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A life of Payne

Chapter 45

Katie's POV

Everything seems kind of fuzzy as I walk around mine and Liam's apartment. Now that I think about it how did I even get back here?

I can hear the faint sound of mumbled voices coming from somewhere around me but yet I can't tell where exactly I am.
All the walls are plain and a foggy white. This is not what this place usually looks like.
The mumbled voices started to become slightly clearer, then all of the sudden the fog began to move and before I knew it I was standing next to the couch in the lounge room.

I jumped back slightly at what was happening, this was all really strange.

Looking around I still couldn't find the source of the mumbled sounds, giving up I went to sit on the couch to clear my head but all of the sudden I couldn't move.

What the hell is happening?

Out of no where Liam, Niall and Calum appeared on the couch. They were laughing and looked really happy like nothing was wrong with them. Like I never happened to them.
I stood there for a minute and watched them as they joked around with each other. Is this what it was like before I was around?

Calum looked up at me and smiled, a real genuine smile that made little winkles appear next to his eyes.
"Katie! come here babe." He patted the empty spot next to him on the couch.

So they notice me now?

I slowly attempted to move again and this time I managed to freely walk over to the couch and sat next to him.

As soon as I sat down Calum kissed me on the forehead before turning his attention to my stomach.
"How is my little baby doing today?" He rubbed his hand over my stomach which was a lot bigger than usual. When did that happen?

"Y-your baby?" I looked at him with a confused look on my face which just made him chuckle.
"Well I am the daddy, and your amazing husband." I felt like the air had been knocked out of my lungs when he said that. This is getting really weird.

"What's going on?" All three boys laughed at me like I was completely insane.

"We flew out here to spend time with your brother. Don't you remember?" Flew out here? Then where the hell did we live?

I looked over at Niall to see him paying attention to us with an amused look on his face.
"Then why is Niall here?" His amused look turned into one of hurt but he shook it off before answering me.
"What? You don't want to spend time with your best friend aswell?" They all looked at me again waiting for my reaction.

"Best friend? Since when?" I have no idea what was going on but throughout this whole thing they all seemed overly happy and it was so not normal.
"Since the day we met silly. I even set you up with Calum." What on earth is he talking about?!

"Really? I don't remember that."

Liam laughed and stood up to walk over to me. He rubbed his hand over my round stomach and smiled up at me.
"You need to think of baby names Katie. I know you wanted to call him Mason Hood but I still think he should be called Liam Jr Payne-Hood." I let out a small giggle at his horrible idea of a baby name.

I opened my mouth to respond but heard my name coming from somewhere around us. All the boys didn't seem to notice though and looked at me confused as I looked around trying to find the source of the voice.

I closed my eyes to try and block out the voice but it just seemed to get louder and louder.

"KATIE! Wake up already!" I opened my eyes again to see that i was no longer in Liam's lounge room but an unfamiliar bedroom.
I looked around for a minute until I saw Ashley sitting up on the other side of the bed.

"You alright Katie? You were talking in your sleep and laughing a lot. What were you dreaming about?"
I decided against telling Ashley about my dream. How was I meant to explain something like that when I didn't understand it myself.

"Nothing important really. " She smiled at me like she knew I was lying before standing and walking off to the kitchen.
I was still completely and utterly confused about everything to do with that dream.

The way it felt so incredibly real was both interesting yet terrifying at the same time.
Slowly as I began to wake up more my mind started to pick up the pieces.
My life could easily be just as simple as that in real life if I had just made a few different choices.

I instantly ruined my own mood and it was way to early for this.

"Katie snap out of it. Breakfast is ready and we have a busy day ahead of us." Ash walked in with what looked like egg running down her shirt and I couldn't help but laugh at her poor cooking skills.


"Remind again why you are forcing me to pick a new phone today of all days? I really didn't want to go anywhere." I parked my car outside the shop that Ashley had directed me to and crossed my arms over my chest.

"Because you really need a new phone! And besides Liam called this morning saying that he ordered you a personalized phone and it arrived." The mention of Liam's name made me even more angry.

"Are you kidding me? And you expect me to get out of this car now? What if he is in there!!" Ash rolled her eyes and stared me down until I felt way to uncomfortable and hoped out of the car.

I didn't bother waiting for Ash instead I walked straight into the store. Once in the store I couldn't help but wince at how happy and bubbly everyone was. You work in a fucking phone store what is there to be happy about?
I quickly looked around and at first glance I didn't see Liam, I relaxed slightly but still wasn't in the mood to be in public.

Turning around I saw Ash flirting with one of the employees and even though she was all into Harry she still found the courage to flirt with other people.
I let out a small laugh at the sight before turning around again and attempting to walk over to the counter but a few teenage boys I had never seen before stepped infront of me making me take a step back to make sure the don't touch me.

"You're Katie Payne! We're big fans!" I had to smile knowing they probably only heard about me yesterday when I signed my own singing contract.
"Aw well thank you." I smiled up at them and tried to move around them but one of them put their arm out to stop me.

"Wait! Are you getting a new phone? Can we have your number it would be so freaking awesome! Everyone would be so jealous!" They all started to move closer to me but a kept moving away while trying to spot Ashley.
I couldn't find her and began to panic. I have never liked strange people being to close to me and these guys are just making a bad day even worse.

