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@sunrise.

I'm sorry to hear all this. I really do hope you're okay.
If you need anyone to talk to I'm here and I'm sure everyone else on the site is too xx

@tedzy

I'm mostly alright.

I'm so glad I had my [spare] guitar in my car.

I've been swearing quite a lot at my phone these two days.

Can I message you?

@sunrise.
Do you need to vent or rant? I'm available :)

@sugarcube.

Alrighty.

I've been dating this guy, the school's 'playboy', I knew it wouldn't last but my naive heart wouldn't accept logic.

Since I wanted to keep my virginity, I mean, I'm only 17, he goes to pleasure himself with my best friend, Violet.

Honestly, I don't want to be mad at him, but cheating? Really?

This was a month ago.

He calls from Teresa's phone, hoping I will pick up.

Obviously I do, caller ID.

He tries to say sorry, completely oblivious to what is happening and I don't need his apologies.

Now I'm locked into my own hospital room, the doctors "monitoring" me and my mentality.

I've heard too many times today, "Her depression is getting worse." Like, fuck, I know my depression is getting worse! Anxiety is not helping! My dyslexia is making it hard to remain sane.

The only thing I've done all was cry, write music on my guitar, and read.

@sunrise.
I'm so sorry to hear about that player, you didn't deserve to get hurt like that. You're doing the right thing though by playing guitar and reading, it's good coping skills and a good distraction.

Depression sucks, that's one of the most obvious things ever. But it won't get better overnight as you know. The first thing to do is just accept every bad thing that's happening, and then make a plan about what you can go do fix them.

It will get better eventually!! Always remember that, okay?

@sugarcube.

It's hard.

I've had depression since Grade 6, when my mother had her first heart attack.

I'm terribly worried and anxiety was building up on me.

I was born with dyslexia. School is horrible.

It's hard not to go insane, honestly.

@sunrise.
I'm so sorry to hear about your mother, and it seems hopeless but one way or another things will keep adding and building up and it seemed hopeless but you can get through it.

My little brother has dyslexia and he hates it, but the best thing to do is just read everything. Streets signs, posters, buildings, ect. You can do it, I know you can through all of this :)

@sunrise.

of course! sorry, i was at a family gathering all day so i had no access to the web. if you still would like to talk i am free to listen and help at any time xx

@sugarcube.

I'm sorry for your brother ♥♥♥

Its not terribly hard to read, but writing sucks.

I use a voice recorder to type my stories then my, mother - usually - checks over them.

The hospital is hell on earth.