Perfect Act - Comments, page 5

@NarryLover123
I'll update as soon as I can. I should be able to post a chap within the next 24 hours.

Holy shit please update soon this is so good!!!

I know what you mean @zaynisthebestest, because its exams time :(

@StylesHub
Aww thanks. I'll update as soon as I can
ps. This is zaynisthebestest, just from the 5sos fanfic site

this story is amazing and I love it so much! its one of my favourites and I cant wait for you to update it again :)

@lalaladooo
Yea she really does need help...

@zaynisthebestest
well atleast they know her problem now so they can help herrrr

@fascinated
Mm between studying and out of school activities I promise to write as often as I can. I'm definitely not having a 'lack of motivation to write' problem anymore, it's just finding the time. I promise I'll update as soon as I can though xoxo

I'm glad your feeling better about yourself @zaynisthebestest :) And please please please update soon!!! But I know you'll be having a lot of exams around now, so don't cut your study time for us!!!

@zaynisthebestest
Haha thnks lol

@Louis Gurll
Aww haha I love you too

Omfg Bella with the girls on her period things like omfg I died laughing like that was perfect and o ma gawd like I LOVE YOU

@zaynisthebestest
Oh thanks :)

@FuTuRe_Ms_HoRaN!
Whoops sorry for being unclear. Zayn found her. Louis was looking for her, but when he finally found her she was already dancing with Harry
@fascinated
it really is time Harry found out....and yea I'll admit I have had some pretty serious self harm problems in the recent past but I'm becoming better with therapy
@Just_a_teenage_dirtbag
aww don't cry love XOXO big hugs and kisses
@AisforAlisonotAmateur
you'll find out soon enough ;)

I am speechless. Seriously, utterly speechless. How could she be so blind to herself? And it's high time Harry found out, before things got seriously out of hand. But you never answered my question from the last chapter, but I am just going to hope that that is just part of your past, not present.

SHIT!!!!! Shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i might cry.

OHSHITTTT btw, who exactly found her at that dinner? At first, it was Zayn, then Louis said he did??? I'm really confused! anyway, I still love the story

oh god what will happen ?????

An do you talk as if you have so much experience @zaynisthebestest? I hope it is not because of the reason one would assume. And thank you for that look inside her head, because I understand it better now (and I want to be a consoler so that is very helpful). I hope you can give us a positive update soon (any update would do actually) :)

@fascinated
I'm gonna tell you a little bit more about what's going on in Bella's mind. When she eats she is convinced that every little bit on that food will end up as fat, so according to her mind,if she vomits she will not gain that weight. She thinks it's not a problem because she hasn't stopped eating all together, she still eats a little. She compares herself to supermodels and thinks that the tiny flaws she see's as big things are all other people will notice. Looking in the mirror, even though there is this tiny rational voice telling her she is beautiful,that voice gets overpowered by all the voices telling her she isn't good enough, so she actually see's a girl who weighs more then her. She honestly doesn't see that she is too thin, her mind and eyes see someone bigger then her. Throwing up actually provides a sense of releif for her, much like when she self harms.

with the cutting, if you have never had a long going self harm problem (which I sincerely hope you havnt) then you will never fully understand, and that's not a bad thing. Slicing her skin provides releif and even though it is temporary, the feeling feels so good she keeps doing it. Whether it is to punish herself because she doesn't think she is good enough, whether it is just to be 'free' for a few seconds or if (you won't understand this unless you have done it) she just hasn't done it for a while and the scars are fading, as she becomes used to the scars when they fade she replaces them

Both these things she does provide release for her and they become a part of her, a part she isn't sure who she is without, even though she subconsciously knows its bad.

Hopefully this has helped you understand Bella a little better and what's going through her head.