"I don't think that's a good idea sorry." Their expressions changed to angry within seconds, Is this what all famous people go through?
"Touch her and I promise that you will regret it for the rest of your life." The familiar voice coming from behind me sent relief and at the same time more anger running through my body.

The whole group of boys rolled their eyes and walked off like nothing had happened. I stood there for a minute deciding weather or not I should actually turn around or not.

I decided on turning around to at least thank him, after all he is my brother.

Liam had his eyes fixed on the boys leaving the store, and honestly if looks could kill they would all be dead five times by now.

His eyes turned to me for a second before leaving and returning to do a double take.
"You look really nice. Do you have plans?" He looked rather shy like he thought I was actually going to blow up at him in public. I was still mad at him but I'more of a silent angry person most of the time, I yell about it once then I just stay quiet until I'm ready to get over it.

"Uh I wasn't plaing to but since I'm already out I'm going to met with Simon." The awkward tension was really obvious and I was praying right now that Ashley would show up.

"What why? Is something wrong with your contract?" He looked so paniced and I have to admit it was kind of funny.
"No he just wants me to met the producers, that kind of stuff and I've been working on a song that I want him to hear." Liam nodded

"Oh that's great. I'm coming with y- Oh I mean can I come with you?" He shifted uncomfortably when he realized what he was saying and stopped halfway.

"No actually. I don't want anyone to hear it before it's released." His face fell when I said that but the song was not something that I wanted peopled to hear until I was ready for it.
"Um okay I guess I deserved that. Lets just pick up your new phone shall we?" I nodded at his words and walked over to the counter with Liam.

The man behind the counter looked down at me and waited for me to talk but then I realized that I didn't even know what to say so I looked over at Liam and he instantly knew I needed his help.

"We ordered a pink samsung galaxy. It's under Liam Payne." A samsung this time huh?
The man looked at Liam strangely because of his choice of phone but shrugged it off and went out back to find our order.

"Why did you order it under your name?" Liam looked confused by my question but in my opinion it is a valid question.
"Because I wanted it to be a surprise." He smiled for the first time since I saw him today but it wasn't meaningful enough to bring on a smile of my own.


I didn't really have much else to say but he continued to look at me like he was waiting for me to say something else. I know I'm being very bitter towards him but he lied to me and then that dream from last night just made me even more bitter now that I know what life could be like if things had been slightly different.

Lima sighed before turning to fully face me.

"Look I know I was a dick but you're still my baby sister and I love you more then anything." I nodded but this just made Liam huff and knot his eyebrows together.

"Why have you never told me that you love me back? Or tell anyone for that fact that you love them?" I was taken back that he noticed something like that. No one has ever really noticed that.

"Because I'm not sure I know what real love is."

*1 week later*

"Are you ready for this?" Ashley finished up my hair in the mirror as I just sat there an stared at myself.

Today was the day.

I was singing my first offical single in front of the press and management and my family. To say it was a scary moment was an understatement.

Ashley has been so helpful over the past week which included letting me stay at her place once I begged herto let me.
It hasn't been very easy to stay away from Liam but I think we both needed our space and that's exactly what we're doing.

Liam knew I was serious a week ago when I said I wasn't sure what love is and since then he has been avoiding me and I'm pretty sure it's because he blames himself. He really shouldn't though, I grew up in the wrong family and never learnt the importance of true love.
Being adopted is one thing but your own parents feeling like they had to raise me with no choice is a bit different so yeah I believe that I don't know what real love is but I don't see that as a reason for Liam to avoid me.

Just as I came back to my senses I heard Simon call my name for me to join him on stage so I took in a deep breathe and walked towards Simon.

The noise was crazy and I was extremely nervous but I kept my smile on my face and wave out to the crowd.
I felt a bit hurt that I couldn't see Liam but I guess it was a bit of a long shot for him to come.

Before I knew it the music had started and I started to block out everything else and focus on my performance.

"Lying on a fake beach
You'll never get a tan
Baby I'm gonna leave you drowning until you reach for my hand

In the night your heart is full and by the morning empty
But baby I'm the one who left you, you're not the one who left me

When you’re around me, I’m radioactive
My blood is burning, radioactive
I'm turning radioactive
My blood is radioactive
My heart is nuclear
Love is all that I fear
I'm turning radioactive
My blood is radioactive

Waiting for the night fall, for my heart to light up
Oh baby I want you to die for, for you to die for my love

In the night your heart is full and by the morning empty
But baby I'm the one who left you, you're not the one who left me

When you’re around me, I’m radioactive
My blood is burning, radioactive
I'm turning radioactive
My blood is radioactive
My heart is nuclear
Love is all that I fear
Ready to be let down
Now I’m heading for a meltdown

Tonight I feel like neon gold
I take one look at you and I grow cold
And I grow cold...
And I grow cold...

When you’re around me, I’m radioactive
My blood is burning, radioactive
I'm turning radioactive
My blood is radioactive
My heart is nuclear
Love is all that I fear
Ready to be let down
Now I’m heading for a meltdown

My heart is nuclear
Love is all that I fear."

Everyone cheered as I finished and I was beyond happy that they liked it.

"That is the very first hit single from Katie Payne titled 'Radioactive'! Lets hear it one more time for Katie!" As Simon talked out towards the crowd I looked around again and was very surprised when my eyes connected with my brothers.

He smiled to me and gave me a thumbs up which made me laugh a little bit. I haven't seen him in a week and I have to say it was good to see him.

He actually came.

And he actually liked it.


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