a couple minutes after Holly left, I went straight to my room to find the other boys inside. Niall was unusually wearing a tux and he was standing while the other boys were sitting down. It seemed like he had an announcement.
“He’s here.” Louis says. When Niall turned around, he had the biggest smile on his face and so did the other boys.
“Did I miss anything?” I ask taking slow steps toward them.
“Harold.” Niall starts. “I’m getting married.”
“You’re getting what?!” I ask, getting excited. I headlock Niall and he laughs while the other boys were cheering. “You bloody leprechaun!” I shout. “I never knew you were getting married first!”
“I always thought Liam will get married first.” Zayn confesses.
We all nod with agreement and finally, Niall coughs. “Harry, I have to ask a favor from you.”
“Whatever you want!” I say. I was happy for Niall. I never thought he was getting married first.
“You need to clear things with Holly.” He states.
I froze and my smile disappears. “Sure Niall. But that’ll be hard.” I honestly say. “She’s really mad at me.”
“Well, it’s also your fault.” Liam buts.
I roll my eyes. “Well, I had the right to! She lied to me about dating that Tyler guy!”
Louis sighs. “Harold, you sound like an old man.”
“Can I do it when we leave London?” I ask Niall, completely ignoring Louis.
Niall shrugs. “Sure. Just make sure to do it before my wedding.”
“I promise.”
*Holly’s POV*
After hours of talking to Kiera, I decided to finally approach Ashton about what happened between us. I quickly texted him to meet me in the lobby in an hour and we'll be eating dinner together. He replied sure and I click my phone shut before I walk to my room and took a shower. I made sure to shampoo my hair properly and scrub my skin really well. When I was done, I picked out my outfit whic was a high waisted leather skirt and a polo blouse. The polo blouse was too long so I tied it in a knot so that it got shorter and parts of my stomach can be seen. I didn't want my feet to hurt while I ran away from paparazzi's when I'm in heels so I picked out some black Toms. Finally the necklace, ever since me and Harry fought, I stopped wearing the infinty necklace he gave me so what I decided to wear tonigh was a bow necklace. I let my hair be, not bothering to brush it so that it was in messy waves.
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When I was done, it was exact 8 and I made my way to the lobby. When the elevator doors open, Ashton was standing, wearing a button up shirt. The sleeves were rolled up for me to see his muscled biceps and his wavy hair was swept up. I probably was staring too much that the elevator doors started to close but I quickly stop it with my hands. I clear my throat before I made my way toward him and smiled. "Hey."
"Oh, hey!" he cheers. He takes his time looking at me and says, "You look great!"
"Your not bad yourself." I say. He brought out his arm and I gladly take it and we carefully left the building. There was a thousand fans outside and thankfully, none of them seem to notice us so me and Ashton were able to leave properly.
"Soooo..." he starts. "Where we heading?"
I laugh. "I saw this restaurant while I was taking my daily walk and it looked really good."
"Was it French?" he asks.
I shake my head. "Chinese."
He laughs. "You like Chinese food?"
I nod. "Very. Oh! There it is!" I say pointing at the restaurant. I crossed the sreet first but got pulled by Ashton when a car drove past me.
"Holy shit, that was close, Holly!" Ashton breathes with a sigh of relief. "Do you wanna die early?"
I frown. "Sorry." I fake laugh. "I can be such a clutz sometimes."
We walk hand in hand toward the restaurant and was brought to our table and we sat down, deciding on what to order. "So, I have no idea what these are. Do you mind ordering for me?" he asks and I smile.
"Sure." I answer. I brought my hand out and a waiter appears bringing out a small notepad. "Hi." I start.
"Hello." she says. "What is your order, mam?" she asks.
"We'll have some steamed dumplings, salted fish fried rice, Shrimp with Broccoli and sesame chicken." I say, giving her the menu back.
She nods and adds, "Your food will be ready in 20 minutes."
I smile. "Thank you." and she walks away.
"So, you know a lot about food." Ashton comments, starting a conversation.
"I really do. I eat all the time. Especially when I'm upset." Ashton smiles and he continues to ask questions while I gladly answer them. When the food arrived, he had quite a hard time using his chopsticks trying to get the dumplings. "Need help?" I ask. His cheeks turn beet red and I giggle, taking the dumpling with my chopsticks. "Here." I say, gesturing him to bite it while I held it. He stares at me first before he leans forward and takes a bite. "There." I say. "It's good, right?"
"Very." he says with his mouth full. We continue to eat our food and when we were done, we pay the bill and we started walking outside to burn some calories. I knew this was the right time to talk about our little incident so I squeeze his hand. "Ashton." I start. "About the kiss.."
"Wait." he stops me. He lets go of my hand and hailed a cab, he gestures me to get inside and I did. The drive was fast and I notice that we stopped in a park with bright lights. "When I was a kid, swings would always calm me down." he starts while we walk in the sand. He takes a seat in the right swing and I take a seat in the left one. "Probably because when I take a swing, it makes me feel a blast of air and it somehow cools me down." I look at him with wide eyes and he continues. "I always liked you. Not in the romance kind of way, but in the friendship kind of way." I stay silent and he blurts out, "I'm sorry for kissing you."
I push myself in the swing lightly and I say, "I'm sorry for kissing you back."
"I don't know." he starts. "Maybe I just needed someone badly that I kissed you." He also started swinging and I hum a song while he continues to talk. "Harry's one of my bestest friends other than Michael, Luke and Calum and I realized I wouldn't want to take the greatest thing he ever had in his whole life." I had a confused look on my face, thinking what the greatest thing he had was. "It's you." he answers, reading my mind. "I want us to forget it happened but I want us to remain friends."
"Of course you'll still be my friend." I whisper reaching out for his hand.
He takes my hand. "Thank you."
"You're always welcome, Ash." I say with a smile. Suddenly, I stand up and looked at the stars above us. "Time for me to fix things with Harry."
"With me right beside you."
It was Harry.
I wanted to leave. The air felt heavy and suffocating but I didn’t want to be rude so I just ignore him and walked past him to the treadmill. I place my phone and towel on the bench and stood on the treadmill and started with a slow pace.
“How are you?” Harry asks. I was shocked because this was the first thing he told me ever since but at least he asked showing that he cares. I wasn’t ready to go easy on him so I start being mean to him.
“Why do you care?” I ask. “Last time I heard you just stood there and watched me die.”
“Holly, I’m sorry.” He says, hanging his head low. “I was stupid.”
“Yeah, you were.” I sneer. “So, what made you talk to me?” I ask, lifting an eyebrow. “Did someone make you?”
“I just wanted to. I felt bad about-“
“You felt bad about what? ‘Cause there’s a lot more to feel bad about.” I say. Harry was about to say something but I cut him off. “It’s fine. Save it. I need to go.” I hop off the treadmill and was about to drink some water before I leave but my phone started playing the song “Lucky” and it meant that someone texted me. I ran over to my phone and opened the message and it was from Kiera.
Meet me in Niall’s room in an hour.
I squint my eyes. She was already here? I take my towel and phone with me and walked toward the exit and before I was out of earshot, Harry calls out to me. “Holly!” he calls. I turn around and waited for what he had to say. “I still love you.”
I didn’t give him a response. I just turned around and walked away, wondering if I will regret this moment in the future.
When I reach my room, Ashton was inside waiting for me. He was shirtless on my bed and I walk over to him. “Hey. What are you doing here?” I ask.
He smiles, taking my hand in the process. “I need to tell you something.” He starts.
I tip my head forward. “Go on.”
“Well, I really don’t know how to say it in words so can I show it to you?” he asks.
I nod. “Sure?”
“If you don’t like it then just tell me to stop, okay?” I nod my head again. “Close your eyes.” He instructs. I did what I was told and I remained silent. I wonder what Ashton was talking about. Suddenly, his lips were on mine and I stay still with complete shock. When he draws back, I was amazed and I slowly open my eyes. “Do you feel me?” he asks. I didn’t answer him anymore. I just lunge at him and kissed him again, our tongues dancing. He fell on his back and I straddle on top of him while he skims his hands up and down my thighs. I didn’t know why I was doing this. My brain wanted to stop but my body screams to keep going. All of a sudden, Ashton pushes me off him so that he was on top of me, taking dominance. His lips left mine and travelled down my neck. His hands were playing with my shirt and he rips it off in seconds. We go back to our little make out session, his hands on my thighs and mine on his bare chest, suddenly, my phone started ringing and I instantly stopped kissing him and I answered it right away.
“Hello?” I answer out of breath.
“Holly!” Kiera shrieks. “Where are you? Get your ass here!” she shouts.
I cough. “Sure, I’ll be there.” I say, hanging up. I lie back down on the bed and sighed. I look over at Ashton, who was staring at me. “I have to go, Ash. I’m sorry but we’ll have to talk about this later.” I say, standing up. I look for my shirt and wore it before I grab my phone and left the room.
When the door was finally shut, I sigh and closed my eyes for a while before I open them and walked toward Niall’s room which was already hers. I knock on the door once, and Kiera answers it within seconds. I was about to say something when Kiera stops me and shows me the sapphire ring on her finger.
“Holy shit.” I curse covering my mouth. “You said yes?!” I jump with joy and hugged her tightly.
“Yes, I did say yes!” Kiera squeals back, jumping with me. When we were done, we head inside the room and started talking.
“So, how did it go?” I ask.
“It was perfect. He was perfect!” she shouts pacing back and forth.
“I’m happy for you.” I say with a warm smile.
“What about you and Harry? Me and Niall can’t have a wedding when you’re fighting.” Kiera states.
I squint my eyes. “Don’t worry about me and Harry, we’ll set our differences for both of you, okay? Just stop thinking about it. Think about your wedding instead, okay? Where would you want it to be? Who will be going?”
She pouts but she nods her head. “Fine. I hope Harry will think that way while Niall’s telling them about our engagement just about right now.”
“He is?” I ask. “Why didn’t you both just tell us at the same time and place?” She cocks her head but doesn’t answer me. “It’s about me and Harry isn’t it?” I ask and she doesn’t answer. “Kiera.” I say her name sternly.
“Fine!” she admits flailing her hands in the air. “Niall thought that if we announced it with you and Harry in the same room, both of you will like have this awkward relationship thing, okay?” she says, defending herself.
I sigh. “Ashton and I kissed.” I admit out of nowhere. “So, everything will really be awkward.”
Kiera stares at me. “You did?”
I nod. “I did.”
Suddenly, Kiera started shaking me while shouting, “WHY THE FUCK DID YOU DO THAT?!”
“I don’t know.” I admit with a whisper.
Kiera’s eyes soften and she looks down. “I don’t know what to say, Holly. I used to be that person and if I were still that person, I’ll know what to say.”
Suddenly, a tear rolled down my cheek. “Kiera, I’m scared everything won’t be the same.”
“Sshhh...” she soothes. She engulfs me in her hug and strokes my hair. “I’m sure Harry is thinking the same thing as well.”
*Harry’s POV*
When I left the gym a couple minutes after Holly left, I went straight to my room to find the other boys inside. Niall was unusually wearing a tux and he was standing while the other boys were sitting down. It seemed like he had an announcement.
“He’s here.” Louis says. When Niall turned around, he had the biggest smile on his face and so did the other boys.
“Did I miss anything?” I ask taking slow steps toward them.
“Harold.” Niall starts. “I’m getting married.”
“You’re getting what?!” I ask, getting excited. I headlock Niall and he laughs while the other boys were cheering. “You bloody leprechaun!” I shout. “I never knew you were getting married first!”
“I always thought Liam will get married first.” Zayn confesses.
We all nod with agreement and finally, Niall coughs. “Harry, I have to ask a favor from you.”
“Whatever you want!” I say. I was happy for Niall. I never thought he was getting married first.
“You need to clear things with Holly.” He states.
I froze and my smile disappears. “Sure Niall. But that’ll be hard.” I honestly say. “She’s really mad at me.”
“Well, it’s also your fault.” Liam buts.
I roll my eyes. “Well, I had the right to! She lied to me about dating that Tyler guy!”
Louis sighs. “Harold, you sound like an old man.”
“Can I do it when we leave London?” I ask Niall, completely ignoring Louis.
Niall shrugs. “Sure. Just make sure to do it before my wedding.”
“I promise.”
*Holly’s POV*
After hours of talking to Kiera, I decided to finally approach Ashton about what happened between us. I quickly texted him to meet me in the lobby in an hour and we'll be eating dinner together. He replied sure and I click my phone shut before I walk to my room and took a shower. I made sure to shampoo my hair properly and scrub my skin really well. When I was done, I picked out my outfit whic was a high waisted leather skirt and a polo blouse. The polo blouse was too long so I tied it in a knot so that it got shorter and parts of my stomach can be seen. I didn't want my feet to hurt while I ran away from paparazzi's when I'm in heels so I picked out some black Toms. Finally the necklace, ever since me and Harry fought, I stopped wearing the infinty necklace he gave me so what I decided to wear tonigh was a bow necklace. I let my hair be, not bothering to brush it so that it was in messy waves.
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When I was done, it was exact 8 and I made my way to the lobby. When the elevator doors open, Ashton was standing, wearing a button up shirt. The sleeves were rolled up for me to see his muscled biceps and his wavy hair was swept up. I probably was staring too much that the elevator doors started to close but I quickly stop it with my hands. I clear my throat before I made my way toward him and smiled. "Hey."
"Oh, hey!" he cheers. He takes his time looking at me and says, "You look great!"
"Your not bad yourself." I say. He brought out his arm and I gladly take it and we carefully left the building. There was a thousand fans outside and thankfully, none of them seem to notice us so me and Ashton were able to leave properly.
"Soooo..." he starts. "Where we heading?"
I laugh. "I saw this restaurant while I was taking my daily walk and it looked really good."
"Was it French?" he asks.
I shake my head. "Chinese."
He laughs. "You like Chinese food?"
I nod. "Very. Oh! There it is!" I say pointing at the restaurant. I crossed the sreet first but got pulled by Ashton when a car drove past me.
"Holy shit, that was close, Holly!" Ashton breathes with a sigh of relief. "Do you wanna die early?"
I frown. "Sorry." I fake laugh. "I can be such a clutz sometimes."
We walk hand in hand toward the restaurant and was brought to our table and we sat down, deciding on what to order. "So, I have no idea what these are. Do you mind ordering for me?" he asks and I smile.
"Sure." I answer. I brought my hand out and a waiter appears bringing out a small notepad. "Hi." I start.
"Hello." she says. "What is your order, mam?" she asks.
"We'll have some steamed dumplings, salted fish fried rice, Shrimp with Broccoli and sesame chicken." I say, giving her the menu back.
She nods and adds, "Your food will be ready in 20 minutes."
I smile. "Thank you." and she walks away.
"So, you know a lot about food." Ashton comments, starting a conversation.
"I really do. I eat all the time. Especially when I'm upset." Ashton smiles and he continues to ask questions while I gladly answer them. When the food arrived, he had quite a hard time using his chopsticks trying to get the dumplings. "Need help?" I ask. His cheeks turn beet red and I giggle, taking the dumpling with my chopsticks. "Here." I say, gesturing him to bite it while I held it. He stares at me first before he leans forward and takes a bite. "There." I say. "It's good, right?"
"Very." he says with his mouth full. We continue to eat our food and when we were done, we pay the bill and we started walking outside to burn some calories. I knew this was the right time to talk about our little incident so I squeeze his hand. "Ashton." I start. "About the kiss.."
"Wait." he stops me. He lets go of my hand and hailed a cab, he gestures me to get inside and I did. The drive was fast and I notice that we stopped in a park with bright lights. "When I was a kid, swings would always calm me down." he starts while we walk in the sand. He takes a seat in the right swing and I take a seat in the left one. "Probably because when I take a swing, it makes me feel a blast of air and it somehow cools me down." I look at him with wide eyes and he continues. "I always liked you. Not in the romance kind of way, but in the friendship kind of way." I stay silent and he blurts out, "I'm sorry for kissing you."
I push myself in the swing lightly and I say, "I'm sorry for kissing you back."
"I don't know." he starts. "Maybe I just needed someone badly that I kissed you." He also started swinging and I hum a song while he continues to talk. "Harry's one of my bestest friends other than Michael, Luke and Calum and I realized I wouldn't want to take the greatest thing he ever had in his whole life." I had a confused look on my face, thinking what the greatest thing he had was. "It's you." he answers, reading my mind. "I want us to forget it happened but I want us to remain friends."
"Of course you'll still be my friend." I whisper reaching out for his hand.
He takes my hand. "Thank you."
"You're always welcome, Ash." I say with a smile. Suddenly, I stand up and looked at the stars above us. "Time for me to fix things with Harry."
"With me right beside you."
Notes
So, I finally updated! Ye-hey!Anyway, some girls want Louis and Holly, and I've made up my mind. That will never happen because I wouldn't want him and Eleanor to break up. So, instead, I gave the Louis and Holly shippers a chance and just did Holly and Ashton. You feel me?? So to those girls, this chapter is dedicated to you. I'm sorry, am I too talkative??
Anyway, what are you?
Harry+Holly=Harlly
Ashton+Holly=Ashlly
PLEASE COMMENT ON WHAT YOU THINK AND HAVE YOU WATCHED THE "TRY HARD" MUSIC VIDEO BY 5 SECONDS OF SUMMER??
Please update! I want to know what happens next! I love the story so far! :)
12/18/17